Temperatures Rising

Hey-lo people. Whats new? well, just to let you know, the concert was absoloutely amazing, though Im sure that you have already heard all about it. First, Sara came out and sang this song with Delerium, it was cool. Then, Delerium played a few songs, which was good, the lead singer lady was good. I asked the people who were sitting beside me who she was, cause I didnt know, and they were like "isnt that Avril Lavigne?" And i was like.. NO! But they didnt believe me, oh well. Ok, so then Chantal Kreviazuk played some songs, including "Blue: and "In this Life". Then Raine Maida came onto the stage, and he and Chantal sang "Running to Stand still" which was really well done. The song "Running to stand still", originally off of U2's "The Joshua Tree" album was quite a suprise, but without doubt, they pulled it off quite nicely. Then they sang "Bridge over Troubled water" and "Innocent" which was amazing. I was quite moved. OK, then Sum 41 came out onto the stage, which wasnt so bad, they did a good job, they held the crowds attention. They even dissed Bush, which, I dont think should have been brought into the night, but it's all good. We Shrugged it off, and enjoyed the rest of their performance. THEN, Ok, the suprise guest came out. You'll never guess who it was. Well, im sure you already know, so I'll hop right to it. Robin Williams. As he was introuduced, it was a shocked moment of silence before the screams and cheers errupted. Im not even kidding you, he was only there for like, five minutes, but the energy was insane after that. imagine, we saw robin williams! He was good, he introduced the next band as "every young mans fantasy, THE BARE NAKED LADIES" it was kinda funny. So then they played a bunch of songs, Like "if i had a million dollars, it's all been done" and much more. Guess what, they even did THE CHICKEN DANCE! They had everyone in GM Place doing the chicken dance in perfect harmony with them. IT was so funny to see. Ok, then Avril Lavigne came onstage, looking as Un-punk as I've ever seen her, but gorgeous all the same. She was alright, but really off key the whole time, which sucked for her. At one point, I was just sitting there, and was like, Ok, Avril, Play my song, play my song, and guess what? She did, it was great. She played Nobodys home, and did a good job, just her and the guitar. It was really nice. Then, This little choir with drums sang the song that usually goes "Soon and very soon, we are gonna see the king" but instead of saying that, they sang "soon and very soon, we are gonna change the world" and they did a good job. They dropped some hot beats too, it was great stuff. Then the moment we had all been waiting for. Sara McLauchlan. Not only was she absoloutely Gorgeous (just for you mike), her voice blew everyone away. She Sang Fallen, Hold on, And a few others, finally ending with Angel. (Naturally) It sure was beautiful. Then Everyone (except Robin Williams!) came back onto the stage, and finished off with "I shall be released" and "Hey Jude".. It was quite the good concert, I had a really good time, even if I was a bit tired by the end of it. Not only was it alot of fun, together, it raised over 2 million dollars for Tsunami Releif. Good on ya, Vancouver. So yeah, Yesterday was Sunday, I worked all day, and around 4:30, Sean called and was like.. Can you babysit tonight? And I was like, umm what time? "when can you be here?" he asked. That was great, so I just packed up my stuff and went, had a bit of a relaxer, it was nice. Im headed there tonight too, so thats a bit of money in the pocket, it's good. Plus, I really missed the kids too. They got back around 8pm, which was really early, and unexpected. So then I went over to Tricias, where we all sat around upstairs chatting, Jim Complaining mostly, and telling us how much Sara McLauchlan sucked. Beleive me, I had something to say about that, Me and MJ. Ha ha, we didnt let him get away with that comment. So a good time was had by all. And today, I got up around eight, and went to go get a coffee before my first provincial exam. It was no big deal, I think i did alright. I finished in good time, with fifteen minutes to spare. Then I went on an errand for mom, got her some table cloth thing, and had some lunch at Pizza hut with Tricia. It was good fun. So now, here I am, getting ready to bbsit for Sean again tonight, wishing you the most awesome of afternoons. Love you all!
love forever: Shle
xoxo
"Deeper than the ocean
And wider than any sea
You make me feel high like heaven
Its more than a dream come true
To me your like the sun brightening my day
Happy ending of any story
With an angles glow
You bring my soul Joy"
Nina Sky,

Can you feel the beat?

Good afternoon, whats up homies? WELL, Im in a super good mood, I just had a totally relaxing day, which was wicked-cool. I woke up around nine-thirty, because the phone was ringing off the hook. But by the time I had gotten to the phone, guess what? It stopped ringing. Suprise, suprise. Then, I lay down for another half an hour, until I got interrupted by the phone again, but this time, it was my daddy. He wanted me to drive to the superstore, and meet him there, so we could go and run some errands together. So meet him I did, we went, first, to delbrook to measure some windows, and then found our way to Cap mall to pick up our tickets for tonights concert. As we stepped out of wal-mart into the main mall, a sign for the "PSYCHIC FAIR" caught my eye. Meters away from it, was a table, at which sat three young people. From behind, I could recognize only one, because she sat on an angle to the table, so I saw her face. It was Samantha, and, laughing to myself, I assumed she had something to do with the psychic fair. So I walked around to the front of the table, ready to say hello, and then I recognized the other two youths at her side. It was Woody and Bobby! Then, I realized that there is no chance in this world that Woody and Bobby would have anything to do with that. it turns out that they were doing some ... umm, whats it called, anyways, they were publicizing this concert for Charity, for Urban Bridge. So They asked me to also help advertize for it! So here it is, guys, free web advertisement. The concert is Sunday, February 20th, 2005, from seven pm, to nine thirty, at north shore alliance church. The cost is seven bucks at the door. here's the worst part! NO DRINKING OR DRUGS! I mean, what kind of concert is this gonna be if we cant be high? Woody, of course agreed with me, as he shrugged his shoulders, shaking his head. "We were gonna play hammed," he admitted, "until these rules were put into place" SO YEAH! for those of you who wil be in province for this event, I strongly suggest that you go for it! My dad and I are gonna go, so it's gonna be great. I suggest you try to fit into your calendar, it looks like a good show. Plus, Woody and Bobby are gonna play, so yeah! After that little chat, dad and I headed to ticketmaster, got our tix, and then chilled for a bit around the mall. I went and bought some rings at Ardene (or was it claires?) cause i thought my fingers could use sprucing up. Plus, I was bored. SO YEAH! Then, we came home, and watched the movie Men of Honor, and Dad didnt even fall asleep! he must've liked it. Thanks to Aunt betty for buying it for me at christmas! SO now, we're just heading out to the concert, Im wishing you the best of evenings, hope it's great! Love you all

