You know, I think I underestimated Treston. The reason that I thought he might hang up on me, is because last time I tried to break up with him, I started the conversation off with "Im breaking up with you"... not smooth on my part. But this Time I started the conversation with .."I need to talk to you" and we did, and I cried, and he said that I just needed to focus on myself, and work out my life, and that he understood, that I have to do what I have to do. And he said that he would still be there to talk to me if I needed him to be, but he understood what I was doing..
So I'm not perfectly ok yet, I mean, this just happened 15 minutes ago... I cried for ten afterwards.. I feel like i've done the right thing..
Now let's just see what happens next..
Much Love
ashley
Xoxo
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Friday, January 13, 2006
Girls are horrible inventions...
So I've oficially decided that I do not like girls.. Nooo you goof, not like that, but in general.
So I was walking towards the doors on the C-Train with some of my friends, and this girl looks me up and down, and made a very rude comment about my clothes. I stopped, bieng the bold sort of fool that I am, and said really loudly, without looking at her, "Do you have to be so blatantly rude?" and then I kept walking. When she got off the train a few stops later, she gave me the dirtiest look as she passed outside my window, and I, of course, returned it.. Im so bad.. anyways.. She tried to get back on the train, to beat me up, but her boyfriend held her back. It would have been funny to see her try, because she was scrawny, and I was alot madder than she was.. But still, it would have been dangerous, I'm glad she didnt get back on the train. Oh well. So I saw three movies in the last three nights. The first, and best of all, was "Walk the Line" starring Joaquin Phoenix and Reese WitherspoonIt was by far the most amazing movie I've ever seen. I absoloutely loved it, and it helped that Joaquin Phoenix was absoloutely gorgeous. mmm mmm. So I went to go see that with my brother, it was wonderful, and I was singing Johnny Cash songs the rest of the night. The second movie that I went to go see, was called "Brokeback Mountian" and I would not reccomend it.. at all.. I mean, the acting was good, and it was a well produced movie, but I do not like what it stood for, I do not like that it makes it OK to be homosexual, and I do not like that it dragged on forever and ever.. It needed to end alot sooner than it did. Oh well.. So Tonight, hence the C-Train ride, I went to go see Pride and Prejudice. It was a wonderful movie, and my friends and I (The cool ones) spoke in british accents the whole way home. In fact, I am thinking these very words in a british accent. Ha haha. So anyways, it was a wonderful movie, and I dont think that It ruined the original at all, not like I've seen it.. But someone I know said that the whole point was for him to fall in love with a not beautiful girl, and though Kiera Knightly is pretty, she was very plain in this movie.. So they didnt ruin the whole movie at all. At some points, it was difficult to understand what the actors were saying, and of course, I was distracted every time Mr. Darcy came on the screen.. He is very attractive.. Ha hahahahah Has to be one in every movie, right? At least, when I go to see one. So yes, that was basically my last three nights balled into one.
Now I think I'd like to talk about relationships.. Like.. Ideal.. proper relationships..
I think that in order to have a real relationship, the two people involved must be able to talk to one another. Wouldnt you agree? What kind of a relationship is it when the conversation never goes beyond how are you, ok, call me later....
This is so hard for me to talk about. You see, for the past 18 months, I have been in that sort of relationship.. and technically, I am still in it... But I've only just come to realize that I can't do it any longer. and it's killing me, not to think that I was wrong and everyone else right, but to think that I do love Treston.. and It's going to kill me and him to end this, but I cannot do it anymore.
It's all wrong for me. I need someone who is going to be there for me, and know me, and respect me, and encourage me in the areas I need to be encouraged. Now don't get me wrong, I do not want you to think that Treston is a bad person, because he is not, he is a good man. But I need to respect myself, and I am not, by constantly revolving my life around him. I'd like to think that i'll be able to just shrug this whole thing off, and continue on with my life as if this never happened, but I will not.. I am broken by this. I am hurt.. But I also do realize that I have people around me who love me, and who will be there for me when I need them.
My only regret is that my family will not get to meet the man who was a part of my life for almost two years. I know some of my family did not want to meet him, or acknowledge him, but he was a part of my life. Still is, by the looks of it, I havent quite had the chance to talk to him yet. He's always busy, and I am so scared to make this call. You see, I know Treston, and I know that he is going to get angry at me, and hang up the phone, and wait for me to weaken, like I have in the past, and call him back, begging for him to talk to me.. But I cannot do that this time. I cannot weaken myself, I have to let it go. It seems that I have lost quite a few things in and around this general time. But I have to keep in mind, that God has a plan for my life, and perhaps that plan was bieng hindered by the relationships I've lost, and perhaps it is going to be helped by the ones I'm going to gain, and am gaining as I talk.. type.. this out..
Tricia got back to vancovuer yesterday, and suprisingly, hasnt tried to call me. In a way, that hurts me more than what she did. But at the same time, I dont expect much more, because she has no idea that what she has done to me is so wrong. She also has no idea who I am, after all this time. Which is why I cannot continue this relationship. If she wanted to make the effort, then she would have a long time ago.. but she doesnt. anyways, I dont want to talk about that right now.. I just need to get this whole thing over with, and put it behind me. I can't pretend that it will be easy, I want to cry now just thinking about it... ARRRRRGGG I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...
Ok you know what's really funny? My lovely, supportive brother, is soooooo excited that I'm finally making a smart decision, that he like... dances around whenever I talk about it.. Oh goodness, what would I do without him? Not much... I guess.
*Sigh*
So on monday, mike and I are going to watch Hotel Rwanda, and my friend Corey is going to come over for dinner, then, if I am depressed, we'll have a girly night, with ice cream, and funny movies... Should be interesting. I just dont know what to do..
Ok, this has been a deep and yet randomly sparratic update, and so now I'm going to go, have a good night.. Tomorrow's going to be a hard day..
Much love forever
Ashley
xoxo
" Shine, make them wonder what you've got
Make them wish that they were not
On the outside looking bored
Shine, Let it shine before all man
Let them praise Him once again
Let them glorify the Lord."
So I was walking towards the doors on the C-Train with some of my friends, and this girl looks me up and down, and made a very rude comment about my clothes. I stopped, bieng the bold sort of fool that I am, and said really loudly, without looking at her, "Do you have to be so blatantly rude?" and then I kept walking. When she got off the train a few stops later, she gave me the dirtiest look as she passed outside my window, and I, of course, returned it.. Im so bad.. anyways.. She tried to get back on the train, to beat me up, but her boyfriend held her back. It would have been funny to see her try, because she was scrawny, and I was alot madder than she was.. But still, it would have been dangerous, I'm glad she didnt get back on the train. Oh well. So I saw three movies in the last three nights. The first, and best of all, was "Walk the Line" starring Joaquin Phoenix and Reese WitherspoonIt was by far the most amazing movie I've ever seen. I absoloutely loved it, and it helped that Joaquin Phoenix was absoloutely gorgeous. mmm mmm. So I went to go see that with my brother, it was wonderful, and I was singing Johnny Cash songs the rest of the night. The second movie that I went to go see, was called "Brokeback Mountian" and I would not reccomend it.. at all.. I mean, the acting was good, and it was a well produced movie, but I do not like what it stood for, I do not like that it makes it OK to be homosexual, and I do not like that it dragged on forever and ever.. It needed to end alot sooner than it did. Oh well.. So Tonight, hence the C-Train ride, I went to go see Pride and Prejudice. It was a wonderful movie, and my friends and I (The cool ones) spoke in british accents the whole way home. In fact, I am thinking these very words in a british accent. Ha haha. So anyways, it was a wonderful movie, and I dont think that It ruined the original at all, not like I've seen it.. But someone I know said that the whole point was for him to fall in love with a not beautiful girl, and though Kiera Knightly is pretty, she was very plain in this movie.. So they didnt ruin the whole movie at all. At some points, it was difficult to understand what the actors were saying, and of course, I was distracted every time Mr. Darcy came on the screen.. He is very attractive.. Ha hahahahah Has to be one in every movie, right? At least, when I go to see one. So yes, that was basically my last three nights balled into one.
Now I think I'd like to talk about relationships.. Like.. Ideal.. proper relationships..
I think that in order to have a real relationship, the two people involved must be able to talk to one another. Wouldnt you agree? What kind of a relationship is it when the conversation never goes beyond how are you, ok, call me later....
This is so hard for me to talk about. You see, for the past 18 months, I have been in that sort of relationship.. and technically, I am still in it... But I've only just come to realize that I can't do it any longer. and it's killing me, not to think that I was wrong and everyone else right, but to think that I do love Treston.. and It's going to kill me and him to end this, but I cannot do it anymore.
It's all wrong for me. I need someone who is going to be there for me, and know me, and respect me, and encourage me in the areas I need to be encouraged. Now don't get me wrong, I do not want you to think that Treston is a bad person, because he is not, he is a good man. But I need to respect myself, and I am not, by constantly revolving my life around him. I'd like to think that i'll be able to just shrug this whole thing off, and continue on with my life as if this never happened, but I will not.. I am broken by this. I am hurt.. But I also do realize that I have people around me who love me, and who will be there for me when I need them.
My only regret is that my family will not get to meet the man who was a part of my life for almost two years. I know some of my family did not want to meet him, or acknowledge him, but he was a part of my life. Still is, by the looks of it, I havent quite had the chance to talk to him yet. He's always busy, and I am so scared to make this call. You see, I know Treston, and I know that he is going to get angry at me, and hang up the phone, and wait for me to weaken, like I have in the past, and call him back, begging for him to talk to me.. But I cannot do that this time. I cannot weaken myself, I have to let it go. It seems that I have lost quite a few things in and around this general time. But I have to keep in mind, that God has a plan for my life, and perhaps that plan was bieng hindered by the relationships I've lost, and perhaps it is going to be helped by the ones I'm going to gain, and am gaining as I talk.. type.. this out..
Tricia got back to vancovuer yesterday, and suprisingly, hasnt tried to call me. In a way, that hurts me more than what she did. But at the same time, I dont expect much more, because she has no idea that what she has done to me is so wrong. She also has no idea who I am, after all this time. Which is why I cannot continue this relationship. If she wanted to make the effort, then she would have a long time ago.. but she doesnt. anyways, I dont want to talk about that right now.. I just need to get this whole thing over with, and put it behind me. I can't pretend that it will be easy, I want to cry now just thinking about it... ARRRRRGGG I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...
Ok you know what's really funny? My lovely, supportive brother, is soooooo excited that I'm finally making a smart decision, that he like... dances around whenever I talk about it.. Oh goodness, what would I do without him? Not much... I guess.
*Sigh*
So on monday, mike and I are going to watch Hotel Rwanda, and my friend Corey is going to come over for dinner, then, if I am depressed, we'll have a girly night, with ice cream, and funny movies... Should be interesting. I just dont know what to do..
Ok, this has been a deep and yet randomly sparratic update, and so now I'm going to go, have a good night.. Tomorrow's going to be a hard day..
Much love forever
Ashley
xoxo
" Shine, make them wonder what you've got
Make them wish that they were not
On the outside looking bored
Shine, Let it shine before all man
Let them praise Him once again
Let them glorify the Lord."
