So I just got my final grades, I got :
Child Development: A
Interpersonal Skills : B
Caring and Learning Envt's: A
Guidance : A
Curriculum Devleopment: A
Observing and Recording: C+
Practicum: B
Theoretical Prospectives: A
UM WOW! ! Im so happy! ! !
Monday, December 17, 2007
Sunday, November 25, 2007
hmm?
All people matter, and reaching them for Christ is NOT an option...
que pensas ? (what do you think?)
que pensas ? (what do you think?)
Thursday, November 22, 2007
beautiful
I woke up this morning and the ground was covered in white frost. The roads were icy, the trees were blanketed in frost and the sun was just barely rising- causing a purple glow to cast itself over the world as I know it. It was beautiful.
I praise God for all days, but especially days like this one...
I praise God for all days, but especially days like this one...
Sunday, November 18, 2007
The New Collossus
I'm sitting in the living room of our relitavely new house, enjoying a fire in the fireplace, soaking in the joy that christmas lights bring to me, and reflecting on a passage that I read today
Matthew 25:14-30
The Parable of the Talents
"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. To one he gave five talents of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.
"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'
"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.
" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.' "
For many who live in the luxury of a first world country, this is easy to figure out. God is the Master. We are his servants, and he gives us things in order to multiply them and to make use of them. But a whole other perspective was brough up in discussion today. From the perspectvive of the poor, the weary and the oppressed. What if the master really is just a wicked man, some kind of leader who is making the masses do things that are morally wrong? It was said today that when people made money of such quantity (One Talent was ALOT of money back then.) they had to do bad things to get it. Most money was made back then through owning land, and in order to own land, people would loan money to people on surrounding lands, and if they couldnt afford to pay it back, then the land would automatically become thiers, and so on and so forth. Opressing the poor and the weary. Could it be the parable is really addressing the social unbalance that exists? The Rich get richer, the poor get poorer. The third "wicked, lazy" servant really just a man strong enough to stand up for himself and not engage in the activities involved in money making?
This is a very interesting perspective, one that i've clearly never thought of before.
Have you?? Is this another way to tell us to be in the world but not of it?
This is something I have really struggled with in the past, and something Im sure I will continue to struggle with. right now i'm really working on this one aspect of my life: bieng here, but not bieng a part of what goes on. Right now it's easy for me to just say "no" to certian things, like going out and drinking and partying. Back in the day it sure wasn't. I wanted so badly to just fit in that I would have done (and did do) anything in order to be part of the world.
That wasn't me. that wasn't who God designed me to be. I became somewhat of a social robot, doing everyone's bidding BUT god's and the godly people I had surrounding me. It destroyed me a little bit at a time, and no one could heal my brokenness. No one could touch my heart or restore my spirit. I dove further into the world that I was slowly conforming to. That didn't help.
This whole time there was a tapping on my shoulder that I chose to ignore. Finally one daylast summer, the tap became a thunk on my head. I opened my eyes, but more importantly I opened my heart and allowed God to breathe on me and heal my hurt. He touched me and took away my brokenness. I am GOD'S CHILD. Thankfully I've come to realize this, though through no work of my own. Only God could have healed the scars that I left on my heart. ONLY GOD could have taken my shame and turned it into joy for his sake.
and HE did. But .. well I guess it took time for me to become serious..
Im just a girl to this world in which i live. But to God I am so much more. He has taught me that and for his love I am so thankful. I want to live forever in his love and with his hope and joy, and the peace that he has brought to my heart. I realize that this blog is scattered, started talking about one thing, went off onto another topic. But it's really all one topic, because it's God's story..
It makes me think about the poem by Emma Lazarus, where she says :
“Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”
I relaize that she is speaking of the statue of liberty, but it makes me think of God. He wants us all. He can heal anything he can take away our pain .. and he will. we jsut have to learn to let him.
xoxo
Matthew 25:14-30
The Parable of the Talents
"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. To one he gave five talents of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.
"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'
"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.
" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.' "
For many who live in the luxury of a first world country, this is easy to figure out. God is the Master. We are his servants, and he gives us things in order to multiply them and to make use of them. But a whole other perspective was brough up in discussion today. From the perspectvive of the poor, the weary and the oppressed. What if the master really is just a wicked man, some kind of leader who is making the masses do things that are morally wrong? It was said today that when people made money of such quantity (One Talent was ALOT of money back then.) they had to do bad things to get it. Most money was made back then through owning land, and in order to own land, people would loan money to people on surrounding lands, and if they couldnt afford to pay it back, then the land would automatically become thiers, and so on and so forth. Opressing the poor and the weary. Could it be the parable is really addressing the social unbalance that exists? The Rich get richer, the poor get poorer. The third "wicked, lazy" servant really just a man strong enough to stand up for himself and not engage in the activities involved in money making?
This is a very interesting perspective, one that i've clearly never thought of before.
Have you?? Is this another way to tell us to be in the world but not of it?
This is something I have really struggled with in the past, and something Im sure I will continue to struggle with. right now i'm really working on this one aspect of my life: bieng here, but not bieng a part of what goes on. Right now it's easy for me to just say "no" to certian things, like going out and drinking and partying. Back in the day it sure wasn't. I wanted so badly to just fit in that I would have done (and did do) anything in order to be part of the world.
