Reflections

Christmas is approaching faster than I could have imagined it would, and I feel content with the preparations we've made. Just yesterday Dion and I bought our first real tree together, tied it to the top of my Corsica and drove it home - struggling through the elevator (whose doors don't have sensors, and close on you when you don't expect it!) and hallways, we managed to get it inside our apartment and set up. We listened to my favorite Christmas CD while we strung the lights, wrapped the ribbons and hung the decorations! The tree itself is just fantastic, I love it! Our whole apartment now smells just like Christmas should, honestly the only thing I feel we're missing is a fireplace, but that can wait for when we buy a house.
I am so happy with our apartment, the lights (both inside and out) make me smile, and the decorations make it feel even more like a home than it already did!

Another thing that I'm quite excited for is my next day off, when I plan to do a whole bunch of Christmas baking! Gingerbread cookies, rice krispie squares and of course the famous sugar cookes... I really love the holidays! But the thing I am most excited for is when Dion and I sit down together and open our presents! It might sound selfish but really what I am looking forward to is seeing my Dions face when he gets his presents. I love to make him happy, and I just know he's going to be surprised and happy with what santa brings him :)

One thing about this Christmas that's going to be different is that my parents aren't going to be with us - my first Christmas ever without them! While it's difficult to be without them, I know that their Christmas, and Mine with Dion, will be fantastic! ! ! ! We will all be with people that we love, that's for sure.

I hope and Pray that your Christmas is filled with all of the things that make you happy, with laughter, with a bit of snow, but most of all, with the people that you love!

Merry Christmas

Ashley
Xoxo

I thought I loved you then

How one song makes me cry every time -

I remember trying not to stare the night that I first met you
You had me mesmerized
And 3 weeks later in the front porch light taking 45 min to kiss goodnight
I hadn’t told you yet but I thought I loved you then

Chorus
Now you’re my whole life now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe the way I feel about you girl
Like a river meets the sea
Stronger than it’s ever been
We’ve come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then.

I remember taking you back to right where I first met you
You were so surprised
There were people around
But I didn’t care I got down on one knee right there
And once again I thought I loved you then

Chorus
Now you’re my whole life now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe the way I feel about you girl
Like a river meets the sea
Stronger than it’s ever been
We’ve come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then.

I can just see you with a baby on the way
I can just see you when your hair is turning gray
What I can’t see is how I’m ever gonna love you more
But I’ve said that before.

Now you’re my whole life now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe the way I feel about you girl
Well look back some day at this moment that we’re in
And I'll look at you and say and I thought I loved you then
And I thought I loved you then...

hello world

It's been a long time since i've written anything here. Once AGAIN I feel like this is how I start all of my blogs. wow. So alot of things are happening, I just got back my computer and now it is empty and lonely and like new, because the hard drive "Fried" (Says the man who fixed it, a very technical term if you ask me) and I had to get a new one. But the point, aside from no longer having my music, my pictures, and my documents, is that I have my computer back.

Some thoughts that are going around my head are:
1. Im warm.
2. I wonder if we'll have alot of snow this Christmas
3. I wonder if anyone will ever read this.
4. I need to go Christmas Shopping. Now..

Jude

Jude is one fantastic little guy. I just wanted to write a little note about him here, cause ... well, that's what I do..
In case you don't know, Jude is my godson and he was born this August, and like it says below, "I never thought in such a short time I could love someone so completely."

Well, Jude makes it easy. I've only seen him two times since he's been born, but still I love him all the same. He's the most gorgeous baby I've ever seen in my life, (and believe me, I've seen lot's of babies) and I just miss him like crazy. so I guess this is me, Auntie Ashley, wishing that I could be closer to you, wishing that I could kiss your little hands and face and love you to bits, but I guess I have to do it from over here..

Love you baby boy! ! !

So This Is The New Year

and i have no resoloutions.


I don't really know what I'm planning on writing, but I feel the need to make an update, so here goes nothing.
I haven't really been on the computer much, which is partly due to the fact that I've been busy, and partly due to the fact that I've had fake nails on since before christmas and it's made typing a chore. Well today I broke one nail and so therefore decided to bite off the rest of them - and let me tell you it wasn't pleasant. It hurt to do it and now it hurts becasue i guess the fake nails made my real ones thinner and weaker and so now my fingers are sensitive. Maybe I'm just sensitive. Oh well, such is life...

Speaking of life, it's a little bit out of the ordinary right now (then again, what is ordinary?)
Right now, I'm sitting on the bed, and thinking about just that question. What is ordinary? I guess I could describe it as comfortable, a job, a place to sleep, someone to talk to, etc. Well.. Two out of three aint bad right? Ok let me explain myself, cause this isn't making sense, even to me.
Last week my boss decided that they couldn't afford to pay me anymore - and therefore i was "let go"... which is super frustrating. All of a sudden, my "comfortable" life is disrupted, and I've got to go look for a job.... and the week they decided to let me go was just as I missed four days from being sick! SO my last paycheque wasn't enough to really save anything...

FRICK! !


I miss scrubs..