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
To my friend..
The Lies, they consume you
And you can't see a thing
You have haven't the slightest Idea
the pain that you bring
The things that you've done
and the lies that you've spread
You can't take them back, now
the fire's been fed
So now, On with my future
behind me's the past
I had no idea
I could loose you so fast
So goodbye forever
It's over, my friend
This time, the rift
Is too big to mend.
Ashley Schalin
Jan10/06
And you can't see a thing
You have haven't the slightest Idea
the pain that you bring
The things that you've done
and the lies that you've spread
You can't take them back, now
the fire's been fed
So now, On with my future
behind me's the past
I had no idea
I could loose you so fast
So goodbye forever
It's over, my friend
This time, the rift
Is too big to mend.
Ashley Schalin
Jan10/06
Friday, January 06, 2006
A poem
Drowning
I look at you, and my anger rages like an ocean
A vast sea of wasted feelings
And precious time
I’m hurt by the things you say and do to me
And the things you don’t think I’ll hear
Or you don’t think that I’ll find out
But they always find their way back to me
And the gaps and oceans between us
Grow wider, vaster and deeper
Words get between us until
Neither of us know what to say anymore
And nothing is left to do but
turn around and walk the other way….
Telling lies to let the other one know
Who’s not been hurt the most
When really all it does is tear me up inside.
My empty heart is screaming
Fighting against the currents of love and hate
Pulling away from each other
Like the moon and the ocean
As we grow farther apart.
I want to talk To try and work things out
Repair the rift that keeps on growing
But words get in the way
We get angrier and more frustrated
But how do I explain how I feel?
How much I want to go back to
When we used to whisper between classes
Go to the movies
Share clothes, eat ice cream and giggle.
Back to the time when we’d spend the night
Making faces, laughing so hard that we’d cry.
Doing all the things that used to be important
But are now forbidden.
Because one of us might let out guard down
And say or do something that will hurt the other.
When truthfully, dancing around to crazy loud music
Tripping up the stairs, and strange pictures
Are things only best friends can understand.
Somehow as I sit here and write this
Not because I want to, But Because I have to, for you and for myself,
The rift.. It’s not healing this time.. And I’m no longer smiling
I know you’ll read this I’d like to think you’ll understand it and me,
But I don’t think you will
Because it turns out that you don’t seem to know me at all..
January 6 2006
I look at you, and my anger rages like an ocean
A vast sea of wasted feelings
And precious time
I’m hurt by the things you say and do to me
And the things you don’t think I’ll hear
Or you don’t think that I’ll find out
But they always find their way back to me
And the gaps and oceans between us
Grow wider, vaster and deeper
Words get between us until
Neither of us know what to say anymore
And nothing is left to do but
turn around and walk the other way….
Telling lies to let the other one know
Who’s not been hurt the most
When really all it does is tear me up inside.
My empty heart is screaming
Fighting against the currents of love and hate
Pulling away from each other
Like the moon and the ocean
As we grow farther apart.
I want to talk To try and work things out
Repair the rift that keeps on growing
But words get in the way
We get angrier and more frustrated
But how do I explain how I feel?
How much I want to go back to
When we used to whisper between classes
Go to the movies
Share clothes, eat ice cream and giggle.
Back to the time when we’d spend the night
Making faces, laughing so hard that we’d cry.
Doing all the things that used to be important
But are now forbidden.
Because one of us might let out guard down
And say or do something that will hurt the other.
When truthfully, dancing around to crazy loud music
Tripping up the stairs, and strange pictures
Are things only best friends can understand.
Somehow as I sit here and write this
Not because I want to, But Because I have to, for you and for myself,
The rift.. It’s not healing this time.. And I’m no longer smiling
I know you’ll read this I’d like to think you’ll understand it and me,
But I don’t think you will
Because it turns out that you don’t seem to know me at all..
January 6 2006
Thursday, January 05, 2006
So yesterday, after I posted my blog, I went through every single blog that I've ever written, and wrote a list of all the songs I've used.. I discovered that I only repeated one song, and that was tears in heaven, by Eric clapton. I repeated it, not on purpose, but both the blogs were regarding the same issue, and I guess that particular issue made me think of that song.. so Oh well. Today, although it started out poorly (A dentist appointment), turned out for the better. My mom and I went to wal-mart, the best store on earth, to buy some necessities, and then we came back home, and went right back out, with my dad. we headed up to NSAC to say hello to some friends of ours, who are expecting a baby come june. I had a good talk with Duane and Dave, it was nice, and good to get some guidance on the messed up situation I'm in. (With Tricia)
So anyways, after that, we all came home, Dad and I watched the canada vs. russia game, which was sort of entertaining, but at the same time, not at all, so I also watched bits and pieces of days of our lives, which gets more confusing by the minute.
Sorry my blog is so random.. but.. i dunno.. that's just the way I am.. So what do you suppose is the purpose in these sorts of things? My friend said that Blogging is such an interesting trend, we throw our thoughts, hearts, activities, and struggles out here for all to see.....
Maybe we're just searching for sympathy, or maybe it's something deeper. Are we trying to make up for the loss of intimacy this world has told us we don't need? Are we desperately trying to have those conversations that we instead fill with meaningless small talk? it seems to me that the less time we spend with family and friends talking about the things that really matter the more we spend pouring our anonymous hearts out to anyone who'll listen through the internet.
Just some random thoughts. Like i said.. Random.. Life is random...
Im tired, ttfn!
Much Love
Ashley
xoxo
"Who's to say where the wind will take you,
who's to say what it is will break you?
I dont know, which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
I dont want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye."
So anyways, after that, we all came home, Dad and I watched the canada vs. russia game, which was sort of entertaining, but at the same time, not at all, so I also watched bits and pieces of days of our lives, which gets more confusing by the minute.
Sorry my blog is so random.. but.. i dunno.. that's just the way I am.. So what do you suppose is the purpose in these sorts of things? My friend said that Blogging is such an interesting trend, we throw our thoughts, hearts, activities, and struggles out here for all to see.....
Maybe we're just searching for sympathy, or maybe it's something deeper. Are we trying to make up for the loss of intimacy this world has told us we don't need? Are we desperately trying to have those conversations that we instead fill with meaningless small talk? it seems to me that the less time we spend with family and friends talking about the things that really matter the more we spend pouring our anonymous hearts out to anyone who'll listen through the internet.
Just some random thoughts. Like i said.. Random.. Life is random...
Im tired, ttfn!
Much Love
Ashley
xoxo
"Who's to say where the wind will take you,
who's to say what it is will break you?
I dont know, which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
I dont want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye."
Problem Child
Do you know what's ridiculous? I have been at home for a long time now, and not been doing "anything", yet I've found no time or energy to update this blog. It's kind of unfortunate, but I'm not just going to let it go, and be nothing. I love this blog, I love having something to do that is actually important, (well, to me, it is ..) But sometimes, I jsut dont have the time to do it. So now that I do, here I am.. As I said before, some crap happened earlier in my vacation time, and it's still sort of unresolved, as the person with whom conflict arose is in Jamaica, trying (unsucessfuly) to "ruin my life" .. well a big HA HA in your face!
Sorry, just had to get that out.. Anyways.. Tonight I went over to my friend's house, and It was fun stuff, he gave me a preview of his CD that's coming out next month, I'm uber excited.
I was thinking on the way home, how different it would be for both of us if something had come of that enormous crush I had on him.. Sometimes I wish that it would have worked out, but in my mind, knowing him and knowing me, I know that it never would have lasted long at all. And I am very grateful for his friendship, I dont know what I'd do without him.. So that's me, bieng random.. Tomorrow evening, i'm going to go out with my other friend, it's going to be fun, I haven't seen him for a long time, and then later in the night, I'll be going out with my other friend Kels, who will get her drivers liscence tomorrow, which is good, as I can't drive my parents car yet, cause they didnt put insurance on it.. Oh well, not much I can do about that. And on friday, I am hoping to spend some quality gangsta time with my best girl, whit, cause I miss her tons, even tho we're like two blocks away from each other.. We've just both been super busy, I guess. Speaking of busy, I moved my bedroom down to the basement, I love it, it's wicked - I have so much room, now all I have to do is get my dad to clean up all his crap that he kept down there, when it was a junk room/tv room. Now it's not, and so he has to get rid of it somehow.. I think he'll manage, at least it should be gone by the time I come back in april.
Ok so ... speaking of coming back in april.. I have a few things that should make this next semester a little bit easier to bear than the first one was.. Each and every month has something, or more than one thing, to look forward to. This month, January, started off well, cause I'm still In BC! It's wicked. Also coming up this month is a fitting for my bridesmaid dress, for a wedding that I am really excited about.. And then also, I am hoping to be getting my hair braided for something that's wicked next month, and I am talking, of course, about Costa Rica.. Yes, that's right, on the eighteenth, I'm going to Costa Rica for ten glorious days. I am uber excited about it. that's qutie enough excitement for one month, but it's also my dad's birthday, and my baby's birthday, also on valentines day.. So in March, I turn nineteen, which would be uber exciting, if I were at home, but I'm not, but it's still going to be amazing fun.. Then Also in march is YC, which is going to be wicked! I can't wait to get to that, it's going to be so amazingly fun, I can't wait. April brings much stress, as well as hapiness, cause I get to go home.. But before I can do that, I have to write exams and pack.. Oh well, I'll survive, I suppose.. DOntcha think?
So anyways.. It's almost time for bed, so I better be off for now!
Much Love Forever
Ashley
xoxo
p.S Do you think I should cut my hair like that?
"I could be in Paradise, I could be in Hell,
I'm so numb that I can't even tell.
My heart is screaming out, and I can't yell..
But you're too far away to hear me cry.. "
Sorry, just had to get that out.. Anyways.. Tonight I went over to my friend's house, and It was fun stuff, he gave me a preview of his CD that's coming out next month, I'm uber excited.
I was thinking on the way home, how different it would be for both of us if something had come of that enormous crush I had on him.. Sometimes I wish that it would have worked out, but in my mind, knowing him and knowing me, I know that it never would have lasted long at all. And I am very grateful for his friendship, I dont know what I'd do without him.. So that's me, bieng random.. Tomorrow evening, i'm going to go out with my other friend, it's going to be fun, I haven't seen him for a long time, and then later in the night, I'll be going out with my other friend Kels, who will get her drivers liscence tomorrow, which is good, as I can't drive my parents car yet, cause they didnt put insurance on it.. Oh well, not much I can do about that. And on friday, I am hoping to spend some quality gangsta time with my best girl, whit, cause I miss her tons, even tho we're like two blocks away from each other.. We've just both been super busy, I guess. Speaking of busy, I moved my bedroom down to the basement, I love it, it's wicked - I have so much room, now all I have to do is get my dad to clean up all his crap that he kept down there, when it was a junk room/tv room. Now it's not, and so he has to get rid of it somehow.. I think he'll manage, at least it should be gone by the time I come back in april.
