give it up to me

Heyyy What's going on? Well this past week has been kind of tiring. I dont entirely know why, all I do know is that I'm really tired.. So here I am.. I had my classes today, and I thought .. wouldn't it be nice to blog for my faithful readers? I am so excited now, because Im listening online to the new Sean Paul album, on mtv.com, and it's really making me excited. Im going to go buy it on tuesday, and I am just so excited about it.. How many times do I have to say that I'm excited about it? Do you get the point? Anyways, I have to get some work done, because these next two weekends are not going to have much work jammed into them.. This weekend my future sister is coming for a sleep over, (ha ha, I sound like I'm five years old) and then the weekend after that, my friend Tricia is coming for the weekend. It's going to be fun, but, like I said, I wont get much work done. A couple of days ago, my roomies and I decided that we needed to get out of the apartment, so we all went to Earls for dinner.. It was, not just expensive, but incredible.. It was sooo good.. ! Then last night, i didn't feel like making dinner, because, like I said.. im tired.. listen to me ramble, most of this just doesnt make any sense..
Umm.. Im going to go for now, because I actually can't focus on this..
So love you all..
Sorry it's so short, up to the time..

Shle
xoxo

Take another look at my life, and I see
That it's never gonna be the same
Throughout life and all eternity
We keep burning up the flame..

My feet hurt..

Hey everyone, how are things going in the land of.. Wherever you live?
Well, things in Calgary are going really well.. I have my room to myself for the weekend, cause Crystal went to a wedding in swift current. I enjoys it.. yesterday, I went to my classes, i was a good gyal, and I went to chapel as well! I was really behaving.. On Friday night, i pretty much just chilled and did nothing, I stole mike's computer and wrote out my intro to the bible notes, cause they were gettin messy in my notebook. So then me and shaunna painted our toenails and it was fun.. So I did that, then I had the best sleep ever, cause I closed the blinds, and didnt have the lights from the surrounding buildings in my face. most of the time, there is too much junk infront of the curtians for me to even be able to reach the cord thing. But Crystal cleaned up before she left, so I could get to it, it made my sleep really good. ANNNND Yeah. I woke up this morning and mike said he would drive me to the store, but he was smart and left his lights on in the car all night, and so his battery was dead as a doornail.. (how dead is that?)
So we walked to the co-op, i got what i needed, and then i spent the rest of the morning typing stuff up on my new account on my brothers computer. ha ha, he doesnt know i made myself an account yet, he thinks i just made a folder on his desktop, but to be honest, i got sick of looking at his background, and so i made my own account, and for now, johnny depp is the background.. what a hottie. LOL!
So this afternoon, I spent about four hours walking and riding the C-Train around calgary with about 20 people, we had to follow these clues to find these people with cow udders (inflated rubber gloves) and take them with us.. the team with the most cows won something. I didnt stick around to find out who won tho , cause i was tired, and i gots homework to do.. So i went home on the train with Troy and some other people, (Troy is mikes roomie) and yeah.. Then When i got home, me and Shaunna decided to make the most incredible dinner. We made Chicken cordon-bleu, Brocoli and Cheese sauce ( thanks to my grandmas advice) and stove-top stuffing, and salad.. it was oh so good.
Anyways.. now shaunna and I are going to go and watch Pirates of the Caribbean, it's gonna be great, cause we both love Johnny Depp and every time he comes on the screen, we're gonna be like.. AHHH!
So yeah!
Love you all very much, hope everythings grand.
You should write me sometime, it amuses me...
Love always:
Shle
Xoxo

Girl it is on, at four o' clock in di morn'
An I been watchin' you shake dat ting
Man dem a try, dem a get deny
Cause I'm gonna tek dat ting

Life as a laundry basket.

Afternoon everyone, how are things?
Well things here are average, but all in all, fairly boring. Having no money and no car sure puts a damper on ones spirit, or at least, on ones situation, eh?
The other day, I took a blast from the past, and we watched two episodes of "Jem and the Holligrams!" It was indeed eighties cartoons, complete with music video and all! HAHAHHAHA!
So yesterday, I started a paper that was due today, and about five minutes into it, Everyone decided to go to Valu Village, and so I went along for the ride, because I had nothing better to do.. I mean, who cares about a paper, right? Aside from that, I knew I'd get it done, so I headed out to valu village with Crystal, Allison and Eileen. It was a big waste of time, cause I didnt buy anything, and I didnt even see anything that would have remotely interested me anyways! But it was better, I suppose, than sitting around and doing homework.. So we got back around 4pm, we bieng me and crystal, because Allison and Eileen decided to go to the mall after Valu Village, and by that time, jimminy cricket had appeared on my shoulder, and I had to go back to my homework.. And Crystal felt the same way.. On the way back, It was sooo funny! We hopped off the C-Train and, while walking past crack max, saw a blatant drug deal happen. These guys ran off the train, and one handed the guy some money, and the other handed him a rather large bag full of weed. Crystal had never seen anything of the sort, and she was so shocked! I must say, those kids are certianly stupid, to deal drugs in broad daylight so blatantly! Silly young thugs.. actually... silly thug wannabes... That's what I meant to say..
So I got back, and just as I settled back into my routine, Mike came in and offered me the use of his laptop.. So after playing around with that for awhile, looking at my pictures off my CD, I finally got down to business, and soon realized that my paper wasn't as hard as I thought it was, when I wasn't focused on it.. Oh well. So I got that done, and then Allison and I decided that we were so sick of bieng in Res, so we went on the C-Train, for another random adventure, and we went to the end of the line, I can't remember which way, but it was a rather long way.. It wasnt that much of an adventure, no one approached us, no one was wierd.. It was boring! So we got off the C-Train, and looked at our watches, and realized that we were going to be late for curfew, so we booked it like mad, and when we got in the building, all the RA's and Chris were sitting in the lobby. I was freaked, I thought mabye they were waiting for us, but as we walked by, they all said "TEN SECONDS!"
It turns out that we got in with ten seconds to go before midnight, it was the most adventure-like thing that happened all night! HA HA!
So what else is new? I have to think now.. I'm in the process of doing my laundry, cause I really needed to, but it turns out these quarters I've got are american, and so they dont fit in the machines, which is really annoying, so I got gypped by a couple of bucks, by the washers and driers.. OH my word! What a disaster... Well, now that I think about it, it really is a disaster, cause Im poor now.. Arg.. Another ten minutes on the machines.. What should I talk about? Damn.. I realize I have nothing else to talk about, really. I had three classes today, which was draining.. Missions, Cultural perspectives, and Pentateuch.. Today in Pentateuch, we talked about the authorship of it, and how it affects so many people, and the different sides to the debate about who really wrote it.
Most of that time, I was sitting there thinking, who really cares who wrote it? Moses, or multiple authors, does it really matter? The fact of the matter is, the Pentateuch is a part of Gods Holy word, why should it matter to us who it was written by? The prof, at the end of the class, said that we will never know who wrote the Pentateuch, and I say better for it! I dont understand how the author of a part of the bible could be so detrimental to someones faith. The way I see it, God wrote the whole bible, not personally, of course, but He, through inspiration, wrote the book for us to read and share with the nations.. Does it matter through whom?
anyways, just a random vent..
Ummmm I havent got much else to say right now. It's gonna be a short blog.. cause im cold, and my laundrys done! So im going to go upstairs for now!
Love you all tons! !

Love forever: Shle
Xoxo

P.S. These lyrics are dedicated to whitney. cause I luv her, and she knows all the lyrics.. to a rap song.. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!

"People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father Father Father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?"

Hi, this is Ashley, and Welcome to adventures in Calgary!

ha ha, you wouldn't believe the day/night I had yesterday..
So it started out ok, Intro to the bible.. four pages of notes, I just about died. Then I skipped chapel, but not on purpose, I just forgot about it, so I went to the Co-Op grocery store and got some stuff that should carry me thru to October at least. Anyways, then I had my Tim Moore class, which is always awesome, cause he's just such a funny guy.. Anyways.. Then I went upstairs to the library, and wrote a blog, which didn't work because the website decided to become "temporarily unavailable" when I pressed the publish button. Oh well..
Alas, I don't remember what I wrote about yesterday, so it cant've been all that important.. So after the library, we (being me and Crystal) headed to a phone and called to get our phone hooked up.. I'm so excited, it's gonna start working on Wednesday! ANYWAYS!
Then, back at the apartment, the three of us decided we were going to make a nice dinner, which we did.. We made chicken, Corn on the cob, mashed potatoes, and salad.. it turned out really really good. They thought I put too much garlic in the potatoes, I still think it could've used more.. But it's all good. Then we had oreo ice cream for dessert, and we all worked to clean the kitchen.. It was good fun. So around 8:30 I got bored, and decided to go on a random C-Train adventure.. So we went all the way to Whitehorn, which is the end of the line, it took about half an hour one way, half an hour back. When I was nearing the end of the line, I turned around and asked this guy if the train was going to turn around and head back downtown, or if I had to get on another train. When He started talking to me, I noticed that he had a very strong accent, tho I couldn't place what it was. I thanked him, and explained that I was very new to the area, and he said "no problem" and asked me where I was from. I told him,and he said "I just moved here from Paris a couple of months ago" and then asked me how old I was, and if I wanted him to drive me back downtown.. I politely declined.. Didn't think it would have been the best idea to get into some random's car.. So I didn't go with him.. lol.. We thought he was very amusing by the end of the train ride.. So you would think that this would be the end to my adventures..

