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Hey- here I am...
Just updating cause I got the time on my hands, and I'm awake, which is wierd.
Anyways... Today I went into work, and opened for the first time in eight months. I did pretty good, save for the fact that the alarm no longer liked the code I used to use, and so the alarm was going off for 10 minutes before the stupid company decided to call and ask if things were ok. Then I told them, NO, THINGS ARE NOT OK, THE ALARM IS GOING OFF!
Then it all got fixed, and the code worked the second time I tried it. By this time, my day was not starting off well.. But then, everything got better, cause people were so nice today, and pleasant, and it was sunny outside and I just had a generally good day. My friend Paul came into subway, and it made me happy, cause I havent seen him for eight months either, and we had a nice talk. Then my daddy came in to work, and I took a break and we shared a sandwich.. It was nice. After work, I went home, changed out of my stinky subway clothes, and then went shopping! It's my parents anniversary tomorrow, and so I did some shopping, and then went to visit my friend kelsey.. It was nice. ummmm so yeah now I'm here.
I guess that's all I have to say about my day..

I'm freaked out about my dad.. There's no denying that.. My mom is all worried about me, cause she thinks I keep all my feelings inside, but truth be told, I just dont show my weakness to them, cause I want to be strong for my family. I even told her that if I want to talk about it, I'll do it, but I guess I just dont want to talk about it to them. Nothing personal.. It's times like this that I wish my brother was at home with me. I guess thru everything, He's been there for me, and so it makes it easier for me to be there for my parents. ...
At church on sunday, everyone gathered around my dad and we prayed like crazy. It was really powerful, and I was encouraged, if only a little bit. Sean said they would keep praying until he was healed. He left no option for anything else. I dunno, I'm kind of scared to get my hopes up.. I mean, Im not just giving up and thinking that this is the end, but I also don't want to just be like "Well He's gonna be just fine" and then go on pretending everything's alright. You know what I mean? That's just not a smart way to live life, pretending that everythings alright and that there's not a trouble in the world..

You know what really stresses me out? When people try to tell me what to do with my life. Take, for example, school vs. Work.. I am taking a year off of school in order to get money in order to go back to college. Some people **cough**mom**cough** have issues with that, and seem to think that if I take any time off, I will never ever go back to school and my life will be RUINED! Some people just dont understand the type of person that I am.. If I have a plan, if I have a dream, then Im going to do whatever it takes to achieve that. That's just the kind of person that I am. Im going to work for what I want, I dont like accepting charity.. I guess I'm proud.. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or what, but I am, and I don't see that see that changing anytime soon..

So yeah.. I guess I'm going to go for now.. Tomorrow I have an interview for a job with Cove Community Church, as an administrative assistant. I am really looking forward to the interview, and really excited for the oppurtunity to get this job... I think it would be hella better than working for a certian someone at subway.. He's a bit of a jerk..
Oh well..

Ok this time I really am going to go..

Peace, Love and Respect always

Ashley
Xoxo