Dear Friends and Family,
Hey hey, what's up? today is such a beautiful day. Unfortunately, I spent most of it inside, I was indeed working ... again! Suprise, suprise! I seem to do that alot lately. Four, five days a week. This last thursday and friday, I worked during my lunch hours.. It was crazy.... So I got an extra five hours of work this week, should be good moola pour moi.... I hope anyways. Also, my boss said that, because I got him some extra business from my school, that he would give me a bonus. SOOOO yeah. Things seem to be going well at subway .... Anyways, it's dinner time, I have to go eat roast beef and vegitables (yik) and so, I'll be back. Hasta La Vista...

.... ok so I'm back. But it's like... tomorrow... right now, so I managed to eat dinner, then promptly forget that I had my blog open. oopsie. Dinner was fairly good, even I have to admit that... Then I just chilled out with my friend for awhile, played some cards, kicked her ass, and that was fun.. So yeah. Today is Monday, it's a gorgeous day out there. It makes me excited that we're getting all this gorgeous weather, i love it. Summer is soooo close now, I can't wait ! I feel guilty, 'cause I've stopped counting down the days till Jamaica, and every time people ask me, I just make up a number. But I just went and looked at my calendar, and it says there is sixty-nine days left. I hope I get my dress soon, for grad.. They havent called yet, and they were supposed to call in the beginning of the month. Oh well. I'll get it soon.... That's gonna be exciting.
Anyways, Now School is over, and im back again, hopefully to finish this blog...
but i cant really do that, caus i have so much homework to do it's unbeliavable, so im gonna split, and attempt this again when i have more time
Love as always
Shle
xoxo

"If I needed you, would you come to me, would you come to me, and ease my pain, if you needed me, i would come to you, i would swim the seas for to ease your pain."

Wash it all away

Ok, so whats up? these last two days have been actually beautiful. The sun has been out, and we've had gorgeous hot weather. So that makes me happy.
I was just sitting in youth group today, and they were playing these slides, and this song was playing in the background, actually, it was playing quite loudly... but anyways, it was "I can only imagine" by Mercy Me. .. For those of you who know whats going on with my life recently, you know that it's not the easiest of times that I, and my family, have to go through in the next little while.. Anyways, so i was sitting in the church sanctuary, and this song was playing...

"Surrounded by Your glory,
what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for You Jesus
or in awe of You be still?
Will I stand in Your presence ?
or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing hallelujah?
will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine.. I can only imagine."

It was all about heaven, and what kind of things God has prepared for us there. It's not easy to think about that right now.... and i just broke down. I dont think I can remember a time when I've ever cried so hard.. not in a long time anyways. AND i dont really know why I've told you that, but I need you guys to know whats up.. This is honestly the most unexpected turn of events. And to think that before Christmas, I was worried about breaking up with my boyfriend, and that was my biggest concern. If only that was my biggest concern right now.. All I can do right now, is ask for your prayer, not just for me, infact, not for me at all, but for my family...

So what does God have prepared for us ? As the song says, I can only imagine.
We all have this vision of streets paved with gold, and fluffy white clouds, perhaps fields full of amazing flowers, and the peace only God can bring.

.............

and i'm sorry, but i cant seem to go anywhere else with this right now.
Love and Peace
Shle
xoxo

"When everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take."

So let the sun shine in, face it with a grin

Dearest Friends and Family members,
How are you? I am doing fairly well, thank you. Today was a beautiful day, the sun was out and I rolled up my jeans and wore sandals. It was indeed nice.
Did you ever notice that in the last term of grade 12, teachers pile the work on so thick that you can't even imagine getting out of high school, let alone living to tell the tale? That's how i'm feeling right now. It's a conspiracy, I promise you. All the teachers get together around a table, and plan to have all their assignments and projects and tests in the same week. I'm sure that i've expressed this opinion of mine a few times anyways, and you might be sick of hearing it, but chances are, you agree with me. But aside from that, high school is almost finished, and in like... seveny seven days, Im going to Jamaica, and then off to AUC! Wow, it's gonna be an interesting experience.
My older cousin, Chasta, mentioned that she might like to come with me to Jamaica, which would be super dope, she's amazing. But from what she told me, she would be insanely over-protective, and no boys would even look at me without getting a black eye from her, so I dont know how fun that would be, ha ha. I should've taken her with me the first time! Then my life would be a bit simpler, and I would've gotten a good laugh out of sieng her beat up a bunch of jamaican boys.... ha ha... Anyways, so yeah.
Music.. let's talk about that! First of all, it's like.... ten more days until U2! Can you belive it? Wooooo im psyched. And another thing, I was SOOOOO Close to getting to go to the snoop dogg ft. the game concert, but then .. I Decided that I couldnt afford it anyways, even if I have moms permission, which was a once in a lifetime thing... I had moms permission to go to a rap concert, but I realize that I need to go to college, I cant afford that... SOOOO anyways... Weezer is coming out with a new album, I can't wait to get ahold of that one, and they are also coming to Vancouver, but since I'm not nineteen, I cant go, cause they're playing at the commodore, or however you spell that, and it's not an all ages show. It's alright, tho, cause soon enough, I'll be old enough to be able to do things like that.
And Maroon Five is coming to Vancouver, too, but I only know one of their songs, it's "She will be loved", and it's a good song, but Im not gonna go to a concert when I would only know one of the songs.. Unless of course, the tix were free, which they are not, so blah on that idea, eh?
You know what's annoying? Dave Matthews Band is like.. touring around the states, I wish they would come to Vancouver, I'd pay to see that... They're amazing.. anyways, i've got to go do some homework, sorry for the lack of updates, it's just been crazy here.. Hopefully I'll update more often ..
Love you forever
Love Always
Shle
xoxo