Ok so ... speaking of coming back in april.. I have a few things that should make this next semester a little bit easier to bear than the first one was.. Each and every month has something, or more than one thing, to look forward to. This month, January, started off well, cause I'm still In BC! It's wicked. Also coming up this month is a fitting for my bridesmaid dress, for a wedding that I am really excited about.. And then also, I am hoping to be getting my hair braided for something that's wicked next month, and I am talking, of course, about Costa Rica.. Yes, that's right, on the eighteenth, I'm going to Costa Rica for ten glorious days. I am uber excited about it. that's qutie enough excitement for one month, but it's also my dad's birthday, and my baby's birthday, also on valentines day.. So in March, I turn nineteen, which would be uber exciting, if I were at home, but I'm not, but it's still going to be amazing fun.. Then Also in march is YC, which is going to be wicked! I can't wait to get to that, it's going to be so amazingly fun, I can't wait. April brings much stress, as well as hapiness, cause I get to go home.. But before I can do that, I have to write exams and pack.. Oh well, I'll survive, I suppose.. DOntcha think?
So anyways.. It's almost time for bed, so I better be off for now!
Much Love Forever
Ashley
xoxo
p.S Do you think I should cut my hair like that?"I could be in Paradise, I could be in Hell,
I'm so numb that I can't even tell.
My heart is screaming out, and I can't yell..
But you're too far away to hear me cry.. "
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Merry Christmas, happy 2006
I feel almost like a bad person, and that's almost. I haven't updated in a long period of time, which is stupid, cause the only excuse I have is mike, who lives on this computer.. I suppose that's a valid excuse, but oh well. Enough with the excuses. My christmas break has been a mixture of things. One of them is stress. Getting here and living out of a suitcase in a room that is not my own (once again, because of my lovely brother) is not an easy task, and also, I've taken this break to move my bedroom to the basement, because of the foster babies overtaking my room upstairs. So all in all, stress... it's here! But my christmas time has also been wonderful, becasue I love seeing my family, and spending time with them, and plus, it was christmas, and name me one thing about christmas that isn't wonderful! I got some wicked cool presents from people, and it's just great. My holiday time has also been messed up beyond all belief, because of a confrontation with some neighbors of ours.. well, technically, a confrontation between me and my best friends mother. It's not been pretty, and it's really the stupidest thing you'll ever hear. But I'm not going to write on it here, we can chat about that anytime.
So yeah, New years eve was quiet for us, because it was my bro's 22nd birthday.. We went to go and see the Narnia movie, which we all enjoyed immensely, then we got home and played Taboo, which is a fun game that mike got mom for christmas. Then, if you can believe it, everyone but me went to bed before midnight! I stayed up, and called Treston at twelve, (3am JA time) and we talked for a bit, he wished me and everyone a happy new year, it was very nice. So I got some wicked new CD's and some cool new DVD's..
See this man? He played a big part in my christmas this year, I got Two DVD's about him, one CD, and Two calendars! I can't wait, it's going to be a fun time when I get back to Calgary.. And I've only just figured out how to add pictures to my blog, tho I think I'm doing it differently, and with more work, than my brother.. Oh well, not much I can do about that.. Not now, anyways.. Other CD's, I got Damian Marley, Peter Tosh, Lauryn Hill, 50 Cent, Shaggy, and ... umm.. one more, that I can't remember right now, but oh well. For DVD's, I got tons! Hotel Rwanda, The Longest Yard, Those 2 Marley DVD's, Secret Window, Moulin Rouge, and Barber Shop 2.. I'm kind of excited.. Even though I dont have a way to watch them in Calgary, i will when I get home.. To be honest, I have no friggen Idea what moulin rouge is about, but I suppose I will have to see, right?
Anyways.. I'm gonna have to end this for now, because I am going to get back to work on my new room.. It's been good, I will update again in the next couple of days.
Much Love
Ashley
Xoxo
So yeah, New years eve was quiet for us, because it was my bro's 22nd birthday.. We went to go and see the Narnia movie, which we all enjoyed immensely, then we got home and played Taboo, which is a fun game that mike got mom for christmas. Then, if you can believe it, everyone but me went to bed before midnight! I stayed up, and called Treston at twelve, (3am JA time) and we talked for a bit, he wished me and everyone a happy new year, it was very nice. So I got some wicked new CD's and some cool new DVD's..
See this man? He played a big part in my christmas this year, I got Two DVD's about him, one CD, and Two calendars! I can't wait, it's going to be a fun time when I get back to Calgary.. And I've only just figured out how to add pictures to my blog, tho I think I'm doing it differently, and with more work, than my brother.. Oh well, not much I can do about that.. Not now, anyways.. Other CD's, I got Damian Marley, Peter Tosh, Lauryn Hill, 50 Cent, Shaggy, and ... umm.. one more, that I can't remember right now, but oh well. For DVD's, I got tons! Hotel Rwanda, The Longest Yard, Those 2 Marley DVD's, Secret Window, Moulin Rouge, and Barber Shop 2.. I'm kind of excited.. Even though I dont have a way to watch them in Calgary, i will when I get home.. To be honest, I have no friggen Idea what moulin rouge is about, but I suppose I will have to see, right?Anyways.. I'm gonna have to end this for now, because I am going to get back to work on my new room.. It's been good, I will update again in the next couple of days.
Much Love
Ashley
Xoxo
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Interesting
Well folks, it's been a very busy time in and around the end of the semester, and the beginning of the holidays. I've written four out of my five finals, most of them were challenging, but I don't feel too bad about them. Saturday was the funnest day of my exam week, cause my and my roomies had our own christmas celebration. Saturday evening, we spent walking around the calgary zoo, looking at all the lights, it's like park&Tilford gardens, only bigger. It was cute. Umm after that, we went to subway, then watched some xmas movies, then we baked cookies at one in the morning, then we slept out in the living room underneath the christmas tree. The next morning, we woke up and opened our stockings that each of us filled for one another. It was good fun. Then, if you can believe it, we took down all our christmas decorations, and cleaned/redecorated our whole apartment. it's grand, we're enjoying it immensley. Dont think I spelled that right. oh well.
I'm not going to make this long, just letting you know that i'm alive, and that I'll be home in 20 hours. Woot!
So i'll update once again from home.
I hope, if I dont see you, that you have a wonderful christmas, and lots of love!
Love Forever
Ashley
xoxo
"She says she's born to be wild, and she can't be tamed,
So she keeps on moving, moving right along
Even though deep down inside she knows something is wrong."
I'm not going to make this long, just letting you know that i'm alive, and that I'll be home in 20 hours. Woot!
So i'll update once again from home.
I hope, if I dont see you, that you have a wonderful christmas, and lots of love!
Love Forever
Ashley
xoxo
"She says she's born to be wild, and she can't be tamed,
So she keeps on moving, moving right along
Even though deep down inside she knows something is wrong."
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Falling Down
I had a good weekend.
It started with me bussing up north to Edmonton, and my aunt picked me up at the bus depot, then we went to the mall, it was grand. We were going to go and watch a movie, but we were both too tired. So we went to the house, and then saw my uncle. He went to bed and then my aunt and I stayed up wrapping presents. It was a good time. In the morning, I was awoken by my likke cousin, it was kind of cute, but annoying at the same time. So I got up, it was my uncles Bday, and in the morning, he and I went to the store, to buy some groceries in the jeep. It was amusing, we went to park, and my uncle decided it would be funny to drive over the curb, and scare the crap out of me. So he did. And it was grand. Then we went for lunch, and then I took the kidlets ice skating, it was so great, cause I was there, tying Bobbys skates up, and it just reminded me of all the times Glen took Aleta and I skating, and he'd have to tie up my skates. (Aleta's Dad) It was a random moment of reminiscing.
So we skated, and I've never had more fun, Alexis was very independant, she skates like a pro, and I was so proud of her. Then Bobby, it was the cutest thing, he'd hold onto a bar, and then try to skate, and he'd look like he was running, but he wouldn't move an inch, and Then he'd give up and sit down.. It was amazing fun. I'd push him across the ice, and he'd giggle like mad, and then he'd want to sakte without the bar, and he would take these little baby steps, and fall over, then his big sister would come to help him up, and they'd both fall back over, laughing their heads off. I got some good videos of it.. After that, I drove the kids to wal-mart and bought them each a belt.. just cause.. And we went back home and had a huge dinner thing for uncle david's bday. It was nice. Then, Me, Uncle David and Auntie Jana went to go see the Narnia movie, it was fun.
Umm Sunday morning.. oh sunday morning! It was glorious, we went to Alexis's ringette game, and it was great to see these six year old kids with more talent for ringette than i'll ever have. I was so proud of my likkle girl.. Her jersey Number was "Samson 19"
It was a grand day.. Then we all went to the mall, and I spent most of the time with the kids in the amusement park, while David and Jana did their xmas shopping, and I didnt mind, It was great, cause they're just such good kids..
So that was that for that. Sunday night, I went to see my aunt play soccer, and I dont know how she managed it, when she constantly complains about pain in her back, but she did, and she was good. It was fun..
Monday morning, I woke up when Alexis decided she wanted to cuddle with me, and let me tell you, she has some of the worlds worst morning breath. It was amusing.. She came down at six in the morning, i tried to get her to go back to sleep, but that didnt happen, no sah!
So that day, Uncle David and I went, with Bobby, to return some bottles and cans, to get his hair cut! It was so cute, he sits up straight in the chair, like nobodys business, and just smiles the whole time, until he gets hair in his mouth, and then he pouts, but he still loves getting his hair cut. Anyways.. then I left that afternoon, it was sure nice to see them..
So here I am now, today was my last Missions class, my last Cultural Perspectives class, and my last Pentateuch class! It was amazing grand. I got 90% on both my papers, and 95% on my reading and reflection (all 10 pages of it, goodness me)
I also got a great mark on my Christian Spirituality paper, now all i have to worry about is CP..
Two more classes for the semester, and only four exams to worry about.
So I was listening to POD today, for some reason, and I was paying attention to the Lyrics.. Now, I've always thought that POD was a christian Band, and some aspects of the band, (their name, for instance) still suggest that. But I got really confused. POD mentions the name "JAH" in at least half of their songs. Now I've tried many times, with my history, to pass off the word Jah as another name for my God, but I've never gotten away with it... In the CD cover thingy, a couple of the singers praise Jah.. there's a song called "without Jah, nothin' " and so Im just a bit confused. are they christians who just happen to call God Jah? Or are they like.. rastas who believe in Jesus.. I mean, two of the boys have dreds.. I dont know.. Is there such a thing as a christian rasta? I emailed Duane, my old youth pastor, because he loved POD, and he's.. well.. my youth pastor.. So I'm hoping he'll have some insight, and if you do, feel free to comment, cause it'll probably help me..
Umm for now, I'm going to go cause It's nearly midnight, and i gots class in the morning.
Much Love
Forever
Ashley
xoxo
"Every day is a new day
I'm thankful for every breath I take
I won't take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes.
