Avalanche

Does it make me a coward if I don't really want to know the reason why Buff did what he did? Does it mean that I am scared of the truth? Some people would say so. But you know what, I've heard the "truth" and weather or not I believe it, it doesnt matter. What I have chosen, is not to let the "truth" change my perception of who Buff was. The Buff I knew was a kind and gentle soul. The man I knew always put others before himself. The Buff I knew wouldn't hurt a soul.

What's really sad is that the rumors or facts (Whatever) that are coming out right now are really going to hit some people in the face - and they're going to change what those people thought about this man. They're going to make them look twice and think - mabye he wasn't really as good as we thought. But Buff did what he did in a broken state - To me and my family, Buff will always be the person who forgets what he's doing in order to carry some womans food out to her car when he sees she can't manage. Buff will always be the man who sacrifices of himself to help others.

Nothing anyone can do or say will change that.

So because I dont want to hear any more of this truth that is coming out - does that make me weak?

I don't think so. It just means that I've heard it, I accept it, but it's not the Buff I want to remember.

I want him to rest in peace. What is done is done, and we don't have to forgive Buff. He's already been forgiven. We don't have to judge Buff. Human Judgement just leads to more wrongs.

I want to let it go. I wish everyone would do that, but I know that this isn't the last I've heard about the situation. I know it'll be on everyone's lips for awhile to come.

All I can do is pray for strenght for those who have to hear it.

Blessings
Ashley
Xoxo

Lift up His name with sounds of singing
Lift up His name in all the earth
Lift up your voice and give Him glory
For HE is worthy to be praised