Oh no.. Back in the res, it was bedtime.. I was asleep for a good five or so hours, when the RA, Catherine, came into the room . I woke up to her asking my roomie if I had been in my bed the whole time.. now I was thinking to myself.. what do you mean the whole time? Then she said to me "I need you to call your parents" And I was like. no, they'll be asleep! And she then told me that I've been considered missing for the past hour and a half, and I was like.. dude, I was sleeping. Apparently she had come into the room around one AM to check on us, and I didn't wake up when she asked if I was there. And apparently, Crystal said (in her sleep) that she didn't know where I was.. So, without looking in my bed, they assumed that I was gone and so they thought it would be a good idea to call my brother, in vermilion, and my parents.. Who FREAKED out.. Mom was ready to get on a plane, and mike was about to drive home from vermilion..This whole time, I'm sound asleep in my bed.. So I get all this thru my head, and called my parents.. Told them that I was in bed the whole time, assured them that I would not be doing anything stupid such as being out way past curfew.. It was quite the adventure.. so stupid tho, Like.. Couldn't they have moved the covers aside, or at least turned on the light to LOOK? Before CALLING MY PARENTS at one in the morning and freaking them out? Honestly!
So yeah, I managed to get back to sleep after that, and slept in this morning to a nice hour. Then I woke up and started making bacon and hashbrowns for me, Crystal and this other girl, who lives across the hall, Stephanie. After that, we went to Sait Gym, and went swimming for a good hour or so, with our new handy dandy gym passes.. It was fun.. But It was pouring rain! So on the way back, it was all wet and stuff.. Anyways, this little baby was in the seat behind me on the C-Train, when I say baby, I mean, like a year and a half old.. and anyways, he was so cute, I talked to him, cause he tapped me on the shoulder and said hi.. it was soooo cute! And yeah! So When We got back from the gym, I had a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner, and re-wrote my notes from intro to the Bible, cause they were a mess. SO yeah.. Then I got bored with Vibe98 FM, so I randomly tried to find a radio station, and stumbled upon 91fm, A REGGAE RADIO STATION! it made my day, all the sudden, I was going thru the stations, and heard Sizzla, which is really nice reggae, it's not like the crazy dancehall, sean paul type of reggae, but more like the bob marley, peter tosh, and jah cure kind of reggae. I know this doesn't make alot of sense to you, but it's a great station. They even played some Luciano, who I love.. ANYWAYS!!!
So now, here I am.. Bored outta my skull, and writing bloggness to you..
I havent much else to say to you tonight, as I am getting kind of exhausted.. I bet it's the rain that does it to me.. It works every time.. Anyways.. Tomorrow I'm going to foothills alliance church, I'm quite excited about it.. Should be great! I hope that everyones weekends are going well so far! I'll write again soon!

Love you forever!
Love Shle
xoxo

P.S. Whit.. .. Good and Interesting? 106 days until Christmas! ! ! ! !! :D


"Is this happening for real,
only if you know the vibes what I feel
still trying to do my best,
and I still wont lose my interest
my boy I love you so,
really hurt to see you go
Why does it have to be this way,
cant tell you go cant tell you stay,
just one of those days,
just one of those days "

A good question indeed.

So today was my first day of classes. All in all, it was pretty good. I woke up fairly nervous, after a really wicked good sleep.. I walked with four other girls down to the school, and went into the classroom, 633, Intro to the bible. It's arather larger class than what im used to, around 50 people at least. Anyways, we got this immensly huge reading list, which kind of scared me.. Seriously, it's about 3 pages long. Anyways, then the prof explained the course, and our one assignment (a HUGE paper) which freaked me out, im scared by it, but it's gonna be ok, cause .. well it just will. When I looked at the reading list, tho, i felt like dying, but then i remembered this email I got that said "You dont have to do all the work on the syllabus at once, dont freak out when you see it" and so I took a few breaths, and calmed down a bit..
Anyways, after that, I went home for a few hours, because I didnt have another class until 2:30.. So me, Shaunna, and Crystal went to the co-op for no reason at all, but before we could get there, this train decided to cross the road where we had to walk to get there, so we were standing there for like 10 minutes , watching this 122 car train go by.. yep, i counted.
So I tried to make a couple of phone calls, but no one was home, and i didnt figure it out until on my way back to the res that everyone was probably in school.. Im not too smart.. oh well.
Sooo then, me and Crystal headed back to the school for our second class of the day, the one I was most looking forward to, Intro to Christian Spirituality, with Rev.Tim Moore.
One of the reasons i was looking forward to it, is becasue Tim moore is a hilarious guy, and cause i knew he'd have lots of stories to tell me about my brother.. True enough, he looked at me, and said "I have a story to tell you about your brother, wanna hear?" and he told me this funny story that im not going to share with you till I check with my brother. But anyways..
I am really excited about this class. It started right off the bat, when Tim asked a really thought provoking question.
"Why are you a christian?"

at first, my thought was .. well.. I've always been. When Tim asked a boy in class, he basically said what i thought, and thenTim goes.. "That's not good enough"
So I started thinking more.. Why am I a christian? Is it cause it's such a good deal? I mean, think about it, eternity in heaven! Mabye it's cause I need something to believe in.. and it's there. Mabye it's because god is so good. But then again, my life hasnt been perfect. So that's not the answer. Then I thought, mabye because it's the easy thing to do. But that's not true, bieng a Christian is so hard, especially today. So now here I am, stuck trying to figure out why the heck I am a christian! I've come to the conclustion that I am a Christian simply because Jesus chose me, not because I choseHim. Im not sure were else to go with that, but I realize that the farther we go in discussion in that particular class, the more I will come to the answers, the ones that Tim said are already inside of us, we just don't know how to express them.
So yeah, that's random, but it makes me really excited for the classes. And there's a chance that I might get to go to Coasta Rica! it's for this thing called Intersession, and I might get to go there to visit this crisis pregnancy centre, and help the young girls there, aged 13-18.. and help them with their little babies and stuff.
anyways, I will talk more about that another time, at the moment, people are waiting to use the computers, so im going to go.. Just know that all is well with me so far, so no worries!

love to you all!
love forever: shle
xoxo

"A product of the environment
Pour some liquor for those who passed away
I told my mom I'ma get up out of da hood
My dad taught me the American dream, baby
You can be anything that you wanna"

A Really nice view

Afternoon, all you bloggers!
How's life treating you?
Well, today is my second day in a new environment, Calgary, Alberta. I finally met my other roommate, Shaunna, she seems really nice, tho I haven't really talked to her for long enough to tell you about her.
Today, I went shopping with my brother/protector/tourguide, and I got some textbooks. It was an interesting experience, I bought eight books today, mike has two of them that I need, and I am going to talk to my professor about the bible I may need to purchase, and see if, perhaps, I can avoid buying it, cause bibles are expensive, and my mom just bought me a new bible before I left. Either way, Im excited about

So some of my books are like absoloutely huge! I got one called "Handbook to the bible", one called "Intro to World Missions" , one called "bieng the Body" and also a "Dictionary of the Old Testament" .. those books are humongus.. Then there's some other ones, which are smaller, and not hard cover, but are also looking interesting. I actually can't wait until i start reading them.
Uhhh what else. Oh today, I bought some thumb tacks, so I got to put up a small bulliten board, upon which I have hung all my crosses. It's feeling more and more like home, only a bit tho, Calgary will never ever replace Vancouver as home. It's like.. well.. home!

So where we live is a very noisy part of Calgary.. See, Calgary is huge! But the res and the school are downtown Calgary, like the part with all the highrises, and the thugs and gangsters, and all night there are sirens going off, people skateboarding down the streets, or alot of wind making frightening noises. But it's gonna be great, this is just one huge adventure.
Ummmm I havent got much else to say, but dont you worry, cause it's only just begun!
I'll be writing alot more now, so yeah! Be ready!

Love to you all,
Love forever

shle
xoxo

"Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete"

It's just so flat!

Dear Faithful Blog readers.. As my title might suggest to you... I am now oficially in Calgary. It's kind of frightening, but I know for sure that I am not alone here, not only have I got my God, but I've got my brother too, who is really wicked, and has promised to take wonderful care of me.
So yeah.. Yesterday, we (bieng, me, mike, cara and my parents) woke up at four am, got ready, and off we went. It was a long drive, passed with music, laughter, and lovey-doveyness between mike and cara, which, by the time we reached Golden, started to annoy/sicken me. Anyways, I drove for about four hours of the trip, it was good fun, I was grateful for the chance to actually have something to focus my attentions on other than the fact that I would not be seeing Vancouver for a long time after. So we finally arrived in Calgary, after a 10.5 hour long drive, and we went to the res, and it was wicked, cause I could actually move in a day early. right now, im thankful for that, because when I saw my roomie moving in today, the two of us moving in at the same time would have been chaos. Anyways, back to the story ... SO I moved in, realizing that I would not be in the big huge apartment my brother had predicted, but instead in a really really small one. It's not so bad, i suppose. Anyways, I realized that one of the girls in my apartment (Shaunna) had already moved in, but had yet to move her physical self in, and wont be here until Monday. So I went into the unoccupied room and chose wisely the bottom bunk bed, and this desk which is cool.. i mean, they're both the same, but I liked the location of this desk. So yeah, I set up, realized I dont have no closet, and unpacked all my stuff.. and so yeah.. then we went to this place, called.. a bar.. it was amusing, mom and dad let me have a strawberry dacory thingy, it was good stuff... Mom only had a sip of hers, then gave me the rest, which micheal suggested that I chug, so i did, and i got a headache, but not drunk or anything, lol. I could still walk a straight line.
Anyways, then we went to the hotel, I called a good friend of mine, and we talked for half an hour, then I went to bed. Woke up this morning, went to church, called .. ummmmm well I can't remember, but the pastor was the speaker from YC, Tim Bergman, and he was wicked, I really enjoyed myself, the worship was amazing, and it looks as though that might just become my church for the year. But I miss cove already. They had a picnic in the park today, and ate subway.. mmm Im jealous. i wonder how that went for them, lol. Anyways, so then we went to BP for lunch, with mike, Tim, and dad and mom, after saying goodbye to Cara (she headed back to Vermillion after church) and then we went grocery shopping, aparently, according to mike, i did a terrible job with that, so we'll have to work on it, anyways, then we put the groceries away, my other roomie still hadn't made an appearance yet, and then we went to aunt elaines for dinner, and came back, where I finally met my roomate, Crystal, from ... some place in Saskatchewan... Swift Creek, I think.. Anyways, she's cool so far, except she listens to country music.. Ick.. Anyways, it's all good so far, i have this balcony that is constantly hounded by pigeons, i gotsta do someting about that, cause i dont like them they make messy poopey stains on the deck.. But i realized it's going to be great out there, in my lawn chair, with a good book or a warm cup of tea (that's right, i bought Tea today! I NEVER drink tea! But i figure why not, eh?) anyways, now it's eleven pm, and im exhausted, so Im off to sleep the first night in my new apartment.
love to you all,
Chances are, I miss you so much right now.
But it's all good.

Love forever:
Shle
Xoxo

"Live life
Live life like you're gonna die
Becasue you're gonna
I hate to be the bearer of bad news
But you're gonna die
Maybe not today or even next year
But before you know it you'll be saying
"Is this all there was?
What was all the fuss?
Why did I bother?"
Now, maybe you won't suffer maybe it's quick
But you'll have time to think
Why did I waste it?
Why didn't I taste it?
You'll have time
Because you're gonna die."

P.S. I think that guy is PSYCHO.... Just for laughs..

Wake me up when September ends..

As August winds to a close, it's hard not to think back on all the good times I've had over the years. After all, this isn't just a normal end of the summer. All the other ones, I went back to where I was somewhat comfortable, somewhat aware of my surroundings. But now..
Things are crazy! I don't know where im going, only where I've been, and so it is indeed a new beginning, a fresh start. I've been saying goodbye to my friends over the past couple of days, and it's just been really tough, thinking about leaving behind the only life I've ever known, the only friends i've ever known.. you know what I mean? Just yesterday, a friend of mine gave me a card, filled to the brim with memories, good times and bad, and I almost cried, just remembering all of it. THe other day, I was packing up my stuff and I placed into my bin, a photo of me and my best friend, and I just sat on my bed, and started crying. I can't imagine leaving... But amidst all the sadness, I know that the friendships of which I speak will last through these times, because a little bit of distance only means we'll talk on the phone alot more often. My first priority when I get to Calgary is to figure out a damn good long distance plan..
I said goodbye to another one of my friends today, it was so wierd, thinking that it's gonna be months and months till I see her again. *sighs dramatically*

I've gotten my class schedule, and so far it's looking good. Nothing monday, three classes on tuesday and thursday, and two on wednsdays and fridays. Next semester, I'm signed up for three classes, plus intersession, but I still have to sign up for my electives. So we'll see about that. According to mike, I'll be living in Apt. 602, which is really big, and he'll be living in apt. 102, which is also rather large. I can't wait, im getting really excited. But mixed in with the excitment is apprehension, there's so much that I dont know.. So much to figure out when i get there. But I know that every little thing is going to work out, because God's gonna take care of me.

As for now, this is going to be cut short, because Im going out with yet another friend, to say "goodbye".. So peace out, goodbye for now, and I'll always love you all!

Love forever: shle
xoxo

"So how do you wait for heaven,
and who has that much time,
and how do you keep your feet on the ground
when you were born
Born to fly."

umm july updates.. all in one!

Dear Faithful blog readers, some of whom i didnt even know existed! (ahem Cara, ahem)
Sorry for the lack of updates, and i know this excuse is going to be the same as every other one, I've been insane busy.
So last night was my last day at work, it made me smile.. cause it was my last day. and the last sandwich i made just happened to be for a guy named jeff walters, which was amusing.. just cause if you know who he is, you are amused by that fact.
So last time i wrote, it was beginning of the summer, now it's the end, which is a huge, irresponsible time gap. Alot has happened since then.. I went to jamaica, and this blog is going to be sort of alllllll about that. So have fun with this guys. Brace yourselves.

So the trip started with the flight, which was .. Exciting. . But I was so scared too It had been a long time since I had seen Treston, and I had a lot of responsibility this time. I had to stick to the plan! So we got to Jamaica, and I was so nervous that I was shaking. Shaking, and it’s like 100 degrees outside! Then I saw Treston, and Yvonne, and all of the sudden, it was like old times again. Treston hugged me and I sat in the backseat with Yvonne and he sat in the front with his friend, whose name, I dunno… Anyways.. We dropped off the bag that Tina had sent with me for all her family, then headed to Trestons yard. On the way there, Debo and Campy piled into the car.. . It turned out that I couldn’t stay in Trestons moms house, cause his little brother was sent home early from his dad’s house, so I stayed in Trestons house, and Treston slept on the couch in his moms living room. It was so sweet of him.. I felt so bad, tho! Oh wait wait, on the way home, we stopped in Lucea, at this little bar. The bar guy asks me where I’m from, and when I tell him Canada, he pulls this little beaver out from beneath the counter. He asks Treston if he knows what it is, and it took him and his friend like 20 minutes discussing it, telling me they’re sure that it can swim, and it must be a Canadian animal, and finally, I couldn’t take it anymore, so I had to tell them what it was! They were driving me crazy! It was funny, tho, to watch them try to figure it out. That first night, we went to a birthday party of one of his friends, which was kind of boring, I was shy, and not too many people paid attention to me. Poor Shle… So then I met DJ.. He is Trestons Bestest best friend, and we’ll call him DJ, tho he has like … 4 different names. DJ, Element, Lee, and Lecroft. So DJ it is.. Anyways, Debo gets on the bike with DJ, and I got on the bike with Treston (motorbike) and we went to Negril. It was a really fun time, I met Pat (Trestons Sister) and we just had a good time in general. On the way back, we stopped at this corner store, like a grocery store the size of the gas station up at parkgate. We stood outside, I met so many people, and then all the boys got into a huge discussion about soccer. So that lasted awhile.. Which was fun to watch.
So the next day, I played Dominoes with Treston in the morning, and he kicked my ass royally! Anyways, I went to orange bay with Trestons older brother, Tyrone.. Treston said he would meet me there. That’s the beach, by the way. Anyways, we went first to Negril, and Tyrone got groceries, and bought me a drink, then we went to the beach, where Treston was hanging out with all his friends.. After a bit of time being semi-ignored, I told Treston that I was going for a walk down the beach.. Two people offered to plait my hair, and then this one guy started walking along with me. He asked me where I was staying, and I told him Logwood. Then he goes “Oh so you have a Jamaican boyfriend, then?” and I told him yes, and asked him if that meant he was going to stop walking with me. Then he said “no man.” and then went on and on about how logwood men were very scary, and how a lot of them have guns, and he asked me where my boyfriend was, because he didn’t want to cross him. I told him he was down at the other end of the beach, and we kept on walking. When I turned around, the guy left me where he joined me, and then I went back to Treston, and told him all about it. He thought it was funny, but asked me where the guy was, and got this jealous look on his face. I told him not to worry about it.
After that, I headed over to Yvonne’s yard, and we chilled with her friend, Taddy, and Campy, and some cute little kids, and then.. Wait this is the best part.Hurricane Dennis decided it was going to hit Jamaica. On my second day! I was kind of spooked, cause the sky kept flashing with lightning.. By the time it was dark, Treston came by on a bike, and had me worried, cause he was talking about getting my passport and money and stuff in a safe place, in case his house didn’t stand up to the storm, and then we went to get some supplies for the hurricane. He sent me into the store and told me to get what we needed, and I was like.. Dude, I have NO idea what to get.. You get it! After we got the groceries, me and DJ went on the motorbike to bring his seven year old son some supplies (who lives with DJ’s dad) and then headed back to the store. The rain was intense. The wind was intens-er.. that’s not a word, but I just made it one.. Hahahha.. So I heard that night, on the radio, all this stuff about the hurricane.. 15 inches of rain expected, flash floods, mudslides, winds up to 120 km/h, every public event cancelled until further notice, shelters opened, people advised to evacuate. It was a category 5 hurricane by the time it reached Jamaica. I was really kinda scared, but thank God, the hurricane missed the west end of Jamaica, and we were safe.. But the other half got damaged really badly…

umm, Tricias birthday, was cool, even tho she was still in canada. . I took a nice cold shower, cause when I woke up I was sweating like mad, I know… gross…
Treston left, saying that he would send DJ on the bike for me.. DJ came back like an hour after that, and told me to bring my phone that Tina told me to use, and my CD’s… So we got to where we were supposed to be, the house of one of Treston’s good friends. He had a daughter named Kacey, and a little baby named Junior. Treston told me that mom had called, and so he went down the road to get some calling cards and came back.. I called mom and I called Tricia for her birthday, too.. So when the baby woke up from his nap, I held him most of the afternoon.. Treston was sitting on the couch with me and the baby, and we were both playing with him, and it was just so cute! We stayed there until evening, when we all had dinner together. We had these things that looked like little pieces of steak, but then I saw Treston and DJ both eating them, and both of them are hardcore vegetarians, so I know it wasn’t steak.. It turned out to be some kind of vegetable that they have down there. Dunno what, but damn it was good.

Ok.. So that was that day, we had a good one all in all. The next day, I spent some time in the early morning listening to Dashboard confessional. I was getting sick of reggae, and that was not a good sign, seeing how I had only been there a couple of days! Oh well.
So we went to, what Treston called “the river” and we did laundry, and bathed in the water. It was really relaxing. So me and Treston had this discussion about religion by this point. I told him what I believed, he told me what he didn’t believe in (Jesus.. Uh oh..) I explained to him how important my faith was to me, and what I was going to do in the fall… and.. Wowza, I was going nuts, I was like.. Shit, this isn’t going to work out! Duh bob.. Thanks for that update…

Anyways, the rest of that afternoon, Treston went of to prepare for Julia’s birthday party, (his little niece) and I stayed in the yard, writing in my journal, and rocking out to real music. U2, Blink 182, Weezer, ect.. You know how it goes. And I had a good talk with Akeem, Trestons little brother. We talked about Canada and snow, and Hurricanes, and what a “real storm” is, and how when we in Canada get rain like they do in Jamaica, it’s considered a “real storm” and it was just good fun. Around three o’clock, I realized that Treston was not going to be on time, and so me, Randy, Sharlotte, Akeem all played Dominoes. Randy and Sharlotte are Trestons brother and sister in law. After we played dominoes, Sharlotte asked if she could plait my hair. So she did, she started around six and took an hour and a half to finish. Seven thirty. I was expecting Treston at three o’clock. Damn, he was getting on my nerves. Then he showed up and I ran and got the gift for Julie, and we went, he told me he was sorry, but he was working the whole day getting ready for the party. I didn’t believe him at first, but then when we got there and I saw the massive amounts of food he had cooked, I believed him.. So we had the party, it was good fun, The guy who danced around with the fire was there, and .. It was just fun!

Then, the next day, I went to the airport with Yvonne and Rex, and Papa, it was a crummy time, cause on the way back, I was sitting in the back with papa and Tricia, and then the stupid car broke down, and I was just not impressed.. Cause we had to stop like 5 times to fill up some part of the car with water.. It was annoying cause it was so hot outside.. That night, I stayed over at Tricia’s house, and spent the next day with her and yvonne too, we went to lucea for groceries.

So that next day we went to the beach.. I went over to Tricia’s house to see if she wanted to come, and Treston and DJ went ahead on the bike, cause me and Tricia would take a taxi. So me and Tricia got to the beach, Debo had tagged along, Anyways. Me and Tricia went right into the water, and then I went to the beach and I sat down and we talked for a bit, the three of us.. Then me and Tricia went to the bar for some drinks, then it started raining randomly. I ran back to get our stuff, then we chilled on the beach the rest of the afternoon. Come evening, Tricia was hungry, and therefore, really grumpy, so we went to burger king, and me and her and Treston had some food, Treston only ate fries after he had made completely sure no meat had touched them… When Treston came into the burger king, he told me that my father had called, and that he told him to call back in 10 minutes.. So 10 minutes later, the phone rings, and I was expecting my dad, but it was my brother, which made me really really happy. I had a great talk with him, I missed him, and I loved talking to him from Jamaica. It made me happy .. Get my point?

Anyways, then we all went to this place right next to pat’s store, called “the Love boat” and it was this restaurant with a pool table upstairs. DJ sat with Julie, took some seriously messed up pictures of us, and watched as me and Treston and Tricia played. Treston ended up not being so good, so he cheated when he thought I wasn’t looking.. Ha-ha it was amusing.

So that was that day. On the fifteenth, I went to Montego Bay with Treston, Tyrone, DJ and .. Well.. Me… It was hot, and a rather long drive, but DJ had to pick something up from the airport, so it was either go with, or be bored at home. I chose to go.. Then we got back, and I got dropped off at Tricias yard, Treston said he would “soon come” I grew to realize that phrase doesn’t hold the same meaning as it would in Canada. I watched a movie with Papa and Tricia, then we got bored, so we went for a walk around Logwood. When we got back, it was nearing night time, so I called Treston, and him, me, Tyrone, Tricia and Papa went out looking for a party. Needless to say, with Jamaica preparing for Hurricane Emily, there were no parties.. Nothing at all…

The sixteenth was a dreary day. Treston left around 10am , telling me he’d be back soon.. Bah… I stayed laying in bed until three in the afternoon. I read a book, of course, I fell asleep, it was pouring rain… I realized there was no point in getting mad at him for it anymore. Anyways, then he came home around 6:30, and i didnt have much to say to him, so i went back to the room and read the rest of the night, and he came in awhile later to say goodnight.. blah..

The next morning, I woke up and ended up spending most of the day over at Tricia’s with Yvonne and Debo. I spent the night over at Tricias, me, her and papa fell asleep watching a movie, and didn’t wake again till the crack of dawn… why we woke up, god only knows.. But we did.. So we did…

The eighteenth, I spent the whole day with Tea and Puno, these two gorgeous little girls, Yvonne and Tricia went to Lucea, but I didn’t want to go. . So me and the girls walked around, I took them to the store, where I bought them some candy, and we chilled the whole day, it was sweet.. That’s about that for that day..

On the nineteenth, we went to the beach, everyone was so quiet, it was weird.. Then we went and played pool again, me, Chronic, Treston and Tricia.. I spent a lot of time chasing Julie around, tho.. She is such a sweet kid, she loved me so much! I loved her too.. I miss her a lot.. Julie decided that she wanted to spend the night over with me and her uncle, so we took her home with us, and I put her to bed.. Then Me and Treston and DJ ate some of that barracuda that he caught, and then went to bed.

On the twentieth, Treston left in the morning.. Left Julie with me.. So we were bored within the hour, so I asked her if she wanted to go for a walk with me, and we walked over to Tricias yard, which was just as boring for her, but she eventually found something to play with , so she was fine. Me and Debo chilled with Tricia and Julie around.. It was boring! Me and Julie took out my braids.. Then we went back to Trestons house later in the afternoon, and I called my best friend whitney.. Actually, I called Tom first, then I called her.. cause she wasnt at home.. But I meant to call Whit.... Hahahah talking to Her was wicked. I missed her so much, and I needed to hear someone’s voice from home, and she was my best bet, I knew she'd make me smile the most.. Hahah I was right .. So then, Sharlotte offered to plait my hair again .. It took her four hours! It was tons of fun tho.. It was pouring down rain, so I wasn’t expecting Treston anytime soon.
Julie spent another night with us…

On the 21st, Julie went home, Treston made some fish for us, and then we walked over to Tricia’s yard, where I spent the most of the day. Treston was back and forth between there and Taddys yard, right across the way. Debo and I watched finding Nederland..
Then Treston came over, and they all started watching a kung fu movie, so I left, cause I HATE kung fu, even more than when I left for Jamaica. They watch it way too much down there. And it’s not like.. Good kung fu, it’s shitty kung fu, with English dubbed over the Chinese or whatever language they’re talking, so their mouths don’t match the words they’re saying, and it’s sooooooo distracting, and they all have crappy effects. And .. To sum all that up, I hate kung fu.. So I went for a walk.. As I was walking, this really old ugly guy came and started hitting on me, and this guy came out of nowhere, and said “if you keep troubling her, I’ll break your neck” and so he left me alone.. I think he was a friend of Debo’s.. it was wicked funny.
Then i went back to tricia's yard, just in time to recieve a long awaited phone call from Duane and Jennifer, my youth pastor and his wife.. we talked for about 20 minutes, it was wicked cool.

So on the 22nd, we chilled, all of us, me, cracks, DJ, and Sharlotte, watched “My big fat Greek wedding” which made me laugh.. I needed that.. Around midnight, we went to this party in Santoy. It was wicked fun. DJ got on the stage and performed! He was so good!

On the twenty third, DJ was supposed to take me to West end, so I could see the lighthouse for mom, but by the time he reached Trestons yard in the morning, rain started falling, and for the rest of the day, it kept falling. It annoyed me.. But we, being, me Treston and DJ, chilled in the kitchen the whole day. We talked, cleaned the fridge out (for something to do) cooked, and just chilled. Treston went to watch TV for a bit, but I was bored with TV, so me and DJ stayed in the kitchen.. He told me that when me and Treston have kids (I was like.. Ha ha!) that he was going to be the godfather.. I was amused by it.

In Jamaica, it was like.. Everyone skips the part about us actually having to love each other and get married in order for us to have kids and be a family.. I guess having the family is more important than actually the beginning steps to them in Jamaica..

Anyways.. In the night, DJ left, and me and Treston sat down and started watching this movie.. It was a horror movie, I didn’t realize what it was until I was too far into it to stop. It was the exorcist, which was totally freaky, if you haven’t watched it, I don’t suggest you do.. My hand was over my mouth the whole time.. After the movie, we walked down the road to this crazy loud party.. Like.. I mean crazy loud. We danced, this one girl tried to teach me how, which was fun… We didn’t go home until dawn.. It was wicked.

Ummm what next.. Ok so the last day there! DJ took me to the lighthouse. It was a fun time, me and him just chilling out.. The lighthouse was closed, I couldn’t go close to it, but I got my pics for mom, which was good. So on the way back from the lighthouse, it started pouring rain… Wouldn’t you know it, I had on a white shirt! Rain in Jamaica is nothing to laugh at, but we laughed anyways.. I seem to have bad luck when it comes to white shirts and rain, same thing happened to me last year!!!? Ha. So we drove thru this mad rain, to the gas station, I got a bag to put my camera and wallet in so It wouldn’t get any wetter, and I got DJ gas for his bike… We stopped off at the beach for a drink to warm us up, cause we were both soaked..

Funniest thing happened on the way home, tho… I had been talking to DJ earlier about how he couldn’t scare me on the bike, and he told me that the last time someone told him that, they got in a bike accident. I told him I still wasn’t scared.. So on the way back, we were turning the corner, and the bike skids out from under us… so me and DJ are laying on the ground with our legs trapped under the bike, and I just start laughing.. He told me to get up, but I couldn’t, the bike was too heavy on my leg.. Just my luck to have worn shorts.. So we managed to get up, filthy from the dirt road, but only minor damage.. I’m still here. But my leg was covered in blood. It looked worse before I could wash it off. I lifted up my shorts to check the rest of the damage, and this guy goes “wow” so I put my shorts back down, and (crazy me,) I got back on the bike with DJ and we went home.. We took some pix, cleaned up, and then went off to the soccer match.. It was fairly boring.. Later, like, a few hours later, DJ took me back to the yard to get shorts on, (the cuts on my leg were killing me with pants on) and then took me to Tricias yard.. Treston said he was going to this party, and I stayed at Tricia’s, told him to come get me after the party.. I didn’t feel like going and watching him get wasted again.. I was there until 4am, me, debo, and Tricia.. Debo gave me his necklace, it looks good on me, or so he said.. I like it… anyways.. Then Campy came by, and later Treston, and him and I went home..

The next morning, Tricia called at 8:45 am.. I woke up, packed everything, and then chilled with Treston… Rex came by at 11:30, and we all headed to the airport.. Treston came too.. We said goodbye, Then I went home… It was good .. The flight was long and sooo uncomfortable, cause of my leg.. But I managed..

When I got home, I was so proud of myself .. I did it. I didn’t let him get the better of me, I didn’t let anything happen that wasn’t supposed to happen.. Y’know, there were some times during that trip, at night, when I’d just sit at the doorway and look up at the sky. And I was alone, so I’d sit there and start singing.. Not just any music, tho.. Like.. Worship songs.. One in particular was “Heart of Worship” and another one was.. Well.. I don’t know the name of it, but it goes

“How many times have I turned away? The number is the same as the sands on the shore, every time you’ve taken me back. And now I pray you’d do it once more. Please take from me my life, when I don’t have the strength to give it away to you.. Please take from me my life, when I don’t have the strength to give it away to you, Jesus..”

Sometimes I’d sit at the door and watch the rain fall.. sit and think.. Sit and pray.. It’s good you know, to just sit and be silent once in awhile.. So I did.. I also just listened to my music once in awhile.. Switchfoot, David Crowder Band ( a really good worship CD) and Starfield too.. They’re a good worship band too. It really was a good trip this time. Wow, and I just spent a looooong blog telling you about it..