It's beyond my control,
Sometimes It's best to let go,
Whatever happens in this life time
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind. "
It started with me bussing up north to Edmonton, and my aunt picked me up at the bus depot, then we went to the mall, it was grand. We were going to go and watch a movie, but we were both too tired. So we went to the house, and then saw my uncle. He went to bed and then my aunt and I stayed up wrapping presents. It was a good time. In the morning, I was awoken by my likke cousin, it was kind of cute, but annoying at the same time. So I got up, it was my uncles Bday, and in the morning, he and I went to the store, to buy some groceries in the jeep. It was amusing, we went to park, and my uncle decided it would be funny to drive over the curb, and scare the crap out of me. So he did. And it was grand. Then we went for lunch, and then I took the kidlets ice skating, it was so great, cause I was there, tying Bobbys skates up, and it just reminded me of all the times Glen took Aleta and I skating, and he'd have to tie up my skates. (Aleta's Dad) It was a random moment of reminiscing.
So we skated, and I've never had more fun, Alexis was very independant, she skates like a pro, and I was so proud of her. Then Bobby, it was the cutest thing, he'd hold onto a bar, and then try to skate, and he'd look like he was running, but he wouldn't move an inch, and Then he'd give up and sit down.. It was amazing fun. I'd push him across the ice, and he'd giggle like mad, and then he'd want to sakte without the bar, and he would take these little baby steps, and fall over, then his big sister would come to help him up, and they'd both fall back over, laughing their heads off. I got some good videos of it.. After that, I drove the kids to wal-mart and bought them each a belt.. just cause.. And we went back home and had a huge dinner thing for uncle david's bday. It was nice. Then, Me, Uncle David and Auntie Jana went to go see the Narnia movie, it was fun.
Umm Sunday morning.. oh sunday morning! It was glorious, we went to Alexis's ringette game, and it was great to see these six year old kids with more talent for ringette than i'll ever have. I was so proud of my likkle girl.. Her jersey Number was "Samson 19"
It was a grand day.. Then we all went to the mall, and I spent most of the time with the kids in the amusement park, while David and Jana did their xmas shopping, and I didnt mind, It was great, cause they're just such good kids..
So that was that for that. Sunday night, I went to see my aunt play soccer, and I dont know how she managed it, when she constantly complains about pain in her back, but she did, and she was good. It was fun..
Monday morning, I woke up when Alexis decided she wanted to cuddle with me, and let me tell you, she has some of the worlds worst morning breath. It was amusing.. She came down at six in the morning, i tried to get her to go back to sleep, but that didnt happen, no sah!
So that day, Uncle David and I went, with Bobby, to return some bottles and cans, to get his hair cut! It was so cute, he sits up straight in the chair, like nobodys business, and just smiles the whole time, until he gets hair in his mouth, and then he pouts, but he still loves getting his hair cut. Anyways.. then I left that afternoon, it was sure nice to see them..
So here I am now, today was my last Missions class, my last Cultural Perspectives class, and my last Pentateuch class! It was amazing grand. I got 90% on both my papers, and 95% on my reading and reflection (all 10 pages of it, goodness me)
I also got a great mark on my Christian Spirituality paper, now all i have to worry about is CP..
Two more classes for the semester, and only four exams to worry about.
So I was listening to POD today, for some reason, and I was paying attention to the Lyrics.. Now, I've always thought that POD was a christian Band, and some aspects of the band, (their name, for instance) still suggest that. But I got really confused. POD mentions the name "JAH" in at least half of their songs. Now I've tried many times, with my history, to pass off the word Jah as another name for my God, but I've never gotten away with it... In the CD cover thingy, a couple of the singers praise Jah.. there's a song called "without Jah, nothin' " and so Im just a bit confused. are they christians who just happen to call God Jah? Or are they like.. rastas who believe in Jesus.. I mean, two of the boys have dreds.. I dont know.. Is there such a thing as a christian rasta? I emailed Duane, my old youth pastor, because he loved POD, and he's.. well.. my youth pastor.. So I'm hoping he'll have some insight, and if you do, feel free to comment, cause it'll probably help me..
Umm for now, I'm going to go cause It's nearly midnight, and i gots class in the morning.
Much Love
Forever
Ashley
xoxo
"Every day is a new day
I'm thankful for every breath I take
I won't take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes.
It's beyond my control,
Sometimes It's best to let go,
Whatever happens in this life time
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind. "
Thursday, December 08, 2005
It’s been a long day for me.
I woke up this morning, and began to get ready for the day, the one I was planning to spend at the school, finishing up all my papers that are due tomorrow. I made myself a couple of sandwiches, and was on my way out the door, when the phone rang.
My aunt from Edmonton said that my mom was going to head to Edmonton for the weekend, because my uncle is having a hard time (due to the death of my uncle two months ago) It’s his birthday on Saturday, and I guess it’s just a hard time for all. So she proceeded to ask me if Mike and I could head up to Edmonton for the weekend, for us to be together during this hard time.
For me, it would have been no problem. But there is just so much going on that it sometimes seems impossible to get away. This is the last week of the fall semester of College, and so many things are due, exams are coming up, and stress is building. Plans fell through, things are crazy, and mom isn’t going to go to Edmonton anymore. So Mike and I were still going to go, but then he decided that he had too much going on this weekend for him to be able to go. But I’m still going to go. I mean, I had to work, but I’ve switched shifts with one of the girls there.
During all this confusion and stress, I’ve made some observations about family, ours in particular. I don’t know, it’s sort of random, but it’s also important, some of the things I’ve noticed.
To make it plain and simple.. no matter how far away our family is from each other, we are so tight. Unless it’s absolutely impossible, we are willing to drop everything, and come together to support one another. I mean, even though it was so financially impossible for all of us, we all headed out to Nova Scotia together to share in our grief in October. It was not necessary for all of us kids to go, but.. we did.. Because it was important that the family be together.
I don’t know, this has been one of the hardest years ever. What with my dad getting sick, and so much more. But we are still a family, still standing together. My uncle’s birthday in November, which I am thankful that I was home for, was pretty hard to deal with. I mean, does that make sense? No one wants to celebrate their birth so soon after the death of a loved one. And it’s the same for My uncle in Edmonton. He needs us right now.
The family feels like we shouldn’t be celebrating, because Uncle Derrick isn’t here anymore to celebrate with us. Even though it’s hard, We need to move on. I mean, It’s not easy for me to say that, I don’t want you to think that I’ve just shrugged off everything that’s happened. I still hurt every day, and even typing this out is hard to deal with. I still miss him every day, but I know that Uncle Derrick, if he knew he was going to die, he would have said to us, not to be sad, not to stop celebrating things that are meant to be celebrated. Uncle Derrick was a happy man. He loved celebrating. He would not want us to just stop everything, to stop being happy. He would not want that. I know that the family has to go through the grieving process. I know that we need to cry once in awhile, I know that it’s ok to miss him. But I also know that it’s ok to go on living life as well.
This is going to be a very difficult Christmas this year. We, as in my mom, dad, brother and I, are going to be spending our first Christmas in Ladner in a long time. When I first found out, my reaction was that my Christmas is going to suck, because everyone’s going to be crying and depressed. And that was really, really selfish of me. I am ashamed to say that I even thought that, let alone said it to my mom. This is going to be the time that we need to be together the most, because we are all still hurting. We need to be together, to be there to cry, to laugh, to do whatever it is we need to do. But we have to do it together. And we will, too. This is what I’ve learned about our family in the past while. Sure, we fight, we have our times, but in the end.. in the end we are family.. Nothing can take that away from me, not pain of death, not anything. We’ll hurt together this Christmas, and perhaps long after that. We’ve hurt together in the past. We’ll have to do it again.
But the point is that we’ll do it together…
That’s all I have to say for now about that.
I love you all very much, and I hope that everything goes well for you in the next little while. Thanks for listening to me.
Love Forever:
Ashley
xoxo
”Would you know my name?
If I saw you in Heaven?
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven?
We must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know, I don’t belong
Here in Heaven.”
(for some reason, this blog site wont let me choose the date and time anymore. So it was written on December 8th 2005 at 1:30 in the morning)
I woke up this morning, and began to get ready for the day, the one I was planning to spend at the school, finishing up all my papers that are due tomorrow. I made myself a couple of sandwiches, and was on my way out the door, when the phone rang.
My aunt from Edmonton said that my mom was going to head to Edmonton for the weekend, because my uncle is having a hard time (due to the death of my uncle two months ago) It’s his birthday on Saturday, and I guess it’s just a hard time for all. So she proceeded to ask me if Mike and I could head up to Edmonton for the weekend, for us to be together during this hard time.
For me, it would have been no problem. But there is just so much going on that it sometimes seems impossible to get away. This is the last week of the fall semester of College, and so many things are due, exams are coming up, and stress is building. Plans fell through, things are crazy, and mom isn’t going to go to Edmonton anymore. So Mike and I were still going to go, but then he decided that he had too much going on this weekend for him to be able to go. But I’m still going to go. I mean, I had to work, but I’ve switched shifts with one of the girls there.
During all this confusion and stress, I’ve made some observations about family, ours in particular. I don’t know, it’s sort of random, but it’s also important, some of the things I’ve noticed.
To make it plain and simple.. no matter how far away our family is from each other, we are so tight. Unless it’s absolutely impossible, we are willing to drop everything, and come together to support one another. I mean, even though it was so financially impossible for all of us, we all headed out to Nova Scotia together to share in our grief in October. It was not necessary for all of us kids to go, but.. we did.. Because it was important that the family be together.
I don’t know, this has been one of the hardest years ever. What with my dad getting sick, and so much more. But we are still a family, still standing together. My uncle’s birthday in November, which I am thankful that I was home for, was pretty hard to deal with. I mean, does that make sense? No one wants to celebrate their birth so soon after the death of a loved one. And it’s the same for My uncle in Edmonton. He needs us right now.
The family feels like we shouldn’t be celebrating, because Uncle Derrick isn’t here anymore to celebrate with us. Even though it’s hard, We need to move on. I mean, It’s not easy for me to say that, I don’t want you to think that I’ve just shrugged off everything that’s happened. I still hurt every day, and even typing this out is hard to deal with. I still miss him every day, but I know that Uncle Derrick, if he knew he was going to die, he would have said to us, not to be sad, not to stop celebrating things that are meant to be celebrated. Uncle Derrick was a happy man. He loved celebrating. He would not want us to just stop everything, to stop being happy. He would not want that. I know that the family has to go through the grieving process. I know that we need to cry once in awhile, I know that it’s ok to miss him. But I also know that it’s ok to go on living life as well.
This is going to be a very difficult Christmas this year. We, as in my mom, dad, brother and I, are going to be spending our first Christmas in Ladner in a long time. When I first found out, my reaction was that my Christmas is going to suck, because everyone’s going to be crying and depressed. And that was really, really selfish of me. I am ashamed to say that I even thought that, let alone said it to my mom. This is going to be the time that we need to be together the most, because we are all still hurting. We need to be together, to be there to cry, to laugh, to do whatever it is we need to do. But we have to do it together. And we will, too. This is what I’ve learned about our family in the past while. Sure, we fight, we have our times, but in the end.. in the end we are family.. Nothing can take that away from me, not pain of death, not anything. We’ll hurt together this Christmas, and perhaps long after that. We’ve hurt together in the past. We’ll have to do it again.