love forever: Shle

xoxo

P.S. The musical tidbit for the day is dedicated to my good friend, Rayon, who called me and had this playing in the background, which, suprised me, and made my day none the less. Oh, and sorry this is so short, but I gotsta go see Avril, Sara, Chantal, Sum 41 and more! Have a gooder!

"Oh Move your body girl
Makes the fellas go
The way you ride it girl
Makes the fellas go, oh
Can you feel the beat within my heart
Can't you see my love shine through the dark
Can't you see that you must be a part
Of that beat in my heart"

Living in Wonderland, Like my name was Alice

Howdy cowpolks! Whats the good word? Well, the good word here is that I'm alive. Last night, I got bored, so I went to the movie store and rented a movie called "Soul Plane". It was quite hot, stupid though it was. I dont reccomend it for people who dont think Snoop Dogg is hot, ha ha, which will be about 99% of you. Oh well, what can you do? Anyways, it was about this guy who didnt like other airlines, so he started one of his own, and it turned out to be quite the adventure. The plane was pimped out, man, it was purple velvet on the outside, with spinners and everything! IT even had dice in the mirror! And Snoop Dogg was the Pilot, but he passed about halfway through the flight, 'cause he didnt like heights, and he had never flown a plane before. It was so funny! But like I said, really stupid too. I also rented this movie called "From Hell" which I havent watched yet, it's a Johnny Depp movie, set in the timeframe of Jack the Ripper, so it's bound to be a gooder. Anyways, I woke up this morning, at like nine thirty, far too early if you ask me. From there, I chilled around the house for a bit, then, I went to sears to pick up some stuff for my dad, which took forever! Then, I came home, and left again to go get some postcards laminated so they wouldn't die. And then I came home, and spent about an hour on the phone. I tend to do that alot lately. But it's all in good fun. ANNNNNND So now, we're up to this point. Im about to go get ready for work now, which should proove to be interesting, IM not sure who I'm working with tonight, but hopefully everything will be cris. I havent got much else to say, I just felt the need to update because.. I just did. So I hope you have great nights, Love you all!

Love Forever: Shle

xoxo

"When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you, Not today
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today
Tomorrow it may change"

Today is the greatist

GUESS WHAT? Im in a good mood! Can you tell? Well, the day started off very insane-ly early! I woke up at six, then decided not to take a shower till after work, cause I knew I'd end up stinking like subway anyways, and I didnt want that. So I slept for another fourty minutes, then got up, got dressed, and went to work, where everyting was cris, there was a grand total of like, seven customers from eight am to like, 11 pm, in which I did all my work, then managed an hour of studying. It was grand. Then I went home, showered, and went to the school, where I ran into Whitney, who was having .. like, a study party in the biology room! Im not even joking, there was even popcorn and timbits! I wish I was as creative as that, then again, it would mean I'd have to study, and .. Im not too into that. Then, I had my geography exam, which I went into with a calm additude, and I'm fairly sure that I aced it. It was the easiest exam I've ever sat through, it took me one hour and twenty minutes. Then, I went home, and ended up running a couple of errands for mom, in preperation for supper tonight, and then came back, and got some absoloutely awesome news! Diago can come back! Now, for those of you who are confused as to what the heck i'm talking about, Diago is Tricias Stepfather, who was trying to get permission to come into Canada to live with them! I havent seen him in over six months, and I probably wouldn't have seen him for another six if he had not been accepted! Im so excited! SO CONGRATULATIONS! I called Tina to say that, and Talked to them for a good few minutes, Diago and Tina are both quite excited, it was good to talk to them! :D SO YEAH! Now, It's eleven minutes after five in the evening, and I'm gettin ready to go pick up Jeremiah for some good old fashioned mexican dinner going down here. Im not sure exactly how to get to Maplewood Farm, but I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually. HA HA, WOW IM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD! And so tomorrow, I'm sleeping in, Friday through tuesday I have no school, save for my english exam on monday, which will be a breeze. You know me, English is no problem mon! SO YEAH! Im gonna go pick up JZ, have a great Night, love you all! Sorry this isnt too long, but.. meh! HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT!
Love forever: Shle
xoxoxo
"Something in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life"
Chantal Kreviazuk

Two in One Day? Insane!

Wow, can you believe it? Two entries in one day? ! ? ! It's almost insane, just almost. Just on the verge of it. Well, I was reading the post from earlier today, I figured someone had to, then I realized that it is totally random and useless. Ha ha. Kinda like me! So this update will probably be just as random and useless as the other one, but I feel like updating. When really, I should be studying. So today was fairly easy, I went to school, half an hour early accidental, cause it was an ethos day, and since I was so early, I decided to work on my project for Info Tech, so that I wouldnt have to go to the class later. So I finished it, then went to geogrpahy, which was another waste of time, 'cause Mr. Earl just talked about nothing in particular. Though, I did find out that I got 44/50 on my 3D Model, which is alot better than what I expected. Then, I had another half an hour break, where I wandered around aimlessly, passing the Bio class which I would have been sitting in, were it not for my decision to drop it. As usual, Mrs. Valli was droning on about nothing in particular. Sorry to Whitney, who still has to deal with it. ;) So yeah. Then, I had english class, where Mrs. Sandberg talked for a bit about the exam, and how she thought we'd all do great, and she handed back our personal philosophy, on which I got 88/100, which isn't bad, either. It's definately an A! She told me as I left that she thought I'd do great on the original composition, so I'm alright with that, mon. After school let out, I walked home, then went out with my mom. First, we went to rikis urban diner for lunch, which, all in all, was kinda gross and overpriced. Then, we went to Wal-Mart, where we both got a bit too excited for something that isn't happening for another 158 days. Yeah, I'm talking about Jamaica. My mom bought me a new bathing suit, and a suitcase! NO JOKE! Then I was like, ok, in a few weeks, I'll get some summer clothes. Then mom goes, "Now is the time to get it!" so I bought another bathing suit (I couldn't resist, the one mom got was all colorful, and so I bought a black one, same style) I also got like 5 tank tops, and two wrap-around things for my waist, one black, one white. I can't remember what they're called, but I really like them alot. They're quite hot, if you ask me. Anyways, Then we decided to get the heck out of there, before I spent all my money. Then, a friend of mine came over to the house, and chilled with me while I attempted to clean my room. Then, we went up to parkgate to get a pizza, and we went into subway to buy a cookie, where I was asked to open the store tomorrow. So I have to be there for like, seven AM, until like, 12. I have no problem with that, it's just more moola in my pocket, but then my problem is that I have no cramming time, which is why I should be studying right now. But, as I opened my book about 15 minutes ago, and sat there to read through my notes, I couldn't concentrate on them. Now, it could have been one of three things. It could have been the Elephant man CD playing quietly in the background. And Im serious, it was quiet! It could have been the scent of pizza from the other room. It could have been .. I just didnt want to study. I vote for number three! What say you? AYE! So today, I finally got ahold of Rayon to let him to know that I was going to come to Jamaica. I called, and he answered "Yo, wh'appen star?" I guess he has caller ID or something. Anyways, then I proceeded to ask him what he was doing on July fifth at 1:15 in the afternoon, and when he said "nothing at all" I asked him if he wanted to take a drive to Mo Bay to see me ! And then he got all excited, and we talked for about 30 minutes about .. random things, where I was gonna stay, and what we were gonna do, so yeah! It was dope. It was good to talk to him, 'cause I haven't talked to him in a long while. Yeah. So there. Hey, I wonder when spring break is this year. Cause Im just gonna get as many hours as I possibly can, so that I can have some money! I need to ask my boss about that, or just be like, hey, this is spring break, give me as many hours as you possibly can, pretty pretty please? Oh yeah, I should probably tell him when Im gone this summer too, though, knowing him, he won't care till a week before I leave. That's the kind of boss he is, it's super dope. He's so flexible, he doesnt care if you want time off, just so long as you tell him. It's super cool. He's a really nice guy too, which is one of the reasons I love working at subway. This, by far, is one of the best jobs I've ever had, just because of the people that I work with, because I like them alot, they're fun to be around, most of them work hard, and also.. I love subway, so it's great working somewhere where I love what I do. It's especially great, 'cause I know about 80% of the people who walk through the door, and it's good fun to be able to talk to them.. SOOO YEAH! Wow, I'm just having a great day today, isn't that fun? You know, I havent even told any of my extended family that I'm going away this summer, I've got to figure out a way to do that without endangering the well bieng of me or my parents (for letting me go) I can picture it now... "HOW COULD YOU LET HER GO THERE AGAIN? AND ALONE FOR GOODNESS SAKES, ARE YOU CRAZY?" blah blah blah. One person whom I know won't freak is my uncle steve, he'll simply give me a baseball glove. Ha ha ha, inside joke. But you probably get it anyways. SO yeah, I really really should go study, Cause now the pre-exam jitters are starting to sink in. I need to go read about karst topography, apline and continental glaciation, ocean stuff, ect... BLAH! Have a beautiful Night, A great day tomorrow, I love you all!
Love forever: Shle
xoxo
The musical tidbit for the day is Dedicated to my mom,
'cause she's super cool, and I love her tons!
"And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there this I promise you, Mamma
I'll be your beacon through the darkest nights
I'll be the wings that guide your broken flight
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
And I will love you 'till forever comes" - Celine Dion

Here I am

HEY GUESS WHAT? Im at school, isn't that fun? So instead of working, or studying, or something worthwhile, I have instead decided to update my blog. So here I am. Whats going on? Whitney has just decided not to study for english, which is just as productive as what im doing! "Stupid Exams" she says. Ha ha, Wow, im really really hyper today, so yeah. So last night, I spent like twenty five minutes on the phone with some random who was in Toronto, working for Air Canada. So yeah, I booked a ticket for JAMAICA! I'm leaving on July fourth at 11:45 pm, then, Arriving in Toronto at 7:15, chillen there for like three hours, then heading to JAMAICA ! I arrive there at 1:15pm, hopefully Rayon will be there to pick me up, and BLAH! WoW, You wouldn't believe how friggen excited I was last night, I was bouncing off the walls, and I tried to call people, but noone was home! *sigh* Then Whitney Called me while she was driving down the highway, which worried me, CAUSE THATS DANGEROUS! Ha ha ha, can't you just see Whintey driving down the highway with a cell phone on her ... ear..... i guess... chattin away.. hey, I dont even know where she was coming from! And you know what, while she was changing lanes, she stopped talking to me for a second! Arg, i was so hurt. So this is quite random, yes? ? ? So today is an ethos day, I have an exam tomorrow, which I have not even begun to study for. I think it's about geography, Im not 100% sure. Something like that. Ok, so then I have thursday, friday, saturday, AND sunday off (School) Till my english provincial on Monday, which I was just told that I will do very well on, by my English teacher. Oh, Whitney just left, on the pretense of studying. Yeah right. Oh, and by the way, her brother is quite the hottie. Ha ha ha. Now I just got my project marked my Mr. Bell, which is dope, cause that means I can leave this class! So now, im going to go home, and have some lunch, and CHILL! Love to you all,
Love Forever: Shle
"Lean on me, when you're not strong,
and I'll be your friend,
I'll help you carry on,
For, It wont be long,
'till I'm gonna need,
Somebody to lean on,
I just might have a problem,
that You'd understand,
we all need somebody to lean on Lean on me."

I eat the GREEN ones last!

Hey everyone, what's going on? And when I say everyone, I really mean Whitney, Mike, and mabye Sam. the only ones who I think read this. At least the only ones taht I know who read this. So hey. Here I am, today was an easy day for me, first I woke up at seven fourty five, well rested and to a great song on the radio. It was "Soldier" by Destinys Child. Then, I got on my merry way to school, where my first class was just sitting around, looking at peoples projects. Then I went and got my grad sillouette drawn, then worked for a bit on my portfolio for Info Tech, actually, for like two hours, finially finishing it up. It looks alright, if I say so myself. Then I worked at lunch, for only a bit. It wasn't too busy. Then I took the car and drove to chevron and filled up with gas, then wen't back and picked mom up from work. And so now, here I am. My mood thing says that i'm bright, but you know, it's one of those days where.. you just.... are, you know? Im here, Im not totally happy, nor am I dissatisfied with anything. Im just me today. Im sorry that last night's update was so lame, but I felt the need to update, then found myself at a loss for words. GUESS WHAT? Now, don't get all excited or anything, but I might be going on a cruise this spring break! how dope is that? Im not sure where yet, It might be alaska, it might be mexico, it might be the caribbean, either way, It's gonna be a cruise, and I really hope that I get this oppurtunity. It would be quite amazing, leaving me with some great stories to tell, eh? Imagine, a cruise! I was watching Titanic last night when this whole idea was proposed to me, and I just imagined bieng able to see the open ocean around me, whales, perhaps, dolphins.Sunset on the open seas. Now im psyched, but I can't get too excited, cause It's nowhere near final.. But Mom told me that, like, on the cruise ship, all the food was unlimited, all the drinks, and that I would be allowed to drink (alchohol) on the ship, but I've already decided that if I go, I wont be drinking, first of all, it's expensive, second of all, it's just not a good idea. *shrugs* Do you know what I need right now? I need a good book to read. Not just any book, either, one that I can really get my mind into.. But at the same time, I guess not, cause I havent got the time to read a book like that. Sometimes, I just wish that life was not as crazy as it is. Right now, Im just sitting here listening to some Sara McLauchlan, eating some smarties, and attempting to make this update worth reading, which, really, I can't seem to do. *sigh* Im just not having much luck today. So yeah, that's my predicament, I think I'm going to end this here, and go make a phone call. Love to you all,
Love Forever: Shle
xoxo
"the winter here's cold, and bitter
it's chilled us to the bone
we haven't seen the sun for weeks
too long too far from home
I feel just like I'm sinking and I claw for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness
I feel like letting go
if all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace"

Short One

Hello, and good evening. How are you all doing? Well, I'm alright, for those of you who care. Though, I dont really have much to say today. Im just updating to let you know that I am indeed alive, although insane tired, and hungry, and even on the verge of grumpy. I'm getting there, and thats not good, 'cause I dont really like it when I'm grumpy. Im here, just listening to Beenie Man, which is great, cause it's hot music. I had a very long day, I worked from eight thirty to three oclock, which was insane boring, cause, like, noone came in! I dont know how the people could walk by the door, and resist the scent of fresh baked bread.. *sigh* So yeah, I spent the whole day at work, until I went home and colored some fuzzy posters (thats right, fuzzy posters, got something to say about it? ha ha) And so now, I'm here, and Im about to have some pizza bagel goodness for dinner, so im going to end this here, and probably post something else either later tonight or tomorrow. Have a great night.

Love Forever Shle

xoxo

"Hot sexy punkie, me punkie, gyal,
me see say that ya waa'n me, and it na matter wha your man a say,
man a say, cause you know se that we haffe link up one day"

BUG EYES!