Loving you is like a song I replay
every three minutes and thirty seconds of every day
and every chorus
was written for us
to recite
every beautiful melody
of devotion every night
and every word,
every second and every third
expresses the happiness
more clearly then ever heard

Good afternoon to all of you. How's life? Well Life here is ... liveable. Im surviving, I suppose. I've just finished filling out all the applications and stuff for AUC, the college which I hope to attend in the fall. there is approxamately twenty-two days, three hours and thirteen minutes until I get to go to the U2 concert. Nah, im not counting down! Lol.. anyways, this is gonna be short, I have to go to work, and I will update when I get back, or tomorrow.
Love to you all.
Love forever: Shle
xoxoxo


Lie to me, Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference between myself and my relfection
I just can't help but to wonder
Which of us do you love?

Beofre the dawn

I would really really like to be able to do something witty and funny, sieng how it's technically april fools day......... But I'm not that funny.. SO APRIL FOOLS anyways...
Hope you dont get pranked too much today..

so.. what's new, y'all?
Well, last I heard, Whit was driving around somewhere, and probably bieng driven nuts by her parents, but at the same time having lots of fun.
And amazing news came through today, for those of you who care, Diago has been allowed to come to Canada, and to de-confuzzle you, Diago is Tricias Stepfather from Jamaica. (dont roll your eyes at me.. I can see you do that you know!)
Anyways, so hopefully, We'll be sieng him soon in Canada.
So my life.. Work, and work and work. I now work five days a week, because one of the employees at subway got ... well.. fired. I was amazed to hear that, to be honest, I've never seen anyone so mad in my whole life. (that would be my boss.. Now i'm scared of him) ANyways, so this employee decided that she didn't want to take the garbadge across the parking lot, and so she left it in the recycling bins by safeway, and the owner of .. like... all of parkgate called Ranjit (the boss) and got really mad, and fined him a couple of hundred dollars. Plus, this employee got caught with her boyfriend in the food prep area, and that's a no-no. And the boss thinks she was stealing from the store, as well as giving out free food to her friends, and .. to be honest, the list goes on and on, but it was just one situation that I was not interested in bieng a part of.
so thats that.
This spring break, My aunt and Gramma from Ontario, and my great aunt from Calgary were visiting. It was nice, for most of the time. I drove people around alot, took my Grandma and Great Aunt to the mall a few times. See, I have more patience for that sort of thing than my mom or Aunt Ellie. See, Gramma and Aunt Elaine are the type of people that like to look at every single thing in the store, and then end up buying nothing. And that's ok with me, 'cause I understand it. If I was in a rush or something, that would be different, but I know that sometimes people just like to take their time and chill. That's kind of like me and my mom, when we go shopping, I like to slow down and look at things, even tho I have no money to buy them, and be sort of relaxed when I shop. But mom? No, she knows what she wants, and goes in the store, gets it, and gets the hell out of there. Sometimes, that's ok, but ... it's nice to just chill once in awhile. Anyways, that doesnt matter. THis one night, we were all sittin around in the living room, everyone but my Dad, I think. And.. I started talking with a british accent, just because I could. And to be perfectly honest with you, I have never ever in my whole life seen my grandmother laugh as hard as she did that night. It made me smile, I like making people laugh. Now I'm not sure, it could have been the accent, or the random things that we talked about, but if she wasn't so .. (elderly) ... she would have been rolling on the floor laughing.. instead, she just stayed in her chair. But the point was, it amused her, and that makes me smile.
Grandma and Aunt Elaine were sleeping in my room, and so for most of spring break, I had to sleep on the couch downstairs. For those of you who have been to my house, they might know that the couch downstairs is sooooo uncomfortable.. But I survived, I had a bunch of pillows, and just managed. My back wasnt sore or anything. But now that Grandma and Auntie Ellie and Aunt Elaine are gone, I have my room back, which is nice. But I have to clean it. Cause while they were here, I put the frame back on my bed, and ended up just shoving a bunch of stuff under the bed, so that I wouldnt have to deal with it. THe day they left, tho, I took the frame off that bed, because I hate it. Yes, thats right, I sleep on a matress on the floor. Well, no that's not true, i keep the box-spring there, and the mattress on top of it. ANYWAYS, the point is that I cannot sleep on my bed with the frame under it, because every time I move, the bed rolls across the floor. And I cannot take that. I guess I'm just one of those people who move around alot in their sleep. It's good fun, i have about 8 pillows on my bed, and in the morning, i wake up and I find that I'm surrounded by them. Im hugging one or two, and two more are up against my back, and i've got one under my head, and one on my feet, or around there somewhere. I loooove my pillows. I dont know how I'm going to share my bed when I get married. I guess I'll get used to it.
Speaking of getting married. Ever plan your wedding? Heres a warning, Im going to go teenage on you here. To be perfectly honest, I've thought of sooo many scenarios. The park in spring time, the beach in summer... ahhhhh! The dock at deep cove. My High school cafeteria.. (No, im not kidding you) And my bridesmades. I had a discussion one time with Whit, that my bridesmades were going to wear yellow.. BUT.. I dont know about that, mabye red or light blue.. I have no Idea. I dont even know who they will be. Obviously Whit, Kels, Tricia and Nicole... but I'm sure that before I get married, I'll make more friends. (I hope so anyways) And who's gonna perform the ceremony? Before Mike went off to College, I had possibilities... Floyd? then it was Brian.. Then Dave.. Then Duane, then Sean.. Im thinking if Mike doesnt want to perform the ceremony, or If I dont want him to, I might get Sean to do it.. But.. Like I said.. Who knows? and my dress, oh lord, my dress... I cannot wait for that day, when me, my mom and my grandma, (and mabye a couple of aunties) walk into that store, and I try on wedding dresses and make them all cry... That day will be soooo important to me.... WOWZA! Im getting a bit ahead of myself here. Mabye I should grad first.. But.... In the words of Forrest Gump,
"Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get. "