But the point is that we’ll do it together…
That’s all I have to say for now about that.
I love you all very much, and I hope that everything goes well for you in the next little while. Thanks for listening to me.
Love Forever:
Ashley
xoxo
”Would you know my name?
If I saw you in Heaven?
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven?
We must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know, I don’t belong
Here in Heaven.”
(for some reason, this blog site wont let me choose the date and time anymore. So it was written on December 8th 2005 at 1:30 in the morning)
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Wierd!
It’s true that I can’t focus right now, so instead I am making myself look smarter than I am by typing really fast. I think its working. Instead of just sitting here, moving my head with the music, I am typing, and people might stop thinking that I’m just fooling around. Of course, there never was any proof that they ever thought I was just fooling around, but this is really just my excuse.. So now it looks like I’m working, unless of course, you are standing behind me and reading this. I can’t really work in silence like this, the library is just so stringent and professional, and it frightens me. I am, of course, listening to music, and it’s helping me to deal with the strict silence... A bit. But I still know that If I was to talk to crystal, or shaunna, who are sitting near me, (but not near enough to see what I’m typing) then I would be disturbing the golden silence of this room. However, there is a very cute boy who is sitting within my view, so I’m ok with the library.. Only a bit.. Man alive.. Someone just disrupted the golden silence by trying to get out of the library without signing out a book. So the electronic beeper thing beeped, and everyone looked around to see what de go on. Man alive. I kind of wish these computers had MSN.. They don’t.. It’s the library, these computers are supposed to be used for working.. Yep, that’s sure what I’m doing. Really, I’m just typing some gibberish.. I think I’ve mentioned (previously) how glad I am that I’m not at work right now. I think I would die if these computers didn’t have windows media player. I cannot handle the silence! But I’ve said that before. Just as I finished my other paper, Crystal and Shaunna came to the computer room where I was, and gave me a break. We headed over to Flavor Me pizza, and had a likkle bit of dinner.. Mmmm it was ok, but really, I’m so sick of pizza. That doesn’t mean that flavor me is bad pizza, it’s really good. But I just wish I could have one of my moms home cooked meals right about now. Well.. Not right this minute, cause I’ve just had pizza, and I’m no longer hungry.. Goodness me! I think that’s my new saying.. I like it. It’s fun.. Ok so what else Is going on? Well I really should be doing my paper, but updating my blog helped me last time, so I’m doing it again. Can you believe it? Two whole entries in one whole day.You know what I really hate? Microsoft word, and how it puts those likkle lines under everything you do wrong, and how it decides to edit your paper without asking, so if you number something, it decided to number everything else for you.. Or if you indent something, it indents the whole paragraph. I’ve tried turning auto-correct off, but it still does that stuff! It drives me so crazy that I feel like throwing the computer out the window.. Problem with that is, we’re on the 8th floor, and I would probably kill someone if I did that. Plus, I’d have to pay for the computer.. That’s never a good thing. These things tend to be sort of expensive, wouldn’t you say? I have a question.. Sort of random, but at the same time, not really. See, there’s this big portrait of Jesus on the wall by my computer.. I was just wondering where that image actually came from.. Because is it not true that we don’t know what Jesus looked like? I mean, it’s not like someone did a portrait of him while he was alive. Yet when we see pictures of this man, we know who it is supposed to be immediately. I just don’t understand that. Umm that's that for that topic..
Ok you know what's even wierder than pics of Jesus? Ummm I just tried to save my paper, and the computer, as well as all the computers around me were like.. "There is not enough memory to save the project.." And then all the sudden.. It just worked. Im confuzzled.! ! ! !
Ok so enough of that..
Things are wierd today.. I'm wierd today.. I need sleep, but i'll probs be up all night. So feel free to give me a call. Can't garuntee that I'll be home cause I'm still at the library, and probs will be for the next while.
So anyways.. Now that i've managed to vent into a blog, I'm going back to writing papers.
So best of evenings to you!
Love Forever:
Shle
Xoxo
"I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me"
Ok you know what's even wierder than pics of Jesus? Ummm I just tried to save my paper, and the computer, as well as all the computers around me were like.. "There is not enough memory to save the project.." And then all the sudden.. It just worked. Im confuzzled.! ! ! !
Ok so enough of that..
Things are wierd today.. I'm wierd today.. I need sleep, but i'll probs be up all night. So feel free to give me a call. Can't garuntee that I'll be home cause I'm still at the library, and probs will be for the next while.
So anyways.. Now that i've managed to vent into a blog, I'm going back to writing papers.
So best of evenings to you!
Love Forever:
Shle
Xoxo
"I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me"
Chronic Procrastonitis
Hey Guess what ?!
Right now, I should be working on papers, but I've been doing that all day, and I've made a fair amount of progress, so I'm taking a break, and blogging. As I sit here, I tried to listen to music on my headphones, but this guy is sitting behind me and playing the guitar, and it's kind of annoying, cause he sucks! So yeah, that's what I'm dealing with..
Sunday night was the christmas banquet.. I had an overall great time, I got pictures taken with tons of hotties.. (according to Alison) Either way, it was fun shiz. We all looked amazing, except Shaunna made me wear red lipstick, and it was just so dark.. I mean, it looked ok, I was just a bit uncomfortable cause I never wear red lipstick. And that was that.. But I did get alot of great photographs from the evening, it was just a great amount of fun! The food was amazing, I've never before gotten second helpings of vegitables if I could help it, but they were yummilicious! And yeah.. To be perfectly honest, the MC's or.. whatever.. the people who were in charge of talking and announcing were kind of slow paced, and not too great at keeping the attention of the crowd.. But oh well. I enjoyed the slide show and the music though. It was well done.
Ohh I just sneezed and this really cute boy just said bless you.. I love it when that happens.
Hahahah off topic much!
Ummm things that don't involve school: I've been trying for the past two weeks to get ahold of Treston, with no luck, but then again, it's not just his phone, I cant seem to get through to anyone in Jamaica. See, Treston just bought a new phone, so there's no reason for it not to be working, except for DigiCel, the phone company.. it just doesnt seem to be working. Which is really irritating. And speaking of irritating, someone from Jamaica has been calling at my home phone number in Vancouver, at all hours of the night trying to get ahold of me, when he full knows that I live in Calgary! It's really ridiculous, and irresponsible, not to mention annoying! I mean, if it was treston, cause he lost my calgary number, and if it was a decent hour, no problem, but it's not, it's not, and it's not ok! I dont know, I just wish some people would take a hint and stop calling me, y'understan? Of course, I had to call him and tell him to stop calling my mom.. I mean, he called one time at four in the morning. That's not even remotely cool. Anyways. Enough about that. It looks like class just let out, and so lots of people are coming in here, making noise, but it's ok cause I'm not working on school work right now anyways.
Oh goodness. It has been quite cold here, So cold that I wear my PJ pants underneath my jeans, because by the time I get to school, my legs are numb, and that's not cool.
After the Christmas banquet, I went for a walk with a friend of mine, and it was so cold outside, that by the time we got back (we walked a fairly long way) my legs were so red adn frozen that I felt like they were going to fall off. It was not pleasant. Thus making the decision to not go out again without wearing two pairs of pants. I am actually quite tired right now. I have been working on school work since 1, and it's now four. I've only gotten one and a half papers done, it's just so distracting here. But res is no better, because I have no internet, and the computers downstairs don't have microsoft word.. so they're useless.
I have all sorts of excuses today, don't I? But it's true. I don't quite know what's keeping me from concentrating right now.. But oh well. Right now I'm really thankful that I'm not working tonight.. I usually do, but If I was, I would be up all night on wednsday. I might be anyways.. But we'll see. We shall see.
For now, I'm going to avoid procrastonating any further, so off I go..
Back to work.
Much love for now and ever
Shle
xoxo
"I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright, you were amazing
I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled,
It took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love
as I do tonight "
Right now, I should be working on papers, but I've been doing that all day, and I've made a fair amount of progress, so I'm taking a break, and blogging. As I sit here, I tried to listen to music on my headphones, but this guy is sitting behind me and playing the guitar, and it's kind of annoying, cause he sucks! So yeah, that's what I'm dealing with..
Sunday night was the christmas banquet.. I had an overall great time, I got pictures taken with tons of hotties.. (according to Alison) Either way, it was fun shiz. We all looked amazing, except Shaunna made me wear red lipstick, and it was just so dark.. I mean, it looked ok, I was just a bit uncomfortable cause I never wear red lipstick. And that was that.. But I did get alot of great photographs from the evening, it was just a great amount of fun! The food was amazing, I've never before gotten second helpings of vegitables if I could help it, but they were yummilicious! And yeah.. To be perfectly honest, the MC's or.. whatever.. the people who were in charge of talking and announcing were kind of slow paced, and not too great at keeping the attention of the crowd.. But oh well. I enjoyed the slide show and the music though. It was well done.
Ohh I just sneezed and this really cute boy just said bless you.. I love it when that happens.
Hahahah off topic much!
Ummm things that don't involve school: I've been trying for the past two weeks to get ahold of Treston, with no luck, but then again, it's not just his phone, I cant seem to get through to anyone in Jamaica. See, Treston just bought a new phone, so there's no reason for it not to be working, except for DigiCel, the phone company.. it just doesnt seem to be working. Which is really irritating. And speaking of irritating, someone from Jamaica has been calling at my home phone number in Vancouver, at all hours of the night trying to get ahold of me, when he full knows that I live in Calgary! It's really ridiculous, and irresponsible, not to mention annoying! I mean, if it was treston, cause he lost my calgary number, and if it was a decent hour, no problem, but it's not, it's not, and it's not ok! I dont know, I just wish some people would take a hint and stop calling me, y'understan? Of course, I had to call him and tell him to stop calling my mom.. I mean, he called one time at four in the morning. That's not even remotely cool. Anyways. Enough about that. It looks like class just let out, and so lots of people are coming in here, making noise, but it's ok cause I'm not working on school work right now anyways.
Oh goodness. It has been quite cold here, So cold that I wear my PJ pants underneath my jeans, because by the time I get to school, my legs are numb, and that's not cool.
After the Christmas banquet, I went for a walk with a friend of mine, and it was so cold outside, that by the time we got back (we walked a fairly long way) my legs were so red adn frozen that I felt like they were going to fall off. It was not pleasant. Thus making the decision to not go out again without wearing two pairs of pants. I am actually quite tired right now. I have been working on school work since 1, and it's now four. I've only gotten one and a half papers done, it's just so distracting here. But res is no better, because I have no internet, and the computers downstairs don't have microsoft word.. so they're useless.
I have all sorts of excuses today, don't I? But it's true. I don't quite know what's keeping me from concentrating right now.. But oh well. Right now I'm really thankful that I'm not working tonight.. I usually do, but If I was, I would be up all night on wednsday. I might be anyways.. But we'll see. We shall see.
For now, I'm going to avoid procrastonating any further, so off I go..
Back to work.
