so this is gooodbye

so this is it.. every last little thing is gone out of the little red house and it's all lonely and alone and not ours anymore.

It's very empty.. dont like it much






time to let go, i guess


xoxo

what a day

Hey ! ! ! Toady was a pretty good day, I went on a hike with my friends Jeremiah and Hannah, and then I went to the stupidstore with my buddy Jaxi and we bought some coffee beans, then went to her house and brewed em up and mmm they were pretty good ! ! I finally got my camera working, i took some pretty sweet pics up the rock today, it was a slice ! ! !
Anyways.. I keep seeing people that I don't want to see, I absoloutely hate it. I wish they would just stay out of my life and away from me - I guess the only way that'll ever happen is if I move to another city, and Im thinking as soon as Im done at college, im out of here man, I can't take them anymore. They make me mad, and I dont like bieng mad. I walked past thier house the other day and TRIED to ignore them, I didnt say a thing, but her boyfriend yelled out to me, so I waved and kept walking - then she came out of the house with her mom and shooed all the boys inside, as if I was going to pick one up and run off with him. Honestly they're so insecure. I dont get how they could possibly be scared of me! I clearly don't want anything to do with them or thier men.. but nooo they dont get it.. they scared, BUT here's the tricky bit! ! !! for them to stop bieng scared, and get it through thier thick skulls that I dont want anything to do with them.. LEAVE ME ALONE! !

See if that works.. doubt it though.. trust me, when im done school im outta here..

Anyways I had a good day today aside from seeing her in a car.. but that's alright! !

For now im outta here, I dont have really alot to say, I've been busy with stuff, but at the same time not doing anything at all. Blah.. it's no fun not having a job.. I get waaay too bored waaaay too fast..

My wish for the day : that a certian someone who stopped talking to me for NO reason whatsoever would tell me why...

Lots of love and happiness always
ashley
xoxo

The budget of a relitavely cheap Hollywood blockbuster,

$150 Million, could buy enough mosquito netting

to help pevent 30 million Africans from contracting malaria...

what goes around comes around

It's a cruel world, filled with low down, stupid people. When you're nothing but good to a person, you expect, when they leave your life, to leave it peacefully. but noooooo - the end of a certian "friendship" if you want to call it that, has been nothing but pain and anger and arguments. and it's SO STUPID! We could have just stopped bieng friends, and stayed out of each others way - and you know what, I stay out of this girls way - I dont want anything to do with her or her family, I dont go out of my way to be in her business, infact I avoid it all I can - yesterday I found out something that really really made me mad. I was applying for a job at a certian place and she went to this place, and spoke to the manager. she said "Did you hire Ashley Schalin?"
when the manager asked why, she said "if you did, you've just lost four of your most loyal customers"
let me tell you, when I heard that, I went beyond angry to absoloutely furious. I dont think I've ever been this mad in my whole life. I was shaking for at least an hour afterwards, I was so mad. Even now, im angry - but you know what's funny, is the manager told her to get out of the store, and they still looking to hire me. just goes to show you that what goes around will come around. she's gonna realize one day that no one likes her or her family, and the way they try to push other people around.

here's my message to this person : Get a life - I have my own, and obviously yours isnt interesting enough, because you have to interfere in mine to make yours complete.. well Im finished with you and your family. I had no anger before, No hard feelings - I was just done.. Well now you've made it worse for yourself. Oh Im not going to do anything mean to you, I wont sink as low as you did. But one day, it's going to come back and screw you over.. I definately wont be around to feel sorry for you when it happens.

old and new? ? ?