Ok, here I am again! You'll never guess what I did today, unless you're whit, cause I just told her. I went out, and bought my FIRST CHRISTMAS PRESENT for next year! I know, I know, Eleven months! Chances are, I'm going to put it somewhere and forget about it, but the fact of the matter is, I was there, It was there, and It was perfect for who I got it for, I just.. COULDNT RESIST! It's almost as though self control is a foreign word to me, almost. Wow, today, I went to school, and we had our grad group photograph taken. We all were called to the gym, as "Grads". it made me feel special. As we got to the door of the gym, we were asked to remove our footwear, sieng how the gym floor was just freshly painted and varnished, (it looked quite nice) and then we crowded around the seyhawk in the middle of the gym, carefully instructed not to cover it, and got our group shot taken. I felt extremely sorry for the woman who took our photograph, seriously, I wouldn't have climbed the ladder that she did if you paid me to. It was so rickety, and with each and every step she took, I saw the step sag under her feet. Even though there was one man at each corner of the ladder, holding it steady, I still would have been shakin in my boots. Or at least shakin on the ladder! Anyways, It's been a sad day in the neighbourhood. I do like the rain, but today it caused some severe destruction and devastation in the lives of some three hundred fifty north vancouver residents. So let me take this time to offer my condolences to those families who lost their houses in the flood today, and, though they probably won't read this, I'll offer them anyways. And to those who were evacuated, that really sucks man. I hope everything goes well for you. So back to randomness. I feel a rant coming on. Arg. Can't... stop.. the... rant! What makes people think that they have the right to talk about you behind your back? and none the less, tell lies about you behind your back? What is with people who can't just accept the fact that something happened, and not blow it up and make it seem so much worse than what it was, by altering the truth? What is with people like that? do they have nothing better to do? Im sorry, but people who do that really anger me, and so now, I'm going to end this rant, before I say something I really regret. *shakes head* Sorry about that guys, but sometimes, people really piss me off. Im calm, I promise. Now it's just a matter of finding something else to talk about. I just read a speech that a good friend of mine wrote, and I found a really awesome concept in it, which, with her permission, I am going to share with you.

"As we graduate in 5 months, we will all go our separate ways. You may never see the person sitting beside you ever again. I know that that is a hard thought to grasp, because I still can’t wrap my head around the idea. But I do know that life must go on, and that we can’t live within the safety of Deep Cove our entire lives. We need to go out into the world and experience it first hand. No matter how many times someone tells you something, there is no way to know if it is true than to experience it for your self. You can read all you want about the Alps, or the busy streets in Tokyo, but trust me. Until you go out there and see it and experience it for yourself, you will never know what it is truly like."

Thank you, Whitney Shrieves! You have some insane-good thoughts creeping around in that head of yours. Keep up the good work. So yeah, read that, and think about it. She's right you know. She's right. Most of us, (with the exception of a few) have lived here our whole lives, and have only seen snippets of the real world. Im not just talking big time places, Japan, France, even Arizona (ha ha props to whit), but Im talking outside of your bubble of safety. When was the last time that you talked to someone who isn't by your standards "Your friend"? When was the last time you went out of your way to meet someone you've never met before? as "seycovians", can we walk down the halls, and honestly say that we can smile at everyone who walks by? no? ? ? why not? Why does school have to be a place where you have your friends, and I have mine, and there's nothing in between? and not just school, but .. the whole world! What makes one person better than the other? Is that what this life is about? prooving that you are better than everyone else? If so, that makes me quite sad. Yeah, I've asked alot of questions today, so for now, Im going to leave you with them, and go to bed! Here's hoping you have a great one..

Love Forever Shle xoxo

"The dawn will come and break the silence screaming in our hearts" - Amy Lee

It's Raining, it's pouring!

HEY HEY! Guess what everyone, It's still raining! By now, I would have normally begun complaining about it, but I can't bring myself to do it, 'cause I LOVE the fact that it's rain, not snow. Ha ha. What's happened to the old Ashley, you ask? Well.. Im still here. I just dont want winter anymore. BAH! What can you do, eh? Well I just got back from the dentist office, at first, I was apprehensive, sitting in the waiting room, fidgeting nervously, then I was moved to the office, in the dreaded "chair".. I was informed that they would be drilling ! Yep, I had a cavity, so I decided that I would lay back in the chair with my eyes closed, 'cause I really don't like needles.. *shudder* So, Lay back with my eyes closed, I did, and I didnt feel a thing. Except when the needle made contact with the tissue inside my mouth... Ech......... *shudders again* Right, so not much else is new, I just got given a phone card, so I can call my friends, that makes me quite excited. Man alive, I can't wait until Grad! ITS CRAZY! It seems like just days ago that I was sitting outside on a balmy september day, waiting for my first year of High School to begin, and Now it's all over. Sorry, just reminiscing. I can still remember back in the day, when I was just a wee one, attending Cove Cliff Elementary, the little suck up that I was. I remember that I always used to take Mrs. Gillesppies Coffee Mugs to the staff room for her, and I always knew where her keys were, 'cause she always lost them. *sigh* those were the days. "Boy the way Glen Miller played, songs that made the hit parade, guys like us we had it made, those were the days, and you know where you were then, girls were girls and men were men, mister we could use a man like Herbert Hoover again, didn't need no welfare states everybody pulled his weight, gee our old Lasalle ran great, those were the days!" Pathetic, isn't it? Pathetic that I know the words to that song, and pathetic that most of you reading this wont have a clue what that's from. Ten points to you if you do, if you don't, you should watch "All in the family" more often. That's a classic. Along with "I dream of Jeanie" and "Golden Girls." well, not so much that one. See what I mean about reminiscing? It seems so easy to do, just close your eyes, and you're in the past. sometimes it's just as easy to be in the future, you know what I mean? Like right now, I can see myself graduating, I can see myself moving out of here, I can see all that Jazz. It's called DREAMING! So anyways, Im gonna end this one here, 'cause Im gonna go to the open mike at Bean Around the World! Have a gooder, guys!
Love Forever: Shle

"Dreaming, I must be dreaming.
Or am I really lying here with you?
Baby, you take me in your arms,
and though Im wide awake,
I know my dream is coming true.
And oh, I, just fall in love again.
Just one touch, and then it happens every time
And Here I go, I,
Just fall in love again and when I do,
I can't help myself I fall in love with you. "

The Snow is Melting!

Hey Everyone, im so sorry, I've neglected my duties! Have no fear, I am here once again to update this little blog, though I'm not sure if anyone actually reads it, or if it is completely pointless to pour my soul into it.... I hope people read it, cause its kinda fun when you're bored, or it could be the thing that makes you bored. So guess what, Last night, I had the "pleasure" to go to a legendary "Trav" party. Let's just say that it's not my scene, and that I will never be going to another party again, unless Im drunk before I get there. Honestly, it wasnt that bad, if you're used to that sort of thing, but i'm definately not, and I definately wont be going to another one. Infact, I had such a time last night, that i've even decided not to go to my Grad party. What happened, you ask, that made my decision so final? Well, it just wasnt a good scene, and for those of you who are into it, (You know who you are) I can't honestly say that I understand why. I wanted to stretch my wings last night, and see what it was like, the party scene, I figured I'd be into it, but you know what, Im not, and that is my decision, not one I made becasue of my parents, but one I made because I was absoloutely disgusted with what I saw, how I (and everyone else) acted, and BLAH! Yeah, so that was my random little rant for the day. Sorry if I've offended anyone, but .. thats just the way it goes. ONTO ANOTHER SUBJECT! Guess what, I was on the phone with someone today, and he just broke out into random song, I've never heard him sing before, and .. to be honestit made my day. It was beautiful, He just started singing this song, and I couldn't stop smiling. Yay... It was a song that I've never heard before, but it was extremely nice none the less. And I would quote it, But I can't remember all the words. My bad.. Anyways, Right now, it's raining outside, and that makes me soooo glad! Im so sick of this crap we like to call snow, that it's not even funny. You know what, I called for a friend of mine, and had a conversation with his mother! The first thing she said was "You should start going out with Sam" and I was like.. "WHAT?" then she explained that she didn't mean it that way, but that she wanted me to become his temporary manager, and I wont bother explaining that one, cause even Im not sure what she meant, but aside from that, Yeah.. That was funny, if you only could have seen the look on my face when she said that. It must have been priceless. Ok, you know what, I just read my brothers website thing, and now I feel silly. I dont know, this thing that I'm doing, this webpage, I thought it was pretty cool, but then I go and read mikes, and his is worded crazily, he's has so much more to say than I do, and... blah.. I dont even know if people read mine. Anyways, If you do, let me know, ok? Cause if not, i dunno. Is there any point in continuing? Sorry for that random splotch of depression, thats just the way the ball rolls. Anyways, im going to go find a book to read, or someone to call, Cause i havent got anything else of imporntance to say. Love Shle Xoxo
PS, here's my song thing for the day..
"Do you understand the feeling when Im feeling When I tell you how I'm feeling When Im feeling that way Cant get over how you make everything better When you are around me you bring joy to my day Dont know what I will do without you in my life I don’t give a damn about what people wanna say All I’m saying that This is where I’m at And Id do anything to make you stay" - Street Life (Beenie Man)

Snow....again....

Do you know what disgusts me? It's snowing.. Hard.. Perfect timing. I suppose I could have updated earlier, sieng how I just lay around the house all day, but there's a claus that came with that luxury. I am so sick right now that it isn't even funny. I woke up this morning and got all ready for the day, then as I began walking towards the sacred halls of Seycove, it hit like a thousand angry ... things.... And I walked the rest of the way to school, ocassionally stopping to catch my breath and steady my spinning head, and then turned right around and walked home, falling asleep almost immeadiately after I colappsed on the couch. It was a bright day outside, I could tell 'cause I could see the light shining through my closed eyelids. Now, as I look out the window, I can't see anything but a thick curtain of snow. So think that it disgusts me. At first, it was falling so fast that I thought it was rain, and I got quite excited. But then I took a closer look, and realized that my skylight was no longer clear, and that the windshield on the cars in my driveway were no longer opaque. OH WRETCHED WINTER, WHY SHOW THY BRUTAL FACE TO ME NOW? Yik. So yeah, for most of the day, I slept, then around lunchtime, I found a book and began reading it. I'll admit it to you, it was a Danielle Steel Book, sieng how we have an abundance of those in my house (props to my mother) and I'll even admit to you that it touched my heart, and even.. mabye.. made me cry .. just a bit? It was about this little girl who was in a brutal car accident, and she was in a coma for four months, all the while, the girls mother found out that her husband was cheating on her, and had been for the past eight months, then she divorced him, and fell madly in love with her daughters best friends dad, and blah blah blah .. Typical Danielle Steel, if you ask me. Anywhoo, I just spent the last hour and a half on the phone with .... my friend... who is enjoying much better weather than I am right now, in fact, he's never even seen snow, the lucky bum! I wish that I could say that at this moment, however, If now were before Christmas (thank God, it's not) My view would be changed entirely. All antics aside, I'm rather Glad that Christmas has come and gone, As I've said before, I am well ready for Spring and Summer to come here. No more fires in the fireplace, no more shivering as I try to sleep off the long nights, no more Sliding in the mush we like to call snow, and ... NO MORE WINTER! Better yet, summer means no more high school for Ashley, and a Trip down south, as well. Anyways, im just rambling for today, because Im not feeling too good, and I have nothing of interest to report to you other than that fact. Love to you all, Email me sometime, give me something to talk about on this website! now, as is becoming the norm, Im going to leave you with a quote from a song that I enjoy, Have a good one!
Love Shle
xoxoxo
Ashanti - Only You
"Oh I can't wait to get next to you
Oh I just can't leave you alone
Boy you stay inside my mind ain't no denyin' that
and only you could do them things that got me comin' back
This has Gotta be the realest thing that I have ever felt
and I'll do what I gotta do to keep you to myself,"