Much love for now and ever
Shle
xoxo
"I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright, you were amazing
I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled,
It took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love
as I do tonight "
Friday, December 02, 2005
Im wearing a pink sweater today
Today is the coldest I've ever been in my life. It is eighteen degrees below zero today. So cold! So I walked over to mcdonalds and met my brother so that we could go to safeway, and go to safeway we did. Micheal decided that the roads were too bad to drive on, and I have to admit that I agree with him, because we're from north vancouver, and we do not know how to drive in snow, and it could be scary. So we walked to safeway, and it was bloody cold. I didn't like it, but I got some groceries, and some baking stuff to make cookies with. I enjoy making cookies, so I'm going to.. Should be great. Ummm so that's what happened today. I have a class in about an hour, and now I'm here.
You know what's funny? I made fun of Crystal for buying Long Johns, because I didnt think it would ever be necissary, but now I am considering buying them. Every time my dad said "you're gonna need long johns" I was hoping that he was teasing me. But he sure wasnt. So When I go outside, the top half of my body is always warm enough because I wear a shirt, a sweater, and a gigantic jacket, and it's great. My hands, always covered in gloves, and my face, usually protected by the scarf I pull up over my nose, and my ears covered, almost always, by headphones and a hood. So that's not bad. But then I only have on a pair of jeans, and it get's so cold that I feel like my legs are going to fall off. So I'm going to start wearing sweatpants over my jeans on the way to anywhere, until I can get some long-john thingers. I feel like an icicle right now. It's so cold.
Two nights ago, at midnight, my brother called me and asked if I had any black make up that he could borrow. So I gave it to him, completely confuzzled.
Yesterday was my relax day.. I got home from classes and decided to do some drawing and coloring.. for something.... never mind what.. But it was my relax night. and I got felt all over my fingers. But halfway through, matt russell came into my apartment and asked me if I had any nail polish remover, cause he dressed up as a goth the other day, in honor of no-shave november ending. and he shaved his head, and it was scary, cause he actually looked like a goth. So anyways, he came into my apartment, and I did the best I could to get my nail polish off of his fingernails. It was so amusing. I found out what mike needed my make-up for. Matt actually did a good job with the make-up, I was impressed, and wondering why he was able to do such a good job with it.
But aside from that, I have a busy weekend ahead of me! I'm going to go christmas shopping tomorrow morning, and then tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to work on two of the four papers that I have due within the week. So If I get those finished, I'll be quite happy, and then I'll work on the other two sunday, possibly. We shall see. Either way, I will get them done, it's just a matter of when. So Sunday night is the christmas banquet, and I am quite excited, aside fom not having a date, it's going to be a fun event.
This guy asked my roomie last night, to go to the banquet with him, and then... he asked her what her name was.. I'm pretty sure that made her decision for her. I was amused by that.
You know what I am excited for? Getting fitted for my ... pink... dress for the wedding! IT's going to be fun, I love dresses. Umm what else. I want to get my hair braided in january, hopefully my auntie will be able to do it for me.
Ok, well I have nothing else to say, except that it's cold here.
I love ya'll!
Much Love
Ashley
Xoxo
"This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud "
P.S. I'm wearing a pink sweater today.. It has snowflakes on it.. woo hoo?
You know what's funny? I made fun of Crystal for buying Long Johns, because I didnt think it would ever be necissary, but now I am considering buying them. Every time my dad said "you're gonna need long johns" I was hoping that he was teasing me. But he sure wasnt. So When I go outside, the top half of my body is always warm enough because I wear a shirt, a sweater, and a gigantic jacket, and it's great. My hands, always covered in gloves, and my face, usually protected by the scarf I pull up over my nose, and my ears covered, almost always, by headphones and a hood. So that's not bad. But then I only have on a pair of jeans, and it get's so cold that I feel like my legs are going to fall off. So I'm going to start wearing sweatpants over my jeans on the way to anywhere, until I can get some long-john thingers. I feel like an icicle right now. It's so cold.
Two nights ago, at midnight, my brother called me and asked if I had any black make up that he could borrow. So I gave it to him, completely confuzzled.
Yesterday was my relax day.. I got home from classes and decided to do some drawing and coloring.. for something.... never mind what.. But it was my relax night. and I got felt all over my fingers. But halfway through, matt russell came into my apartment and asked me if I had any nail polish remover, cause he dressed up as a goth the other day, in honor of no-shave november ending. and he shaved his head, and it was scary, cause he actually looked like a goth. So anyways, he came into my apartment, and I did the best I could to get my nail polish off of his fingernails. It was so amusing. I found out what mike needed my make-up for. Matt actually did a good job with the make-up, I was impressed, and wondering why he was able to do such a good job with it.
But aside from that, I have a busy weekend ahead of me! I'm going to go christmas shopping tomorrow morning, and then tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to work on two of the four papers that I have due within the week. So If I get those finished, I'll be quite happy, and then I'll work on the other two sunday, possibly. We shall see. Either way, I will get them done, it's just a matter of when. So Sunday night is the christmas banquet, and I am quite excited, aside fom not having a date, it's going to be a fun event.
This guy asked my roomie last night, to go to the banquet with him, and then... he asked her what her name was.. I'm pretty sure that made her decision for her. I was amused by that.
You know what I am excited for? Getting fitted for my ... pink... dress for the wedding! IT's going to be fun, I love dresses. Umm what else. I want to get my hair braided in january, hopefully my auntie will be able to do it for me.
Ok, well I have nothing else to say, except that it's cold here.
I love ya'll!
Much Love
Ashley
Xoxo
"This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud "
P.S. I'm wearing a pink sweater today.. It has snowflakes on it.. woo hoo?
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
It's beginning to look alot like Christmas
Hey everyone! How are we all doing today? Well, I'm great today. I had a relaxing morning, I woke up, had a shower, and then decided to clean my apartment! Most of you would not consider this to be a relaxing thing to do, but indeed it was, because none of my beautiful roomies were at home, and so I put on some Christmas music, and just cleaned. Granted, I didnt get to finish, because I forgot suddenly that I had to go meet with my brother, which turned out to be a waste of time, because I dont know what classes to take. I am signing up for effective writing, and I Was going to sign up for child ministries, but it has requirements, and i haven't taken the first two classes that are nesicarry for that course. So that's that. Now I just need to figure out what other class to take. Today I am wearing a dress... Yes, you heard right, it's big and red, and so nineteen eighties that I hate it. So I'm keeping my jacket on. But heres the thing, I can't really explain why I have to wear the dress, except to say floor punishment. Dont get me wrong, I didnt do anything wrong, its just.. well it's complicated. Let's just say I won, and the dress along with the schmoga (which I also cant explain) is what I get... So It's been snowing for the past three days, I kinda like it. It makes calgary look very pretty. The only issue I have with the snow is that the roads and sidewalks get disgusting... My past two shifts at work have been heaven, wanna know why? I got to decorate the store for Christmas. It's been heaven. unfortunately, someone got to the tree before I did, and it's the tackiest thing I've ever seen. But I do not take credit for the tree, so if you're ever in staples and you see the christmas decorations, the tree was not my doing, but almost everythign else was... It's grand. Hmmm what else should I talk about? Tonight all the girls who live in res are getting together at the school for floor meeting. All three floors. Should be interesting, I wonder what kind of meeting we're all going to have? Obviously We wont be doing any floor traditions, because we all have different traditions, and they're all top secret.
SO THAT'S THAT!
You know what's really fun? Taking online polls. I love filling out quizzes and all that jazz, so if you have any quizzes or links to quizzes, then send em on! Cause I'm bored.
Love you all!
Love Forever: Ashley
xoxo
"I see trees of Green.. Red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself...
What a wonderful world."
SO THAT'S THAT!
You know what's really fun? Taking online polls. I love filling out quizzes and all that jazz, so if you have any quizzes or links to quizzes, then send em on! Cause I'm bored.
Love you all!
Love Forever: Ashley
xoxo
"I see trees of Green.. Red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself...
What a wonderful world."
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Ten Days....
It's been ten days since my last update, shame on me! Lots has...sort of happened since then, but at the same time.. barely anything. For the past few days I've been in such pain that I feel the need to write about it. Now, I didn't fall or nothing, but my tailbone area has been killing me, to the point where moving around hurts like a monkey... Granted, I dont exactly know how much a monkey hurts, but I'm sure it does. Just cause I say so.
So here I am. I got two papers done, now I have about four more to do, and a whole heap of reading. Last week I was watching the news on TV, and they did a story on "Crack Corner", which we all like to refer to as Crack Max, which is a block away from where I live. It's reportedly the most dangerous corner in all of Downtown, and I get to walk by it each day.
Woo Hoo!
You know what I've been doing lately? Listening to really relaxing music.. It's been good.
This blog has no structure wahtsoever. I'm sorry it's so random, but I just haven't been feeling good at all for the past likkle while, and so... I just can't even organize my thoughts today..
OH, cara's here, it's been nice to see her. SAturday, I made turkey dinner for a dozen people, it was a truly enjoyable experience. I mean, of course, It wasn't as good as anything my mom can make, but I did my best, and it was alot of fun too. Actually, I got a little stressed out, cause I couldn't get the gravy to thicken, but all ended well. I was happy.. Chris gave me flowers for making them dinner, they're very pretty.
And.. Ummm... I dont know what else a go on, I'm here, I'm making this short because I need to head over to class, and I'm not feeling well. .. I know, excuses excuses, but you wouldn't be thinking that if you could only see my futile attempts to get up out of a chair without pain..
IT sucks!
Hey mike, let's go see a doctor or something>
Anyways.. I'm out for now
Love Forever:
Shle
Xoxo
Watch for sticks and stones
Stumbling blocks in piles
Life is one big road
Miles on top of miles
So blessed be the soul
That always remains a child
And most people don't even smile
There's a natural mystic
Blowing in true the air
So keep it realistic
And always be aware
The truth is crying out
And it is so loud and so clear
But most people won't even hear
So here I am. I got two papers done, now I have about four more to do, and a whole heap of reading. Last week I was watching the news on TV, and they did a story on "Crack Corner", which we all like to refer to as Crack Max, which is a block away from where I live. It's reportedly the most dangerous corner in all of Downtown, and I get to walk by it each day.
Woo Hoo!
You know what I've been doing lately? Listening to really relaxing music.. It's been good.
This blog has no structure wahtsoever. I'm sorry it's so random, but I just haven't been feeling good at all for the past likkle while, and so... I just can't even organize my thoughts today..
OH, cara's here, it's been nice to see her. SAturday, I made turkey dinner for a dozen people, it was a truly enjoyable experience. I mean, of course, It wasn't as good as anything my mom can make, but I did my best, and it was alot of fun too. Actually, I got a little stressed out, cause I couldn't get the gravy to thicken, but all ended well. I was happy.. Chris gave me flowers for making them dinner, they're very pretty.
And.. Ummm... I dont know what else a go on, I'm here, I'm making this short because I need to head over to class, and I'm not feeling well. .. I know, excuses excuses, but you wouldn't be thinking that if you could only see my futile attempts to get up out of a chair without pain..
IT sucks!