Wow what a week.. What a week indeed. Im here, Im all moved into the new place, and its been looking more like home every single day. Every time we take a load of stuff up, or unpack one more box, things look more familiar, just like we moved everything around. Today was the last big day of moving. Today was the day we moved all our big ass furniture, and got every last thing out of the old house. Funny thing is, it still hasnt sunk in that the red house isnt ours anymore. It hasnt hit me that in a couple more days, I wont be able to go in there. I wont be able to complain about the small driveway, or climb up in the cherry tree in the backyard. (uh oh... mabye writing about it is what is gonna make it sink in.. here goes nothing) it's just not gonna be home anymore. You know, I walked around in it today, and even though our stuff is gone, it still feels like home to me. I guess if you spend 20 years in the same place, that feeling tends to be fairly strong at the end of it all.. I've realized that it's not just the possessions that make a place home, but the people, the memories.. believe me, we have alot of all of those things that have passed through that house. When I think back to all the times we've had huge dinners over there, or when we've sat down at the table, just the four of us, when mom and I used to have picnics infront of the fireplace, when dad was away for the weekend with mike. When it used to rain and I'd lie under the skylight and watch it come down.. and then when the skylight leaked.. ha ha ha.. when dad built the sunroom, and caught all the baby raccoons from underneath it.. all the times I'd be out in the backyard and scream and run away because of an airplane.. the tire swing, the roller hockey with the neighbors. Watching a tree grow from about a foot tall, to eight feet and counting. Decorating for Christmas, the same but different every year. Moving the furniture back and forth over the years when we'd get bored. The painting on the wall downstairs. The sleepovers. The man eating suitcase. The orange bedroom. Alexis' first steps. Duane and Jen, Sammuel, Jeremiah, Cara.. (Not Hannah just cause she get's to see the new house.) The Raven across the street, snowball fights at four in the morning just because it was so quiet. (At four am, who knew?) I mean, alot of these things are gonna come with us, but some of them just wont happen again. And I guess that's ok, I just have to remember them with a smile, a laugh.. Something along those lines.. Now it's time to start making memories in the new place too! Like how mom was freaking out because it smelled like curry, and how even now, sometimes she opens a cupboard and freaks out because of the smell. How we STILL havent opened the hope chest. but now it's in the proper place. Memories to come?: getting to know Hannah (JUNE 20th) AND seeing JEREMIAH After a YEAR! ! ! !! Oh man that's exciting. SO exciting, actually. Decorating a WHOLE new place for Christmas, what an adventure that will be... mom and I are already excited. Dad's still rolling his eyes.
Things are gonna be good here.. I think, I hope I pray..

anyways, I've decided to make a list, just to occupy my thoughts and to make myself feel better about moving ..

Things I won't miss about the old house (Or mabye I will, but you know what I mean)
- the drunks across the street
- Never bieng able to park in the driveway
- Having neighbors that I dont like (wont miss that one)
-all the junk on the sides of the house
- the small bedrooms
- ONLY ONE BATHROOM
- no counterspace in the kitchen
- the unfinished basement and sunroom
- The dog next door, barking every time I move
- memories from the last christmas in that house (it SUCKED)


..... If I think of more I'll add it.. mabye..?????

Ok so now that I've done that, and it didnt really make me miss it less, (except the neighbors thing)Im gonna say some more things that I totally will miss about it..
- decorating for christmas
- the painting downstairs
- the hottub
- the hardwood floors
- all the pictures in the kitchen (that wont go on the fridge up here)
- my room bieng so huge (as in the whole downstairs)
- never knowing what that extra switch in the kitchen really did
- that was the house I beat supermario bro's 3 in WITHOUT warping
- the fact that I lived in the only red house on the block
- dad's custom windows

yeah that's about it for now. Im running out of things, even though the list will be endless. One day, I'll just think of something else, something small that I'll miss, and Im sure It'll make me sad.. but Im tough.. Just another journey.. or actually, just another part of it..
Mabye one day I'll write a list about this place.. someday soon if it pisses me off, ha ha but so far it's been pretty good...
God sure has blessed us greatly. We had a fantastic time in that house in the cove. Im sure the times will be just as fantastic, if not more here, and hopefully in Vermilion down the road..

LOTS OF LOVE

ashley
xoxo