It's bloody Cold

Hey Everyone! Im sorry that I'm so late with my update, but my day has been full of things like subway and grandparents. A strange combination, isn't it? Well let me put it this way. Since it's indeed Sunday, I was working from eight thirty am until three pm. It was a very hectic day indeed, At ten fifteen, while I was still alone in the world of subway, Two whole soccer teams (AND THEIR PARENTS) decided to stop in and have some subway. Im not even kidding you, the line up went out the door. You know what though, it's alright, because someone left behind thirty dollars on the counter, just randomly, and my boss said that if by next sunday, no one claimed it, I just earned myself a thirty dollar tip. Can't complain about that. So right at three, my parents came to pick me up, and, ignoring the fact that I wanted to shower (because I smelled of fresh baked bread), we went straight to Ladner to visit my Grandpa for his birthday, which is on Tuesday. So now, for the first time all day aside from this morning, I'm at home, and bloody cold. Last night, I was so cold that I took advantage of the fact that I have a hottub, and combining my three favourite things (talking on the phone, Listening to music, and .. ice, if you get my drift) I went out and got nice and warm. Of course, it would have been funner if someone had been there with me, and perhaps alot warmer, but I dont suppose I can always get what I want, now can I? So I was sitting in my hottub, and without getting electrocuted, I called one of my good friends, Sam! (You got your moment in the spotlight, feel better?) He was at the "climax" of watching his film, (Back to the Future) so I had to let him go, which is understandable, I mean, who can resist "Back to the Future?" Christopher Lloyd and Micheal J Fox obviously knew what they were doing when they agreed to star in this amazing movie from 1985. So back to ... whatever I was talking about.. which wasn't really anything of importance anyways, Yeah, So I called Sam, then after about twenty more minutes in the hot water, I got out of the hottub, and made a couple more phone calls, with less risk of electrocution, then I looked at a bunch of pictures of my friends whom I haven't seen in six months, (I miss you like mad, lawd gawd!!!) then I went to sleep, because I was cold, and I had nothing better to do. You know what? This whole webpage thing, i've just realized, is COMPLETELY and UTTERLY pointless... Which is why it's so darn fun. I've been told that I am a rambler, well.. those of you who informed me of this fact, I KNOW! And it's so amusing. This is precicely why this "Blog" is perfect for people like me. You know what, I just read my brothers Blog, and he mentioned two things that really stood out to me. The first one was that he felt Rastafarian.. Dude, I didn't make him do it, i swear, It wasn't me. THEN, oh wait for it. Then he mentioned that he went to QUIZNOS! Can you imagine! MY RIVAL COMPANY! QUIZNOS! I'll be honest, I was hurt, but then I remembered that when he was home over the Christmas holidays, he said I was the best sandwich artist around, and that in all his years of subway, he had never had a sandwich as good as the BMT (On Italian herb and cheese bread) that I made him. Ha ha, so if that's sparked your interest, you should drop by Parkgate subway sometime when I'm working, I'll make you the best sub you'll ever eat. And Just for the record, Im not cocky, im confident, so when you tell me I'm the best, it's a compliment. Ha Ha, that rhymes. Ill be honest, I did mean for that to rhyme, because it's a quote from a song, entitled "New York, New York" It's a gooder, if you like that sort of thing, which most of "my readers" dont, so I wont advise you to listen to it. Ha Ha, so anyways, yeah. Now im actually just rambling, since I dont seem to have anything of importance to tell you anymore. Im going to leave you with a couple more words of ... random emotion from the music world, and I will be back tomorrow, strong as ever, Love you all!
Love Shle xoxo
"Where has my heart gone?
an uneven trade for the real world.
I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all."

Entry Number two.. Creative, No?

HALLO! Ok people, so I got responses from some of you regarding my last blog, glad to you know that you, like me, have no life whatsoever, ha ha. So here I am, sitting in the computer Lab at Seycove Secondary Community school, bored out of my mind and absoloutely freezing. Why couldnt winter have come a month ago, when I actually wanted it to? Well, mother nature, You're too late to razzle dazzle us all with your splendor, WE WANT SUMMER! At least, I do. Summer to me, means many things. As I sit here, I can picture the summer sun, and see myself doing my homework outside at the school, perhaps and hopefully for the last time ever. Yes.. I am Graduating from Seycove. After five long years of "sacred learning" I am finally Graduating, and I couldn't be any happier. This summer will perhaps be the last of my carefree youth, for next year, I have to step out into the real world, make some money and go to school. Now that I think about it, going to Cap College isnt even the real world, I've been told that sometimes it just seems like a more expensive version of High School. But, because I dropped Biology, I no longer have enough Provincial Exams to go straight to University, but that is honestly ok with me, Because I would have failed biology anyways. I cant picture myself sitting through another one of Mrs. Valli's lectures without having a nervous breakdown, anyways. So right, back to ... what was I talking about? Oh right, University and College, Ect.. So I've made my decision for the time bieng, I hope I can start the University Transfer program at Cap, Begin my Major in English, and then after one year in College, Transfer over to Trinity Western University, where I can not only Major in English, but Minor in some sort of Religion Training. I heard that the community at Trinity is amazing, my older cousin went there, and is now a missionary, and a few of my classmates from last year also attend that university. I can honestly say that I am looking very much forward to attending TWU. Anyways, Im going to end this, because Mr. Bell (the Comp Teacher) just informed the class that there was just a power surge througout the school, and that perhaps now would be a good time to save our work. So I hope you are enjoying the snow, Have a great day, I'll be updating again later! Love Shle Xoxo