Hey mike, let's go see a doctor or something>
Anyways.. I'm out for now
Love Forever:
Shle
Xoxo
Watch for sticks and stones
Stumbling blocks in piles
Life is one big road
Miles on top of miles
So blessed be the soul
That always remains a child
And most people don't even smile
There's a natural mystic
Blowing in true the air
So keep it realistic
And always be aware
The truth is crying out
And it is so loud and so clear
But most people won't even hear
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Don't you rock my boat
Hey, best of evenings to ya!
My past week has been incredibly peaceful and relaxing. I came home for reading break, which was not planned at all, I just called my parents and said "I need to come home" and to be honest, it was a bit selfish of me, because finances are tight at the mo, but... I dunno, I just needed to get away from everyting fi a likkle bit. Anyways. So here I am. I got home wednsday, and called my mom from the airport, and I told her that she might not recognize me.. I put on my wig from hallowe'en, and it was amusing. The look on her face was priceless, though she'll tell you that I didnt fool her, I think I did. So Wednsday, my mom and I took Karika (our neighbor girl) to the mall, just because mom was babysitting her, and we could. So blah.. We did that, and it was fun. Oh, around six, I went over to Tricias house and knocked on the door, of course I had on my wig, and so it took her awhile to recognize me. It was amusing.. After that, Whit and I paid a visit to NSA youth group, which was a bit of a waste.. Never mind that..
Thursday we chilled out, it was great, mom and I decorated for christmas, everyting but the tree, naturally. I hung out for a bit with Tricia and her mom and Diago, it was fun. I never realized how much I would miss them. So that was that.. On Friday morning, my whole fam damily was due to visit, and of course, they had no idea I was home. So I went out with Sam, and then around 10am I came home, I walked in the door, and I said "Hey, how come I wasn't invited?" and my grandmother turned around and said.... Well .. never mind what she said, but it was shocking for a catholic woman.. She made me laugh quite alot.. But needless to say, they were all quite happy and suprised to see me. My grandfather started crying, but in the kitchen, where he thought I wouldnt be able to see him.. Sappy Samson, that he is. Anyways... Friday was a nice day, a good visit in general with the family, it was my uncles bday, along with rememberance day. Fancy that.. Saturday, mom and I were going to organize the basement, but we decided against that.. It was too much work, and so we went out for dinner, and then Tricia and I had this great adventure.. (NOT).. We went to the movie theatre, and were going to see "Get rich or die tryin", and so we went to buy our tix, and they said that we needed ID to get into the movie, and of course, Tricia didnt haev ID, and so we were kind of mad, and so we got back to the cove, and got our ID, and then headed back to the second movie, which started at ten. Overall, it was kind of worth it to get back to the theatre, but not really at the same time. As I've said many times before, singers should not try to be actors, and actors should not try to be singers... Plain and Simple. But Kurtis Jackson is damn hot, so it was worth it. The movie was really extremely gangsta, I liked it, but Mike, I do not suggest you see it. Not like you needed to hear that from me, I'm sure you already made the decision not to spend any money pon it, but oh well. Guess what happens on Friday.. Go on Guess. HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE..Of course, I've learned by now not to expect too much from the HP movies, because it's hard to squish 789 pages into a feature length film, and so I guess much will be left out, but we shall see, shant we..?
Anyways.. Today I went to church, and got to meet baby Dylan, he's such a sweetie. Also, I uploaded a bunch of music to my computer, only to realize that it wont burn onto a CD, so I've put it all on my Mp3 Player, and now I'm going to take my cord home, put it pon mikes computer and then burn it to disks, then delete it.. Also, I've decided to allow mike the use of my Mp3 player while he goes to the gym, cause with my cord, he can take the crappy music off of it.. I'm alright with that... For now.
So anyways.. Im'a peace for now, aiite.?
Have a great night, I'll update once again from calgary, as I go back to school tomorrow evening.
Much love Forever
Shle
Xoxo
"I know Jah will bless me,
No Wicked heart can test me,
No matter how they try
Know Jah will protect me,
And my friends will respect me,
Na go make the river run dry"
My past week has been incredibly peaceful and relaxing. I came home for reading break, which was not planned at all, I just called my parents and said "I need to come home" and to be honest, it was a bit selfish of me, because finances are tight at the mo, but... I dunno, I just needed to get away from everyting fi a likkle bit. Anyways. So here I am. I got home wednsday, and called my mom from the airport, and I told her that she might not recognize me.. I put on my wig from hallowe'en, and it was amusing. The look on her face was priceless, though she'll tell you that I didnt fool her, I think I did. So Wednsday, my mom and I took Karika (our neighbor girl) to the mall, just because mom was babysitting her, and we could. So blah.. We did that, and it was fun. Oh, around six, I went over to Tricias house and knocked on the door, of course I had on my wig, and so it took her awhile to recognize me. It was amusing.. After that, Whit and I paid a visit to NSA youth group, which was a bit of a waste.. Never mind that..
Thursday we chilled out, it was great, mom and I decorated for christmas, everyting but the tree, naturally. I hung out for a bit with Tricia and her mom and Diago, it was fun. I never realized how much I would miss them. So that was that.. On Friday morning, my whole fam damily was due to visit, and of course, they had no idea I was home. So I went out with Sam, and then around 10am I came home, I walked in the door, and I said "Hey, how come I wasn't invited?" and my grandmother turned around and said.... Well .. never mind what she said, but it was shocking for a catholic woman.. She made me laugh quite alot.. But needless to say, they were all quite happy and suprised to see me. My grandfather started crying, but in the kitchen, where he thought I wouldnt be able to see him.. Sappy Samson, that he is. Anyways... Friday was a nice day, a good visit in general with the family, it was my uncles bday, along with rememberance day. Fancy that.. Saturday, mom and I were going to organize the basement, but we decided against that.. It was too much work, and so we went out for dinner, and then Tricia and I had this great adventure.. (NOT).. We went to the movie theatre, and were going to see "Get rich or die tryin", and so we went to buy our tix, and they said that we needed ID to get into the movie, and of course, Tricia didnt haev ID, and so we were kind of mad, and so we got back to the cove, and got our ID, and then headed back to the second movie, which started at ten. Overall, it was kind of worth it to get back to the theatre, but not really at the same time. As I've said many times before, singers should not try to be actors, and actors should not try to be singers... Plain and Simple. But Kurtis Jackson is damn hot, so it was worth it. The movie was really extremely gangsta, I liked it, but Mike, I do not suggest you see it. Not like you needed to hear that from me, I'm sure you already made the decision not to spend any money pon it, but oh well. Guess what happens on Friday.. Go on Guess. HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE..Of course, I've learned by now not to expect too much from the HP movies, because it's hard to squish 789 pages into a feature length film, and so I guess much will be left out, but we shall see, shant we..?
Anyways.. Today I went to church, and got to meet baby Dylan, he's such a sweetie. Also, I uploaded a bunch of music to my computer, only to realize that it wont burn onto a CD, so I've put it all on my Mp3 Player, and now I'm going to take my cord home, put it pon mikes computer and then burn it to disks, then delete it.. Also, I've decided to allow mike the use of my Mp3 player while he goes to the gym, cause with my cord, he can take the crappy music off of it.. I'm alright with that... For now.
So anyways.. Im'a peace for now, aiite.?
Have a great night, I'll update once again from calgary, as I go back to school tomorrow evening.
Much love Forever
Shle
Xoxo
"I know Jah will bless me,
No Wicked heart can test me,
No matter how they try
Know Jah will protect me,
And my friends will respect me,
Na go make the river run dry"
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Speaking of...
Hey . You know how the title of my last blog was the special olympics? It's funny because I had something to say about it, and I never did. That's kind of amusing. So now I'm going to tell you about what I was going to tell you in the first place. lol.
So at work the past week, we've been instructed to ask the customers if they'd be willing to donate a looney to send special olympians to the olympics in Manitoba. A looney, right? Not a big deal. But you'd be suprised how many people just say "No", and even better, how many poeople try to make up excuses about it. It just baffles me how people come in to staples, spend hundreds of dollars on themselves, and then refuse to spend a dollar on someone else. I dont know, it just amazes me that so many people are so selfish. People come in, spend two bucks, and when I ask them about it, they say no, and then hand me a twenty dollar bill, and get 18 dollars change. And then they buy a pack of gum for themselves, which is more expensive than a dollar.. I dont know, it's just an observation. People are generally selifish. But then there's the people who'll give five bucks.. It's wierd.
I dont know, and then I was thinking.. "Would I give money?" I think I would, to be honest, if I had it. It just seems like the right thing to do.
Sunday was my worst day with people giving money, cause they just wouldnt. When I was talking with one of my co-workers, she said, in all seriousness, that it was because they had all jsut come from church, and they gave money to the church, and dont want to give to anyone else. That struck me as odd, cause you'd think that the people just coming from church would be most likely to give.. But after that, every person who said no, I thought.. did she/he just come from church?
Anyways.. Those are my random musings for the day..
Think about it.. Would you give a dollar? ? ?
Love Forever: Shle
Xoxo
"Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,our troubles will be out of sight"
So at work the past week, we've been instructed to ask the customers if they'd be willing to donate a looney to send special olympians to the olympics in Manitoba. A looney, right? Not a big deal. But you'd be suprised how many people just say "No", and even better, how many poeople try to make up excuses about it. It just baffles me how people come in to staples, spend hundreds of dollars on themselves, and then refuse to spend a dollar on someone else. I dont know, it just amazes me that so many people are so selfish. People come in, spend two bucks, and when I ask them about it, they say no, and then hand me a twenty dollar bill, and get 18 dollars change. And then they buy a pack of gum for themselves, which is more expensive than a dollar.. I dont know, it's just an observation. People are generally selifish. But then there's the people who'll give five bucks.. It's wierd.
I dont know, and then I was thinking.. "Would I give money?" I think I would, to be honest, if I had it. It just seems like the right thing to do.
Sunday was my worst day with people giving money, cause they just wouldnt. When I was talking with one of my co-workers, she said, in all seriousness, that it was because they had all jsut come from church, and they gave money to the church, and dont want to give to anyone else. That struck me as odd, cause you'd think that the people just coming from church would be most likely to give.. But after that, every person who said no, I thought.. did she/he just come from church?
Anyways.. Those are my random musings for the day..
Think about it.. Would you give a dollar? ? ?
Love Forever: Shle
Xoxo
"Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,our troubles will be out of sight"
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Special Olympics
Hey everyone, how are you doing? I havent updated for a long time, and for that, I'm sorry. Things in my life have been a bit nuts. Cara came to visit for the weekend, it was great. This morning, we went out for brunch, and this girl, our waitress, actually, said "Don't I know you from Seycove?" And I was like... WHAT? That was so crazy, cause Calgary's the last place I expect to run into a former seycovian. It was funny. Anyways. That was a short story.
I had a job interview yesterday, for a nannying job. The lady called me today and said that I couldn't commit for long enough, so she hired someone else. That kind of makes me mad, because she made the interview sound really promising. So I was all psyched for it. But there's nothing I can do about it, I guess.. I just have to keep my staples job a likkle bit longer. Oh well. I'll survive. Speaking of staples, I had a horrible day today. About fifteen minutes into my shift, this guy comes up, and says "Can you call 9-1-1?" and then basically falls to the floor, shaking..
He told me that he suffers from grand mall seizures, and then said "I dont want to die" ..
That's dramatic enough, I think it's worse for me, because that's basically what caused my uncle to pass away less than a month ago. So I was pretty shaken up by that. I didn't enjoy that experince at all.
Needless to say.. It was a bad day, even tho it was good before work. But I havent been able to get that out of my head since then... Just things., my uncle and stuff.
By the way, my parents put up the outside christmas lights, and me and my roomies bought a christmas tree. It's fun
Love forever
shle
xoxo
"Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven?
We must be strong,
And Carry on,
Cause I know, I don't belong
Here in heaven."
I had a job interview yesterday, for a nannying job. The lady called me today and said that I couldn't commit for long enough, so she hired someone else. That kind of makes me mad, because she made the interview sound really promising. So I was all psyched for it. But there's nothing I can do about it, I guess.. I just have to keep my staples job a likkle bit longer. Oh well. I'll survive. Speaking of staples, I had a horrible day today. About fifteen minutes into my shift, this guy comes up, and says "Can you call 9-1-1?" and then basically falls to the floor, shaking..
He told me that he suffers from grand mall seizures, and then said "I dont want to die" ..
That's dramatic enough, I think it's worse for me, because that's basically what caused my uncle to pass away less than a month ago. So I was pretty shaken up by that. I didn't enjoy that experince at all.
Needless to say.. It was a bad day, even tho it was good before work. But I havent been able to get that out of my head since then... Just things., my uncle and stuff.
By the way, my parents put up the outside christmas lights, and me and my roomies bought a christmas tree. It's fun
Love forever
shle
xoxo
"Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven?
We must be strong,
And Carry on,
Cause I know, I don't belong
Here in heaven."
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
44 Days!
Afternoon everyone, how's life treating you?
I havent updated in the last couple of days simply becuase I haven't had much to write about. I dont know if I have alot to say today, but the need for an update seemed fairly obvious to me.
So Hallowe'en was interesting, well.. as interesting as working at staples would allow it to be.
I dressed up like Amy Lee, hair and all, it was fun, and I had a fairly average night. No one came trick-or treating, which made me sort of sad, but it's staples.. who trick or treats at staples right? Anyways.. So my hallowe'en was uneventful, as I knew it would be. I recently found out about a job oppurtunity for bbsitting once a week, 80$ a day.. That's a good deal, and if it goes way out past Christmas, into april, I'm down for it. Also, if I get that job, I might give my notice to staples just two weeks before I want to go home for Christmas, because I've discovered a few things about them...
1. I don't like working there
2. They dont want to give me that much time off at christmas
3. I don't like working there
Get my point? Umm. I dunno.. We'll see what happens. I mean, if they arent going to give me the time off to Go home at christmas, I'm not staying in Calgary to work.. No sir..
ANYWHOOOO!
Yesterday, Crystal and I cleaned the apartment from top to bottom, we mopped, we vaccumed in corners we didn't know existed, and we took down the fall decorations, replacing them with Christmas ones. We haven't gone too far out with that sort of thing yet, but soon we will. I feel sorry for Crystal, because she's not as big of a christmas fanatic as Shaunna or I.. We must drive her nuts. Oh well.. Too bad for her.
You know what's awesome? Chris Boelke is buying an artificial Christmas tree, and letting us use it till we go home for Christmas. It's awesome, I can't wait. Hopefully that happens soon..
Anyways..
Im starting to get excited about Costa Rica.. It's going to be an awesome experience.. I hope..
Anyways.. I need to peace for now, I've got class pretty soon. Yay for Tim Moore's class!
It's gonna be great. I hope.. Hey Whitney Shrieves, guess what!? There's 44 Days till Christmas!
So anyways, much love forever
Shle
Xoxo
"One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it"
I havent updated in the last couple of days simply becuase I haven't had much to write about. I dont know if I have alot to say today, but the need for an update seemed fairly obvious to me.
So Hallowe'en was interesting, well.. as interesting as working at staples would allow it to be.
I dressed up like Amy Lee, hair and all, it was fun, and I had a fairly average night. No one came trick-or treating, which made me sort of sad, but it's staples.. who trick or treats at staples right? Anyways.. So my hallowe'en was uneventful, as I knew it would be. I recently found out about a job oppurtunity for bbsitting once a week, 80$ a day.. That's a good deal, and if it goes way out past Christmas, into april, I'm down for it. Also, if I get that job, I might give my notice to staples just two weeks before I want to go home for Christmas, because I've discovered a few things about them...
1. I don't like working there
2. They dont want to give me that much time off at christmas
3. I don't like working there
Get my point? Umm. I dunno.. We'll see what happens. I mean, if they arent going to give me the time off to Go home at christmas, I'm not staying in Calgary to work.. No sir..
ANYWHOOOO!
Yesterday, Crystal and I cleaned the apartment from top to bottom, we mopped, we vaccumed in corners we didn't know existed, and we took down the fall decorations, replacing them with Christmas ones. We haven't gone too far out with that sort of thing yet, but soon we will. I feel sorry for Crystal, because she's not as big of a christmas fanatic as Shaunna or I.. We must drive her nuts. Oh well.. Too bad for her.
You know what's awesome? Chris Boelke is buying an artificial Christmas tree, and letting us use it till we go home for Christmas. It's awesome, I can't wait. Hopefully that happens soon..
Anyways..
Im starting to get excited about Costa Rica.. It's going to be an awesome experience.. I hope..
Anyways.. I need to peace for now, I've got class pretty soon. Yay for Tim Moore's class!
It's gonna be great. I hope.. Hey Whitney Shrieves, guess what!? There's 44 Days till Christmas!
So anyways, much love forever
Shle
Xoxo
"One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it"
Friday, October 28, 2005
Encroyable!
Ok, so what's new since I last updated?
You know how last blog, I was all discoraged and such?
After I wrote that update, God had some simple, yet really encouraging things in store for me.
Shaunna came home from her party, and decided that we should all have a pillow fight. It was the most fun I've had in awhile, and when all was said and done, we fell to the ground laughing. It was such a simple thing, and we had such a great time together, me, shaunna, crystal and stephanie. Something like that.. so simple. I went to bed around 1:30 Am, it was good, and I didnt manange to get to sleep until about 2:20, I was laying in bed listening to Celine Dion. Not even joking you. I've become a bit of a dork since I've moved here. But if it encourages you at all, I bought TOK CD the other day, and that's Reggae. So I'm still me. Just with a bit more wierdness than usual.
OK So this morning, I had two mid-terms. Intro to the bible was the one I was actually worried about, but it turned out to be a very easy exam, it was all multiple choice. If all exams were all multiple choice all the time, I would be so happy. Well, mabye not math, cause that just confuses me. But there's no reason that I would be in a math course to begin with, so blah to that idea.
Anyways, I got out early from Intro to the bible, cause it was tres simple. Then I went to check my mailbox, and got a few things. A really asian-style letter from whitney, including japanese candies that fizz in my mouth as I type, a halloween card from my auntie Ellie and Uncle Mike, and a random encouragement card from Pete and Jude sattler. Plus, I got back my Paper that I wrote for Tim Moore, with a perfect mark on it, which was also encouraging because of some of the comments he wrote on it. Awesome. You know, I possibly would have had those things a couple of days ago, were it not for the fact that I forgot my keys at res. I think God has a perfect plan for me, he knew I would need those letters today, not a couple of days ago, and so I left my key at home. I dont know, usually, when a person is in the middle of exams, they're stressed out and crusty, but today, I feel really encouraged. Jude sent me five buckeroos in the letter, I think I'm going to go and get a piece of pizza for lunch.. This fizzy candy is wierd... Umm yeah..
I have the hic-up's.. it's annoying cause I have no change to buy a drink. Oh well.
Oh you know what's awesome? It's totally not even hallowe'en yet, but two days ago, when I bought my wig, I also bought outdoor christmas lights, and they're totally awesome, we put them on the balcony, and they look incredible. Soon enough, we will have the tree and lights and everyting inside. I can't wait. How many days till christmas whit? It's your turn to keep track fi me.
Anyways.. I love you all very much, but I seem to have run out of things to say. For now, I'm out.
Much love forever:
Shle
Xoxo
"So let the children remember the song.
Let them dance let them soar,
For their lives have begun.
Let the children engender the rain,
As the river runs through fields,
Forever subsiding their pain.
Pray."
You know how last blog, I was all discoraged and such?
After I wrote that update, God had some simple, yet really encouraging things in store for me.
Shaunna came home from her party, and decided that we should all have a pillow fight. It was the most fun I've had in awhile, and when all was said and done, we fell to the ground laughing. It was such a simple thing, and we had such a great time together, me, shaunna, crystal and stephanie. Something like that.. so simple. I went to bed around 1:30 Am, it was good, and I didnt manange to get to sleep until about 2:20, I was laying in bed listening to Celine Dion. Not even joking you. I've become a bit of a dork since I've moved here. But if it encourages you at all, I bought TOK CD the other day, and that's Reggae. So I'm still me. Just with a bit more wierdness than usual.
OK So this morning, I had two mid-terms. Intro to the bible was the one I was actually worried about, but it turned out to be a very easy exam, it was all multiple choice. If all exams were all multiple choice all the time, I would be so happy. Well, mabye not math, cause that just confuses me. But there's no reason that I would be in a math course to begin with, so blah to that idea.
Anyways, I got out early from Intro to the bible, cause it was tres simple. Then I went to check my mailbox, and got a few things. A really asian-style letter from whitney, including japanese candies that fizz in my mouth as I type, a halloween card from my auntie Ellie and Uncle Mike, and a random encouragement card from Pete and Jude sattler. Plus, I got back my Paper that I wrote for Tim Moore, with a perfect mark on it, which was also encouraging because of some of the comments he wrote on it. Awesome. You know, I possibly would have had those things a couple of days ago, were it not for the fact that I forgot my keys at res. I think God has a perfect plan for me, he knew I would need those letters today, not a couple of days ago, and so I left my key at home. I dont know, usually, when a person is in the middle of exams, they're stressed out and crusty, but today, I feel really encouraged. Jude sent me five buckeroos in the letter, I think I'm going to go and get a piece of pizza for lunch.. This fizzy candy is wierd... Umm yeah..
I have the hic-up's.. it's annoying cause I have no change to buy a drink. Oh well.
Oh you know what's awesome? It's totally not even hallowe'en yet, but two days ago, when I bought my wig, I also bought outdoor christmas lights, and they're totally awesome, we put them on the balcony, and they look incredible. Soon enough, we will have the tree and lights and everyting inside. I can't wait. How many days till christmas whit? It's your turn to keep track fi me.
Anyways.. I love you all very much, but I seem to have run out of things to say. For now, I'm out.
Much love forever:
Shle
Xoxo
"So let the children remember the song.
Let them dance let them soar,
For their lives have begun.
Let the children engender the rain,
As the river runs through fields,
Forever subsiding their pain.
Pray."
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