I sincerely hope you didnt die of boredom.. i will update again tomorrow, and hopefully regularly after that!
Love to you all, the loyal people who still check for updates every day.. tomorrow it will be alot more interesting.
Love you Tons!

Love always: Shle
Xoxo

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away."

Wow guys, it's the second of july, i can't hardly believe it. Im all done. Im all finished, all the stuff at seycove, no more commitments. I've picked up my report card, i've graduated, we did the whole dinner dance, it was amazing. I have to say that it seems as though it never happened at all. On the 29th, I went to the school to pick up my report card, i didnt fail anything, i got a few signatures in my yearbook, then i headed down to the cove to get my hair done. It turned out really nice. I had these jewels in it, and silver glittery stuff. it looked gorgeous, if i do say so myself. I was quite impressed. Then i went home around 1, and decided that i would get dressed and do my make up. that took all of ... 10 minutes.. lol. I expected it to take me longer. Oh well. by two oclock, i was ready and sooo bloody nervous. You Sam came, and all was right with the world, life was beautiful, we had the most incredible time. We went down to the park, met up with everyone, who looked incredible.. I was so impressed. I was so nervous, tho, and you can tell just by looking at all my pix, cause in almost every one, i have my hand resting on my stomach, which, i have discovered, is my nervous habit. It made me look like i was pregnant or something.. well, not fat, but like i had something to hide, or something. I DONT KNOW, but I was nervous, so in alot of pix, i had my hand on my stomach. Anyways, we had the boat cruise, which was really nice, the weather was perfect, not too hot, not too cold. anyways, so we got downtown, and had some busses to take us to the four seasons hotel, where we had a 'reception'.. it was fun, the punch was so classy, it was served in these fancy glasses, made me feel like I was at a wedding or something fancy like that. Anyways, we had dinner, they served us this salad, rather, cheese, tomatoes and some lettuce on a plate. Aparantely it was "buffalo cheese" according to mr. Lindsey, so upperclass. lol. He even knew the type of dressing they put on it just by looking at it. I was impressed. Then we had our chicken (or in some cases, steaks) and it was served with carrots, asparagus and scalloped potatoes. It was indeed incredible, I loved it. then there was some coffee flavored ice cream, a hollowed out strawberry, and this really chocolatey thing.. eww chocolate! (dont hurt me!)
Sooo yeah then we danced.. the rest of the night. I had to take my shoes off halfway thru, we just didnt stop dancing.. actually, that's not true, Sam had to take a break halfway thru, so I danced around with Diago and Tricia.. it was alot of fun... Then by the end of the night, sam and I were the only ones on the dancefloor, and the DJ (who was hot by the way) played the last song, and we danced to the very end. It was alot of fun, i was thanful for sam, it meant alot for me to have him there with me. anyways, we got tons of pix, alot of them are really nice, i enjoyed my evening, and you can tell by looking at my pictures.
Oh I have to mention this.. Whitney was absoloutely gorgeous...
Tricias dress was really nice too.. Anyways.. now im here, heading to Jamaica in about two days.. it's gonna be good. Anyways, Im gonna have to end this here, Alexis and bobby are here with their mom and dad and grandma, and things are really noisy, im listening to disney music and alexis is here, sitting on my lap, singing along, and drawing a pic of the little mermaid.. it's kinda cute.. sooooo yeah.. Grad was incredible. I'll write another blog before i leave.
Love you all tons! ! !

Love always: Shle
Xoxo

"You think you own whatever land you land on, the earth is just a dead thing you can claim, but i know every rock and tree and creature, has a life, has a spirit , had a name.. you think the only people who are people, are the people who look and think like you, but if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, you'll learn things you never knew you never knew.. "

Whats up world?

Hey everyone, this is Shle.. What's going on?
Well .. Since the last day of school two weeks ago, I haven't been up to much, aside from work and getting ready for my trip.. which is going to be happening in eight days.
We had our grad cerimony, and that was fun, nerve wracking, but alot of fun nonetheless.. (is that a word?) Anyways. Then i had this grad party where like.. tons of people came by, and it made my weekend. It was really nice. Anyways... My brother came home for the weekend, which was also equally nice, cause I missed him.. Ummm, these past two weeks, I've been working alot, and therefore, i've been really tired, and when I've not been working or sleeping, I've been getting ready for my trip, which is really a pathetic excuse for my lack of blogging. im sincerely apologetic for that .. so here i am, back and blogging. Tomorrow is my first, and last final exam of grade 12.. of my seycove career.. Wow, psychadellic... and.. wednsday night is the graduation dinner dance, the one where we all get to wear pretty dresses and fix our hair and all that Jazz. ..... so that should be alot of fun... Anyways.. I have an exam tomorrow.. so i need to go study for that. I will write a longer blog when im inspired, im just not doing too good today in this department.. So love to you all

Love forever: shle
xoxo

"Ready or not, Here I come, You can't hide
Gonna find you, and take it slowly
Ready or not, Here I come, You can't hide
Gonna find you, and make you want me
You can't run away from these styles I got
Oh baby, hey baby cause I got a lot oh yeah...
Anywhere you go, my whole crew gonna know
Oh baby, hey baby you can't hide from the black gold no... "

Graduation 2005

Hey .. This is me bieng bored. I wrote a speech for dynamics class, I thought it was nice, so here it is... It's kinda like a goodbye speech...
Love Shle
xoxo


So you are sitting in the library, getting your final instructions... “This is it,” you’re thinking, as you look around you, taking in the same scenes you’ve taken in for the past five years.
Your instructions are clear. As they call your name and read out your grad-write up, you walk across the stage, shake hands with Mr. Burns and Mr. Kee. Then you go back and sit down… But then what? Doesn’t it seem like your whole life has had an instruction manual to it? You start school, and for thirteen years, the routine is almost the same each day. Get up, get dressed, and go to school. As the years progressed, perhaps some things changed. Maybe your mom didn’t choose your outfit anymore. Maybe you started driving yourself to school, perhaps you got a job. But your life has been fairly safe. Someone has always been there to let you know what the next step was. So where are they now? We’ve shaken hands with the principals, waved at our parents, and sat back down... What’s next? And who is going to be there to tell you?
We are all on some kind of journey, for the most part, our journeys have been the same, but this is the point in our lives where the roads on which we walk diverge, and wiggle away into the distant landscapes of our lives. For some of us, the path is clear, unobstructed. You know what you are doing in the next few months. You have a plan. Nothing is going to go wrong. But some of us don’t know the meaning of the word clear, let alone plan. For people like that, to borrow a quote from Oasis, “all the roads we walk along are winding, and all the lights that lead us there are blinding.” We do not know where our future is going to take us, our path is not straight, but it has many, many curves, obstacles, and forks in it. For example, “Do I work for the year, or do I go straight to school?” and when that decision is made, “Where do I work, or what school do I go to?” and when we finally do get to school, “What do I take?” “What do I want to do with my life? “ It is question after question, and each decision we make could drastically change our lives.
So it is at this point in our lives where we begin to understand who we really are. We become no longer, our parents children, not our grandma’s little girl, but we become our own person. This is the fork in the road where your life begins. And there are no road signs. No maps. Only the stars. And as this, what some call the most wonderful years of your life, come to an end, I encourage you to reach for the stars, for they hold within them your future. No one here can tell you what your life will be like in ten years, only you. Only you know what will truly make you a success. No one can give you instructions on how to get there. To some, success may be money, it may be fame. To me, it’s happiness. I don’t know when I’ll reach that, but I imagine that we will all reach the stars, in our own time. Some in the next few months. Some in a few years. You never know, and no one but yourself can tell you when you have reached them. That doesn’t help you much, does it? But there are things in this life that we have all experienced which will help us reach those stars, which will help us choose the right path. Those things began as the tiniest smile, years ago. Those things began as you, a trembling grade eight kid, took your first glance into the halls of Seycove. It is within these halls that we have learned much of what we know, and I am not referring to the dates of the civil war, not the components of an atom. I’m talking about life. It’s here where we grew up. It’s here where we made our good friends our best ones. We’ve cried here, we’ve laughed here, we’ve learned many a lesson that shaped who we are to this very day. These are the moments we’ll remember all our lives. I couldn’t have asked for more in a high school. I couldn’t have asked for more in a grad class, for we have come together brilliantly, and we form an amazing group. I am thankful for the things I’ve learned with all of you. I look back at grade eight and so many things have changed within our class since then. We are the class of 2005, and we are in this together.
So back to today. I encourage you to look around the room right now. Many of the people you see today, you will not see, perhaps ever again. Scary isn’t it? So I encourage you to have another look around. Implant this day, this year somewhere deep in your mind. A few years from now, when you are standing at yet another fork in the road, you can look back and remember the faces of those who were with you when you faced your first truly difficult decisions. Remember the days where we sat in our dynamics classes, sharing bits of our lives with everyone here. Remember the times when we’d wince at the thought of cafeteria food. Remember Seycove. And as you walk down your separate roads, remember, above all, the friendships that began here in the hallowed halls of the best years of your life, for they will take you where you want to be.
Good Luck, class of 2005, and congratulations. We made it.