Ok, Last night, I went to the movie with a friend of mine, and we saw this show, called "Guess Who".. It was starring Ashton Kutcher and Bernie Mac, and it was SOOOOOO HILARIOUS!
I just about died laughing! It was sort of like.. ok, not sort of , it was exactly like Meet the parents, except with a racial twist. Ashton was dating this black girl, and her family was like....
"You're datin a white boy? what is wrong with you girl?" and all this kind of stuff, and it was just soooo funnnnnnny! And I've never seen Eddie laugh so hard in my life.. All in all, It was a great night. I had a cappichino too, which was totally gross. I dont know why people like coffee so much. There's a good question.. Why DO people like coffee? Yep.. that's the end of that topic..

Ok, heres another question, random as it may seem, but meaningful none the less. I was in the washroom the other day, brushing my teeth, and I happened to look at the bottle of listerine that was sitting on the counter. On it was a photograph of a man and a woman, nearly naked, and like... about to make out.. QUESTION: why is our world sex-driven.? I'm sure you've heard the phrase "Sex sells" ... WHY? What is it about sex that makes us curious. Why is a commercial for gum about making out? Why do movies with smutty sex scenes in them attract our attention so easily? To that question, my friends, I have no answer. I cannot say that I am different from others, that I am not affected by all this sex around us. We all are, in some way or another.. I just dont know why our society promotes it so much. I was having a talk with my aunt awhile back, about all that sex education and stuff in schools. Back in her day (which wasnt that long ago,) Sex Education was all about Abstinence. (No sex before marriage)
Nowadays, if you walked into a classroom where students were in a sex - education session, it would be telling them all about the safest ways to have sex without getting pregnant or an STD.
Now, that's not bad, but I cant say that it's good either. Sure, promote safe sex, if people are going to be doing it, they may as well be safe.. But why promote it at all? Face it, my friends. We live in a sex-driven culture. The question is, what can we do about it? Not much, you think. Even I can't think of too much right now... But why ?What is stopping us from shining Chirst's light to the world? because we are only a small voice in a crowd? because we are young?
in 1 Timothy 4:12 , the bible says "Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.”
See? PURITY! Something our society don't seem to know anything about.
This is our chance, right here. We are teenagers, a minority, but still we can live so that Christ lives through us. Let your friends and family see the light of Christ in you, through your actions, through your words.. Here we go, dont let society make you think that you have to be a certian way, dont let the culture in which we live define your charachter. Let Christ do it, I say, and we will all live happily ever after, the end..
In saying that, I think Im going to end here, just because it's 12:30 Am, and Im extremely tired, and this is an extremely long blog... So... I love you all tons, hope you're not falling asleep at the keyboard reading this.... Have a great day.
Love Forever: Shle
Xoxo

P.S. The lyrics of the day are quite random,
no I'm not feeling this way, the song is just stuck in my head...

"I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone"