I am ready to come home now

Have you ever had the experience when it seems like everyone around you is extremely stressed out, and nothing you can do will make them stop taking it out on you? Well That's how life is for me right now. It's the end of the semester, and at least half of the girls on my floor are stressed to a point where they will bite your head off if you look at them the wrong way.. It's really hard for me to deal with this, because we have such a tight community of girls, so avoiding them is impossible... Unless of course, I just dont spend any time at home, which is not always possible. I have nothing else to say about that, except that people should learn to chill....

Something else that's been happening to me lately is that I've had someone who is always up in my business, wanting to know where I go, who I go with, and when I'll be back, and what not. Also, whenever I'm on the phone, she's always asking me who i'm talking to, and what it's about. This is driving me absoloutely nuts. My mom was never as bad as this, and so it's hard to deal with because all I really want to do is scream that what I do is none of her business, and then storm away, but I know that this would make things complicated, and not solve a thing, so I can't do this. I understand that life in res makes it hard to have privacy, but this takes it too far. Anyways.. This is just me ranting right now.. I guess I have to get it out somehow. I tried writing all this in my journal, and if anything, it just made me more angry, which is never good. So I'm trying this now..

Ok So on a good note, yesterday (most of it) was an awesome day. I woke up early and was picked up by my great aunt, my second cousin Bruce and his kids, my third cousins Jessie, Brenna and Meghan ... We drove three hours to Radium Hot Springs, in BC, and had an amazing day together. We swam in the springs, then had lunch, then drove around the sleepy town of Radium and visited with a bunch of mountian goats, then we took some extremely steep switchbacks down to the bottom of a canyon, to a river, then scaled the mountian back to the top, mostly avoiding the paths set for us... I think tho, the most amazing part of the day, was sitting in the Truck with little brenna asleep in my arms, and watching the amazing rocky mountians towering above us. Every time I see stuff like this, I can't help but to worship God... For real, it's just amazing.. Once again, he did that for me..



So after that, I got home to res, and the stress and tensions were high again, so I got a two for one pass and Karen, and we went to go see a movie.. It was good to get out, but still, her and I ranted the whole way home, and I'm not sure if that helped or just made me feel worse about everything that's happening in res... Either way, I am ready for this year to be over.
It's been really hard, but still, here I am... Ready to come home, back to the familliar, and away from all this crazy mad stress! I'm not fooling myself, I know that things at home won't be the same after me living here for eight months, but still.. It'll be better I think.. I know that it's going to be hard adjusting to living with my parents again, but at the same time still, I'm going to put in an effort to respect them and what they want for me, and so things will be good..
Anyways.. Im going to go to class..

Nuff love and respect
Ashley
xoxo

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you