And the thunder Rolls

Good evening everyone!
For the past few days, it's just been me and dad at home. Mom's been in Ladner chillen with Grandma.. Wednsday was the last nsa youth of my.. youth! It's crazy, I still remember my first NSA youth six years ago, when i was just a scraggly little kid in grade seven. I was wearing these shorts and this overly-huge shirt with a pic of Archie Andrews on it.. I wonder whatever happened to that shirt. Anyways.. Wednsday was alot of fun, first off, because my Dad decided that he was going to come with me, and I really enjoyed that. It was great.. Random, but great.
Ok then Thursday, I was working from 5-9, which was awesome.... After work, I went over to Tricias house to chill, and this incredible storm decided to start. Lightning, and immense thunder, we could even hear it over the crazy-loud music that's always blastin over at Tina's house. Anyways.. Then, around 10, I ran home in the rain, and even tho I only live two doors away from Tricia's house, I was soaked by the time I got home. .... Then, just as I entered the front door of my house, the thunder rolled again.. all in all, it was an incredible storm.. WE haven't had one like it in so long, infact, the last time I remember hearing a storm like that was in Jamaica. They have storms like that every single day in JA, then, five minutes after it starts, it gets sunny again.. It's kinda wierd, but I can't complain. Anyways, so today, I came home from school, (I skipped info tech, I didn't feel like dealing with the computer today) and then I cleaned some of the house. I vaccumed, fixed the shoes, and all that jazz! Then Dad came home, and him and I went shopping for some event that's happening tomorrow. He rented a movie, too, for himself, 'cause I worked tonight. Poor, Poor Daddy, home all alone ... Anyways.. So now I'm home, and at the moment, I am baking a cake.. Well, actually, the oven is baking the cake for me, I mixed the batter and all that, but the oven is doing the actual baking... Why, do you ask, am I baking a cake??? Well, it's cause tomorrow is my mom's birthday! Dad and I are going to head out to Ladner sometime around lunch tomorrow to chill with mom, take her out for dinner. You know, the usual.. SHould be fun tho.. I miss my mom, she hasn't been home since sunday.. It's no fun.. And plus, I actually have to do chores when mom's not here.. Its kinda silly. See, i'm moving out in the end of summer, and Im deff gonna have to do my own chores.. all the time! I guess I'd better get used to it. Acutally, Im really excited about this whole thing. I think I'd be alot more frightened if Mike wasn't gonna be there, but he is, my big brother will be there to watch out for me, which is dope, cause I don't think i'm quite ready to be that independant yet.

Ok, you know what's really annoying, my whole body just started getting all itchy, and it's starting to hurt.. I dont think scratching it helped much, but IT HURTS! ! ! ! ! Bloody monkey, that's random.. anyways, I think my cake might be near ready now, and even if it's not, I have to wash the dishes, cause I made a mess making the cake.. Im responsable now... lol
So with these words I leave you : May the force be with you

Love Forever:
Shle
xoxo

"I'm Leavin on a jet plane,
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh Babe, I hate to go
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go."

Cake in my hair...

Dear friends and family alike.
First of all, let me apologise for my lack of blogging, i'm just stupid and pre-occupied and .. stupid. anyways. A few things have happened since I last updated, I went to this concert, with this band.. i think their name was U2 - and yes, it was the most amazing concert of my life so far... Im sorry, mike, but it even beat Weezer. Only a little bit. So yeah, it was an amazing experience.
Then, ummmm, the bead game started. That was good fun, I managed to be paranoid for about three days untill I got myself captured. But I must indeed congratulate Steph, because her idea was genius.. She and her other friends blocked my car with theirs, and left me no choice but to surrender. We were in the parkgate parking lot. I got home after surrendering, and thought.. Shiz, I should have just spent the night in my car.. It would have been so funny to see her wait there the whole time. But I was not allowed. Oh well. So that was that. Ummm what else.?
I recently watched two movies which both made me cry. The first one was reccomended to me by Treston, it was called "Cold Mountian" and it was just bloody amazing. This couple just stayed faithful to each other for so long, and .. well to be honest, the ending really really sucked, but it was still an awesome movie. It really made me think.. you know?
The other movie that I watched (with mom yesterday) was "The Notebook" and it was damn good. I definately cried during that movie. Then, yesterday, I spent a long while on the phone with a friend of mine, and he told me that he thought that movie was bad, cause the main charachters relationship was based soley on sex.. But now that I think about it, JZ, you are not right! If their whole relationship was only about sex, then what makes you think that man would have been there with his wife like that at the end of the movie? Or that he would have waited seven years for her, without ever having slept with her, still in love.. seven years they were apart, and still in mad love. And they had never been together. That is not sex, my friend, that is love.....
It's times like this when I wonder if that kind of love really exists today.?
Is there someone out there for me who would wait seven years to be with me? Could someone ever love me that much? Could I ever love someone that much?
*Sigh* I dunno.. Life's one big confusing puddle.

Today is mothers day, and I bought mom some copper sauce pans, (from both of us, mikey. I even signed your name on the card)
Then I went to work, which sucked, but then we headed down to Ladner, where the fun began. My little cousin Nicole was playing softball, and when she went up to bat, she got herself a home run, it was incredible, I was quite proud of her. It was the end of a weekend tournament, which her team did well in.
Then we went to grandmas, We had an awesome dinner, mine composed mostly of brocoli with cheese sauce (it was good), Stuffed potato (it was amazing) and steak (it was good). Then it was time for dessert, and Dylan, bieng the little crazy kid that he is, decided he was just going to pick up his cake with his hands, and eat it that way. So after him getting in trouble, i decided to show him the real way to eat cake, and demonstrated picking it up with my hand and making a bit of a mess. Then, something happened, and I challenged my mom, and said "bring it on" and so she got up, and smushed my cake all over my face.
I thought that would have been the end, but no, Nicole decided she would be smart and smear her cake all over my face too, and then I got icing all over her, and it was just one big cake fest. It was in my eyes, in my hair, all over my switchfoot shirt.. And it was just gooooood fun... Same with Nicole, I had gotten it all over her. It was amazingly fun, the most fun I've had in Ladner for a long time. Then Andrew got it all over himself too, and coleton was the only kid in the room who ate his cake with a fork. It was a great time in general. I think amidst all that chaos they got a few good pictures of us. I can't wait to see that.
Soooo it's ten thirty, and I would not normally be tired at this point in time, but I am right now. Soo tired, as I have been for most of the day anyways. I woke up with a bit of a headache this morning, lol.
Sooooo Im gonna peace, and go to bed.
Love To you all!
love Forever: Shle
xoxo

"Did you rise the sun for me,
Or paint a million stars?
That I might know your majesty?
Is your breath upon the wind?
Is everything I see
Marked with my makers fingertips?
can I feel you in the rain?
Abandon all I am?
To have you capture me again?"

Dear Friends and Family,
Hey hey, what's up? today is such a beautiful day. Unfortunately, I spent most of it inside, I was indeed working ... again! Suprise, suprise! I seem to do that alot lately. Four, five days a week. This last thursday and friday, I worked during my lunch hours.. It was crazy.... So I got an extra five hours of work this week, should be good moola pour moi.... I hope anyways. Also, my boss said that, because I got him some extra business from my school, that he would give me a bonus. SOOOO yeah. Things seem to be going well at subway .... Anyways, it's dinner time, I have to go eat roast beef and vegitables (yik) and so, I'll be back. Hasta La Vista...

.... ok so I'm back. But it's like... tomorrow... right now, so I managed to eat dinner, then promptly forget that I had my blog open. oopsie. Dinner was fairly good, even I have to admit that... Then I just chilled out with my friend for awhile, played some cards, kicked her ass, and that was fun.. So yeah. Today is Monday, it's a gorgeous day out there. It makes me excited that we're getting all this gorgeous weather, i love it. Summer is soooo close now, I can't wait ! I feel guilty, 'cause I've stopped counting down the days till Jamaica, and every time people ask me, I just make up a number. But I just went and looked at my calendar, and it says there is sixty-nine days left. I hope I get my dress soon, for grad.. They havent called yet, and they were supposed to call in the beginning of the month. Oh well. I'll get it soon.... That's gonna be exciting.
Anyways, Now School is over, and im back again, hopefully to finish this blog...
but i cant really do that, caus i have so much homework to do it's unbeliavable, so im gonna split, and attempt this again when i have more time
Love as always
Shle
xoxo

"If I needed you, would you come to me, would you come to me, and ease my pain, if you needed me, i would come to you, i would swim the seas for to ease your pain."

Wash it all away

Ok, so whats up? these last two days have been actually beautiful. The sun has been out, and we've had gorgeous hot weather. So that makes me happy.
I was just sitting in youth group today, and they were playing these slides, and this song was playing in the background, actually, it was playing quite loudly... but anyways, it was "I can only imagine" by Mercy Me. .. For those of you who know whats going on with my life recently, you know that it's not the easiest of times that I, and my family, have to go through in the next little while.. Anyways, so i was sitting in the church sanctuary, and this song was playing...

"Surrounded by Your glory,
what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for You Jesus
or in awe of You be still?
Will I stand in Your presence ?
or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing hallelujah?
will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine.. I can only imagine."

It was all about heaven, and what kind of things God has prepared for us there. It's not easy to think about that right now.... and i just broke down. I dont think I can remember a time when I've ever cried so hard.. not in a long time anyways. AND i dont really know why I've told you that, but I need you guys to know whats up.. This is honestly the most unexpected turn of events. And to think that before Christmas, I was worried about breaking up with my boyfriend, and that was my biggest concern. If only that was my biggest concern right now.. All I can do right now, is ask for your prayer, not just for me, infact, not for me at all, but for my family...

So what does God have prepared for us ? As the song says, I can only imagine.
We all have this vision of streets paved with gold, and fluffy white clouds, perhaps fields full of amazing flowers, and the peace only God can bring.

.............

and i'm sorry, but i cant seem to go anywhere else with this right now.
Love and Peace
Shle
xoxo

"When everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take."