Random Lessons Learned

Hey Everyone! This is my first little .. blog.. whatever that is, lol. So I've decided that for my first entry, im going to share with you a paper that i've just written for my english class, I know, it's random, but.. hey.. I'm damn proud of it. So here it is, have fun with that, and i'll try to update daily, just cause im bored, and i have no life.. hope you guys like this! Love: Shle “Money can’t buy happiness” By: Ashley Schalin I was told that it would be hot, but as I flew towards the tiny island of Jamaica, I couldn’t imagine just how hot it would be. I arrived late at night, and was picked up by Diago, my best friends stepfather. It was a hot and uncomfortable night, and with the dawn came even more heat. I rose with the sun, wiping away the sweat dripping down the side of my face. I had only met three of the locals due to my late arrival in the country the previous night. I met Diago, his seven-year old daughter, Kay, and his nephew, Rayon. That morning, Rayon came into the living room where I slept, and offered to show me around Logwood. As I walked down the nameless dirt road with Rayon beside me, I looked at each little house, some of them no bigger than my basement, and made up of rotting, yet vibrantly colored wood. There were chickens and goats all over the streets, and dogs, too, yet none of these animals seemed approachable. ”We call them mongrels,” said Rayon, gesturing to the dogs. As we reached the end of the dirt road, we came upon a group of children playing with a ball around a large pile of woodchips. Immediately, I felt a wave of pity wash over me, pity for these poor children playing in the dirt. I closed my eyes, and I could see my younger cousins surrounded by all their toys. So lucky; But then the scene in my mind shifted. Once again, all their toys surrounded them, but this time, they both fought over a single one. ”Ashley,” a voice interrupted my thoughts. I opened my eyes and shook the scene from my mind. Once again, I saw the children toss the ball cheerfully to one another. We continued walking around Logwood District that day, stopping constantly to meet people and talk to them. If I noticed one thing about them all, it was that they were all smiling; but why? Their houses were dumps, in comparison to even some of the worst houses in the west end of Vancouver. Their possessions were meager, and they didn’t even know if they would be eating from day to day. Didn’t they know that they were missing out? That night, as I lay down on the couch to sleep, I bid everyone in the house goodnight, then I lay awake for hours, replaying the events of the day in my mind over and over again. Finally, I drifted off to sleep, dreaming of having to live in such a way, and how my family and friends would cope in such a situation. I awoke just before dawn the next day, and sat on the front steps made of concrete. I watched the ants scurry about the ground near my feet. The sun began to rise above the trees, bringing with it the awakening of Logwood. Women began to hang their laundry on the lines that were strung tightly between the trees, children ran about the yards, playing carelessly with one another, and the men began their work around the yards. They cut the grass with rusty machetes, they gathered wood, and they caught the next meals for their families. That afternoon, I went walking with two little girls whom I had met earlier. I took them to the store with me; I desperately needed another cold drink. Kay and Shanda raced towards the candy, as I made my way leisurely towards the drink cooler. After picking up three bottles of “Ting”, (Jamaican Grapefruit Juice), I followed the excited chatter of the two girls, finding them at the front counter, looking at all the penny candy. I suggested that they pick some candy for the walk back. Their eyes lit up, the smiles on their faces becoming broader, if possible. The two rushed forwards, hugging me as tightly as two seven year old girls could, and then turned back to the candy, picking only one piece each. ”Here,” I said, grabbing a handful, and moving to pay. Kay and Shanda couldn’t believe it. If only you could imagine what their faces looked like. They were so happy that someone wanted to buy them so much candy. Such a simple thing brought so much happiness to two little girls. The rest of my trip passed in a rush, it was almost as though time had doubled it usual frenzied pace. Each day, I rose with the dawn, each day, I met another happy face, and each day, I spent time with my new friends, learning their ways and adapting to their lifestyle. Three weeks later, with many sad goodbyes, I made my way to the airport in Montego Bay. On the plane home, I put my headphones over my ears, trying to drown out the sound of goodbye with the first reggae CD I ever bought. It was Luciano, and he sang about Jah, his savior, his God. I closed my eyes as we took off, and for the whole flight home, I did nothing but think. I thought about how happy everyone was, and I wondered why we, in Canada, in wealth beyond Jamaica’s imagination, weren’t. It took me another two weeks back at home to get used to all of my possessions again. I spent a lot of time in silence, pondering about how lucky I was. I would sit in my room for hours at a time, looking at all of my things: my closet and dresser, bursting to the seams with clothes, most of which I didn’t wear anymore, my books and movies, my childhood dolls. Every time I saw those dolls, sitting up there on the shelf, doing nothing but collecting dust, I could see what Kay and Shandas faces would look like if only they could have this many dolls. As I write about my experiences, some six months later, I can still see the faces of those children whom I once pitied. I can see their smiles as they play with one another; and as I see them, I think of what a wretched culture I live in, what a wretched culture of which I am a part of. It’s a culture where people are so unsatisfied with what they have, one where people simply want more and more, yet it is never enough. Since my trip to Jamaica, I have thought over and over again, “if only I could help them, send them some money or something!” But then I realized one day that they don’t need it. The people that I encountered in Jamaica are truly and honestly happier than most people in Canada ever will be, they are happier without what we have. To this day, and for a long time, I think, I still will look at my things and all I will be able to see is one word. Selfish. I’ve realized that is what we are. I’m only seventeen years old, I can’t say I’ve experienced it all, but I’ve seen something not many other North American teens have, or ever will, perhaps. If I never live to see happiness again, I will live to know that I saw it in the faces of those whom I thought least likely to even know the meaning of the word. If only we could learn a little more to live with a little less, then perhaps wee too, would be able to experience the amazing feeling of true and total happiness.