So let the sun shine in, face it with a grin

Dearest Friends and Family members,
How are you? I am doing fairly well, thank you. Today was a beautiful day, the sun was out and I rolled up my jeans and wore sandals. It was indeed nice.
Did you ever notice that in the last term of grade 12, teachers pile the work on so thick that you can't even imagine getting out of high school, let alone living to tell the tale? That's how i'm feeling right now. It's a conspiracy, I promise you. All the teachers get together around a table, and plan to have all their assignments and projects and tests in the same week. I'm sure that i've expressed this opinion of mine a few times anyways, and you might be sick of hearing it, but chances are, you agree with me. But aside from that, high school is almost finished, and in like... seveny seven days, Im going to Jamaica, and then off to AUC! Wow, it's gonna be an interesting experience.
My older cousin, Chasta, mentioned that she might like to come with me to Jamaica, which would be super dope, she's amazing. But from what she told me, she would be insanely over-protective, and no boys would even look at me without getting a black eye from her, so I dont know how fun that would be, ha ha. I should've taken her with me the first time! Then my life would be a bit simpler, and I would've gotten a good laugh out of sieng her beat up a bunch of jamaican boys.... ha ha... Anyways, so yeah.
Music.. let's talk about that! First of all, it's like.... ten more days until U2! Can you belive it? Wooooo im psyched. And another thing, I was SOOOOO Close to getting to go to the snoop dogg ft. the game concert, but then .. I Decided that I couldnt afford it anyways, even if I have moms permission, which was a once in a lifetime thing... I had moms permission to go to a rap concert, but I realize that I need to go to college, I cant afford that... SOOOO anyways... Weezer is coming out with a new album, I can't wait to get ahold of that one, and they are also coming to Vancouver, but since I'm not nineteen, I cant go, cause they're playing at the commodore, or however you spell that, and it's not an all ages show. It's alright, tho, cause soon enough, I'll be old enough to be able to do things like that.
And Maroon Five is coming to Vancouver, too, but I only know one of their songs, it's "She will be loved", and it's a good song, but Im not gonna go to a concert when I would only know one of the songs.. Unless of course, the tix were free, which they are not, so blah on that idea, eh?
You know what's annoying? Dave Matthews Band is like.. touring around the states, I wish they would come to Vancouver, I'd pay to see that... They're amazing.. anyways, i've got to go do some homework, sorry for the lack of updates, it's just been crazy here.. Hopefully I'll update more often ..
Love you forever
Love Always
Shle
xoxo

Loving you is like a song I replay
every three minutes and thirty seconds of every day
and every chorus
was written for us
to recite
every beautiful melody
of devotion every night
and every word,
every second and every third
expresses the happiness
more clearly then ever heard

Good afternoon to all of you. How's life? Well Life here is ... liveable. Im surviving, I suppose. I've just finished filling out all the applications and stuff for AUC, the college which I hope to attend in the fall. there is approxamately twenty-two days, three hours and thirteen minutes until I get to go to the U2 concert. Nah, im not counting down! Lol.. anyways, this is gonna be short, I have to go to work, and I will update when I get back, or tomorrow.
Love to you all.
Love forever: Shle
xoxoxo


Lie to me, Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference between myself and my relfection
I just can't help but to wonder
Which of us do you love?

Beofre the dawn

I would really really like to be able to do something witty and funny, sieng how it's technically april fools day......... But I'm not that funny.. SO APRIL FOOLS anyways...
Hope you dont get pranked too much today..

so.. what's new, y'all?
Well, last I heard, Whit was driving around somewhere, and probably bieng driven nuts by her parents, but at the same time having lots of fun.
And amazing news came through today, for those of you who care, Diago has been allowed to come to Canada, and to de-confuzzle you, Diago is Tricias Stepfather from Jamaica. (dont roll your eyes at me.. I can see you do that you know!)
Anyways, so hopefully, We'll be sieng him soon in Canada.
So my life.. Work, and work and work. I now work five days a week, because one of the employees at subway got ... well.. fired. I was amazed to hear that, to be honest, I've never seen anyone so mad in my whole life. (that would be my boss.. Now i'm scared of him) ANyways, so this employee decided that she didn't want to take the garbadge across the parking lot, and so she left it in the recycling bins by safeway, and the owner of .. like... all of parkgate called Ranjit (the boss) and got really mad, and fined him a couple of hundred dollars. Plus, this employee got caught with her boyfriend in the food prep area, and that's a no-no. And the boss thinks she was stealing from the store, as well as giving out free food to her friends, and .. to be honest, the list goes on and on, but it was just one situation that I was not interested in bieng a part of.
so thats that.
This spring break, My aunt and Gramma from Ontario, and my great aunt from Calgary were visiting. It was nice, for most of the time. I drove people around alot, took my Grandma and Great Aunt to the mall a few times. See, I have more patience for that sort of thing than my mom or Aunt Ellie. See, Gramma and Aunt Elaine are the type of people that like to look at every single thing in the store, and then end up buying nothing. And that's ok with me, 'cause I understand it. If I was in a rush or something, that would be different, but I know that sometimes people just like to take their time and chill. That's kind of like me and my mom, when we go shopping, I like to slow down and look at things, even tho I have no money to buy them, and be sort of relaxed when I shop. But mom? No, she knows what she wants, and goes in the store, gets it, and gets the hell out of there. Sometimes, that's ok, but ... it's nice to just chill once in awhile. Anyways, that doesnt matter. THis one night, we were all sittin around in the living room, everyone but my Dad, I think. And.. I started talking with a british accent, just because I could. And to be perfectly honest with you, I have never ever in my whole life seen my grandmother laugh as hard as she did that night. It made me smile, I like making people laugh. Now I'm not sure, it could have been the accent, or the random things that we talked about, but if she wasn't so .. (elderly) ... she would have been rolling on the floor laughing.. instead, she just stayed in her chair. But the point was, it amused her, and that makes me smile.
Grandma and Aunt Elaine were sleeping in my room, and so for most of spring break, I had to sleep on the couch downstairs. For those of you who have been to my house, they might know that the couch downstairs is sooooo uncomfortable.. But I survived, I had a bunch of pillows, and just managed. My back wasnt sore or anything. But now that Grandma and Auntie Ellie and Aunt Elaine are gone, I have my room back, which is nice. But I have to clean it. Cause while they were here, I put the frame back on my bed, and ended up just shoving a bunch of stuff under the bed, so that I wouldnt have to deal with it. THe day they left, tho, I took the frame off that bed, because I hate it. Yes, thats right, I sleep on a matress on the floor. Well, no that's not true, i keep the box-spring there, and the mattress on top of it. ANYWAYS, the point is that I cannot sleep on my bed with the frame under it, because every time I move, the bed rolls across the floor. And I cannot take that. I guess I'm just one of those people who move around alot in their sleep. It's good fun, i have about 8 pillows on my bed, and in the morning, i wake up and I find that I'm surrounded by them. Im hugging one or two, and two more are up against my back, and i've got one under my head, and one on my feet, or around there somewhere. I loooove my pillows. I dont know how I'm going to share my bed when I get married. I guess I'll get used to it.
Speaking of getting married. Ever plan your wedding? Heres a warning, Im going to go teenage on you here. To be perfectly honest, I've thought of sooo many scenarios. The park in spring time, the beach in summer... ahhhhh! The dock at deep cove. My High school cafeteria.. (No, im not kidding you) And my bridesmades. I had a discussion one time with Whit, that my bridesmades were going to wear yellow.. BUT.. I dont know about that, mabye red or light blue.. I have no Idea. I dont even know who they will be. Obviously Whit, Kels, Tricia and Nicole... but I'm sure that before I get married, I'll make more friends. (I hope so anyways) And who's gonna perform the ceremony? Before Mike went off to College, I had possibilities... Floyd? then it was Brian.. Then Dave.. Then Duane, then Sean.. Im thinking if Mike doesnt want to perform the ceremony, or If I dont want him to, I might get Sean to do it.. But.. Like I said.. Who knows? and my dress, oh lord, my dress... I cannot wait for that day, when me, my mom and my grandma, (and mabye a couple of aunties) walk into that store, and I try on wedding dresses and make them all cry... That day will be soooo important to me.... WOWZA! Im getting a bit ahead of myself here. Mabye I should grad first.. But.... In the words of Forrest Gump,
"Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get. "

Ok, Last night, I went to the movie with a friend of mine, and we saw this show, called "Guess Who".. It was starring Ashton Kutcher and Bernie Mac, and it was SOOOOOO HILARIOUS!
I just about died laughing! It was sort of like.. ok, not sort of , it was exactly like Meet the parents, except with a racial twist. Ashton was dating this black girl, and her family was like....
"You're datin a white boy? what is wrong with you girl?" and all this kind of stuff, and it was just soooo funnnnnnny! And I've never seen Eddie laugh so hard in my life.. All in all, It was a great night. I had a cappichino too, which was totally gross. I dont know why people like coffee so much. There's a good question.. Why DO people like coffee? Yep.. that's the end of that topic..

Ok, heres another question, random as it may seem, but meaningful none the less. I was in the washroom the other day, brushing my teeth, and I happened to look at the bottle of listerine that was sitting on the counter. On it was a photograph of a man and a woman, nearly naked, and like... about to make out.. QUESTION: why is our world sex-driven.? I'm sure you've heard the phrase "Sex sells" ... WHY? What is it about sex that makes us curious. Why is a commercial for gum about making out? Why do movies with smutty sex scenes in them attract our attention so easily? To that question, my friends, I have no answer. I cannot say that I am different from others, that I am not affected by all this sex around us. We all are, in some way or another.. I just dont know why our society promotes it so much. I was having a talk with my aunt awhile back, about all that sex education and stuff in schools. Back in her day (which wasnt that long ago,) Sex Education was all about Abstinence. (No sex before marriage)
Nowadays, if you walked into a classroom where students were in a sex - education session, it would be telling them all about the safest ways to have sex without getting pregnant or an STD.
Now, that's not bad, but I cant say that it's good either. Sure, promote safe sex, if people are going to be doing it, they may as well be safe.. But why promote it at all? Face it, my friends. We live in a sex-driven culture. The question is, what can we do about it? Not much, you think. Even I can't think of too much right now... But why ?What is stopping us from shining Chirst's light to the world? because we are only a small voice in a crowd? because we are young?
in 1 Timothy 4:12 , the bible says "Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.”
See? PURITY! Something our society don't seem to know anything about.
This is our chance, right here. We are teenagers, a minority, but still we can live so that Christ lives through us. Let your friends and family see the light of Christ in you, through your actions, through your words.. Here we go, dont let society make you think that you have to be a certian way, dont let the culture in which we live define your charachter. Let Christ do it, I say, and we will all live happily ever after, the end..
In saying that, I think Im going to end here, just because it's 12:30 Am, and Im extremely tired, and this is an extremely long blog... So... I love you all tons, hope you're not falling asleep at the keyboard reading this.... Have a great day.
Love Forever: Shle
Xoxo

P.S. The lyrics of the day are quite random,
no I'm not feeling this way, the song is just stuck in my head...

"I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone"

Oops, I didn't do it again...

Wow, I feel like such an idiot. I was sitting here, watching the random images flash before my eyes on the computer, (my screensaver) and I was trying to figure out what to do today. Then, from the other room, I heard my mom tell my aunt that I was probably updating my blog.. And then I was like.. HOLY CRAP! I HAVE A BLOG!
So where did I leave off last time? well, As fate would have it, I did indeed manage to finish all of my homework before spring break, and it was a whole lot. I had a geography project, a comp civ project, a law project, an info tech project, and ... im sure there was something else. oh yeah, two tests. all before spring break. SO I got all of it finished, and on thursday night, I went to work. After work, my dear friend Tricia came over and, as I finished packing up, we left for NSA.
We spent an uneventful evening at the church, awaiting the four AM venture to Calgary, Alberta for LYC 2005. I was quite excited about this whole venture for a couple of reasons. One of them, was that I would get to see my brother. The other was that I had a feeling that God was going to do amazing things that weekend, not just to me, but in general.
The bus ride out was long, and uneventful. I slept through most of it, listening to music, and getting up only once to use the bathroom in the back. We watched some movie, but I can't remember which one it was... Anyways, then we got to the U of C, and it was great, cause I was so psyched. So me and Tricia walked over to the registration, and started the journey thru that, when all of the sudden, I heard my name.. Actually, that's not entirely true, I heard someone say "GIDGET!" Now, for those of you who are confused, and wondering why the name Gidget would mean anything to me, It was my camp Name.... Back in the day... waaayyyy back in the day. So ... back to the story.. It turned out to be an old camp buddy, Mel Doyle, and she still calls me Gidget.. Meh.. anyways, so we got registered, then I saw my brother, which made me happier. and pretty much, yeah.. YC was an amazing experience. Jono lead worship, and he was awesome, I could see Christ working in him, and just taking the energy of the whole place, and throwing it back to us through worship. It was good. Umm, what else? Ok, the speaker ... that was good. Every time I would sit and listen to him, I felt like he was talking right to me.. That doesnt happen too often, but I swear to you, each time, It was like he was looking at my life story, and speaking right to it.. right to me. So God does work in mysterious ways indeed. indeeeed...
Ok, so then we drove to Edmonton, I spent a couple of uneventful hours in the mall with Tricia.. Remind me not to go shopping with her again. Matter of fact, just remind me not to go shopping.. I hate shopping. It always makes me broke. ok, so then I met up with my aunt, and she took me out to dinner with my little cousins, and we went to Eastside Marios. It was amazing.. Did anyone ever go there before? I mean. .. have you been there? they make the most amazing pasta and all that jazz. ANYWAYS.. So now Im back.. It's kind of crazy over at my house, my gramma, great aunt, and aunt are here from Ontario and Calgary, and things are kinda hectic. Ok, ALOT hectic. I dont have a bed to sleep on, I've been kicked out of my room, which.. I might add, is a disaster area. I thought old ladies were supposed to be neat and tidy? My room was so nice before they came here, and now it's a friggen disaster area. I hope they clean it up before they leave.. Which is on tuesday..
Anyways, im tired, I've been working all day, every day, it's crazy. One of the subway employees got fired, and so now I work Tuesday, Wednsday, Thursday, Friday, and Sunday.. Muchos Denaros, as Tricia would be likened to say... Ok, im gonna go find something productive to do.. Love to you all....
Love Forever : Shle

P.S. Whit, I hope you're having fun!


What I really meant to say
Is I'm dying here inside
I miss you more each day
There's not a night I haven't cried
And baby here's the truth
I'm in love with you
That's what I really meant to say

Jeepers?

Hey hey, good morning to you all. as it goes, I am sitting in the computer lab in the library at Seycove Secondary school, and, instead of doing my geography homework, I am .. blogging.
Wanna hear something funny? Today in class, mr. Earl was asking when we wanted to do our Geography tests next week, and I spent about five minutes trying to convince him to let me do mine on friday, when I realized.. Oh Crap! I wont be here next friday! Indeed, I am going to be leaving next friday at four in the morning to Calgary, Alberta, for .. you guessed it.. YOUTH CONFERENCE!
That should prove to be really really exciting. At first, I wasn't going to go. I just simply wasn't going to go to youth conference.. I didnt want to. But now that I think of it, im super glad that I did plan to go because.. It's just going to be an amazing experience. Plus, it'll give me a chance to apply for college! IM SO PSYCHED! Honestly, like i've said before, Im going to Jamaica this summer, but I am way more psyched about going to Calgary for school. It was amusing, we had a capp presentation yesterday, about the costs and everything of moving out. The person who was speaking decided to throw in that Living in Calgary was one of the worst experiences that she's ever had. And when I asked her why, she said because it was soooo cold that she was...just really cold. But that doesnt scare me. Infact, Im quite ready for it. I got this nice jacket that will do well for that snowy weather in Calgary. And.. I know, I know, after awhile, I will get insane sick of the snow, but.. having snow at Christmas will be amazing.
Ok, Last night, I was at work, and It was fairly slow, and insane boring. But then, all of the sudden, this dashing young man walked through the door, and at first, I thought to myself, "Who is that dashing young man?" and then I realized that it was indeed.. Sam with a haircut.... Ha ha.. So then, he must've felt obligated or something, because he ordered a sub, then procedded to tell me that he had just finished eating two other kind of subs downtown, and he was really full, and then I said.. Well you dont have to get one, you know.. Hahahahah. Then, he and I sat down and had a really good talk for about 45 minutes.We talked about Grad, about relationships, about ... just everything in general. He even told me what he was going to wear to grad! I was kind of excited about this conversation, because I hadn't seen him in a long while, because he now works downtown, and ... aparantely makes the worlds best coffee. (No, he doesnt work at starbucks.... )All the while, I was kind of forgetting that I was indeed at work, which left me with a whole lot of cleaning to do after they left.
So after that, a friend of his came by, and they both started playing guitar, and yes.. I turned off the Beat 94.5 no matter how much it killed me. and then.. they left. and I closed the store, and went home... That was one of the most slack nights I've ever had at work, lol. It was good fun.
I was looking at my brothers blog, and it was good fun, because I recognized almost all of the songs that he made refrence to in the updates, and.. Yeah .. Now I've got that song "Turpentine Chase" stuck in my head.. I remember this one time, I was driving back from Calgary with mike, and we listened to a bunch of dashboard confessional, and I mentioned to him that Dashboard confessional makes refrence to Turpentine in two of thier songs, and he was really impressed. Then there would be times when we would both be singing our hearts out, and he would mess up on a line, and then I would make fun of him, then I would mess up on a line, and he would make fun of me... And then we would both just harmonize perfectly, and we would both be impressed.

So yesterday, I was sitting in my info tech class, listening to the tunes that were coming out of my Mp3 player, and then.. I just got sick of it! I've done it, mike, I've made myself sick of Rap and Reggae for now. so yesterday, I took my headphones off, and then rocked out for the rest of the day. I even listened to Metallica for two songs. And Dashboard, Blink 182, Weezer, U2.. Ahh it was AMAZING! I think I'm going to rock out for a few more days before I get back into the rap and reggae scene. Well I never thought It would happen. But I was just sitting there, and I was like.. OK, THIS MUSIC IS GETTING REALLY ANNOYING NOW! and so I stopped listening to it.. I'll admit, I listened to Ja Rule this morning, but... yeah... Mabye a bit more rock, and a bit less rap... No, Mike, my brain has NOT rotted! See? It's healing itself from the scars of that music i subjected myself to..
OK, the bell just went, so IM going to post. Have a great day!
Love you all.
Love shle
xoxoxo

On an island in the sun
we'll be playing and having fun
and it makes me feel so fine
I cant control my brain

Uh Oh!

Ok, first of all, I deserve to be slapped! I haven't updated since my 18th birthday, and .. to be honest, I dont feel any older, for those of you who are wondering. Ha ha. Sorry about that, by the way. I have just been extremely busy, with all my school and working at subway. It's slightly insane, and all sort of starting to pile up.. I was hoping that the second semister of grade 12 would go smoother than the first, but, alas, I was incorrect. The homework just keeps piling up and getting harder, teachers are dumping project after project on us.. It's just nuts.. But aside from that, i dont feel like complaining about school. Generally, Im enjoying it. It's good fun, and, despite popular belief, I am learning things, though I did drop Acting.. (GASP!) To be honest, Mrs. Cook was devastated, because I told her about it just after we did our first performance.. and she said I was brilliant, and wasting my talent.. and every chance she got, she pestered my mom to pressure me into not dropping. It almost worked, too, my mom was like "Well you can't go to Jamaica if you drop acting" and I was like.. are you saying that just so Mrs Cook will leave you alone?
and then she said yes, and that issue was resolved.. HA HA
anyways.... You know, I havent got too much to say right now.
This is just one stressful week. I have three proj's due next week. I think I'll go work on them.. Ha ha.. Have a good night. I promise, the next one will be longer.
Love Always: Shle
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

The lyrics of the day are dedicated to my brother mike, for no particular reason other than the fact that he is listening to this song at the moment... Yeah I know it's random, but what Is life if there is no randomness?

We are scanning the scene
In the city tonight
We are looking for you
To start up a fight
There is an evil feeling
In our brains
But it is nothing new
You know it drives us insane
- Seek and Destroy (Metallica)

March Forth,

Today was interesting. I woke up fairly early and dressed for the day. I had a field trip to the Provincial Courts. It was tres interessant. Me, Nicole and Sam were stuck in Mrs. Barters car, 'cause we weren't cool enough to be in anyone elses car. So the courts themselves were interesting, there was only really two cases that I found worth listening to, one was these two people who were driving at over twice the speed limit, and they got off with a lecture from the judge, and a five-hundred dollar fine. She didnt even take their liscences away for a day! What a nut!
Anyways, this second case that I found worthwhile, was this assault case, the only case we saw this morning with a witness. Anyways, what she was saying seemed credible, but then the defence attourney asked her how she knew the people she was suing, and she said.. "I cant remember"
and then the lawyer asked if it was true that they all smoked crack cocaine together, and I thought, "Oops, there goes the credibility of that wittness."
Hey did you know that today is the only day on the calander that is both a date and a command? Wrap your mind around that one!
Ha ha, it was indeed amusing. Anyways, today is my eighteenth birthday, and you'll NEVER guess what my parents got me !
Go on! Guess!
Remember that whole U2 fiasco? how I couldn't get tickets? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH WELL GUESS WHO IS GOING TO U2~! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Thats definately me.. me and my dad.
ANYWAYS! That's my blog for the day, because I have to go to work.. Which really sucks, but eh? I'll Live.
Happy Birthday to me.
Love you all!
Love Forever: Shle
Xoxox

"Is there anything
Worth looking for
Worth loving for
Worth lying for
Is there anything
Worth waiting for
Worth living for
Worth dying for?"
Dashboard Confessional