That wasn't me. that wasn't who God designed me to be. I became somewhat of a social robot, doing everyone's bidding BUT god's and the godly people I had surrounding me. It destroyed me a little bit at a time, and no one could heal my brokenness. No one could touch my heart or restore my spirit. I dove further into the world that I was slowly conforming to. That didn't help.
This whole time there was a tapping on my shoulder that I chose to ignore. Finally one daylast summer, the tap became a thunk on my head. I opened my eyes, but more importantly I opened my heart and allowed God to breathe on me and heal my hurt. He touched me and took away my brokenness. I am GOD'S CHILD. Thankfully I've come to realize this, though through no work of my own. Only God could have healed the scars that I left on my heart. ONLY GOD could have taken my shame and turned it into joy for his sake.
and HE did. But .. well I guess it took time for me to become serious..
Im just a girl to this world in which i live. But to God I am so much more. He has taught me that and for his love I am so thankful. I want to live forever in his love and with his hope and joy, and the peace that he has brought to my heart. I realize that this blog is scattered, started talking about one thing, went off onto another topic. But it's really all one topic, because it's God's story..
It makes me think about the poem by Emma Lazarus, where she says :
“Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”
I relaize that she is speaking of the statue of liberty, but it makes me think of God. He wants us all. He can heal anything he can take away our pain .. and he will. we jsut have to learn to let him.
xoxo
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
mmbop
I know .. it's been awhile. but here I am. I've been really good these past few days. mabye even weeks. Mabye since I've started school. Or since I've come back from Mexico. Either way God has been blessing me sooo much lately. Im home right now, today of all days was pretty fantastic. I had a midterm today and most of you would think that would constitute a horrible day, but I think it went sooooo well. I feel like if I was grading it, I would give at least an A..
This is me.. I NEVER get a good mar on exams. today was an exam where I was to write essay questions - Im usually better with multiple choice but I studied. I know my matieral and im actually interested in it! ! this relates to what i was tested on today, actually. One of the theories that we've been studying is the constructivist theory, which states that the learner is ultimately the one responsible for the aquisition of knowledge. If the learner is not interested in the subject, he (or she in this case) will not learn... this goes to prove why I didn't get good marks in math 12.. muahahahah. In the first day of classes, kathleen said that people in ECCE were no good at math and science. That about sums me up! :D Ha ha ha. Overall, I've had a great last few weeks.
I dont really know what's up. Aside from the fact that God has been present in my life more than ever, I've finally let Him here. I've ended relationships that have been negative, that have been leading me astray, (no placing blame, it was me too!) and Im just really quite happy!
I find myself singing alot more often, and writing encouraging words on my paper instead of just the negitave depressing ones.
Im so happy with the changes God has been making in my life..
don't know if much else is important. God loves me. I think Im finally doing what HE wants for me.. Can't describe that to the full, don't know that I ever will be able to.
but I know it includes a few things: me going to school, me bieng single, me not partying, not hanging out with certian people, and least of all me not letting my old lifestyle stay in the closet! ! ! ! it's been taken out and destroyed!
Wahoooo! Im alive and a new creation!
xoxoxo
This is me.. I NEVER get a good mar on exams. today was an exam where I was to write essay questions - Im usually better with multiple choice but I studied. I know my matieral and im actually interested in it! ! this relates to what i was tested on today, actually. One of the theories that we've been studying is the constructivist theory, which states that the learner is ultimately the one responsible for the aquisition of knowledge. If the learner is not interested in the subject, he (or she in this case) will not learn... this goes to prove why I didn't get good marks in math 12.. muahahahah. In the first day of classes, kathleen said that people in ECCE were no good at math and science. That about sums me up! :D Ha ha ha. Overall, I've had a great last few weeks.
I dont really know what's up. Aside from the fact that God has been present in my life more than ever, I've finally let Him here. I've ended relationships that have been negative, that have been leading me astray, (no placing blame, it was me too!) and Im just really quite happy!
I find myself singing alot more often, and writing encouraging words on my paper instead of just the negitave depressing ones.
Im so happy with the changes God has been making in my life..
don't know if much else is important. God loves me. I think Im finally doing what HE wants for me.. Can't describe that to the full, don't know that I ever will be able to.
but I know it includes a few things: me going to school, me bieng single, me not partying, not hanging out with certian people, and least of all me not letting my old lifestyle stay in the closet! ! ! ! it's been taken out and destroyed!
Wahoooo! Im alive and a new creation!
xoxoxo
Thursday, October 04, 2007
The Gashly Crumb Tinies
I just read a book with the above mentioned title - it's SICK! ! !
It goes something like this..
A is for Amy who fell down the stairs
B is for Basil Assaulted by bears
C is for Clara who wasted away
D is for Desmond thrown out of a sleigh
E is for Ernest who choked on a peach
F is for Fanny sucked dry by a leech
G is for George smothered under a rug
H is for Hector done in by a thug
I is for Ida who drowned in a lake
J is for James who took lye by mistake
K is for Kate who was struck with an axe
L is for Leo who swallowed some tacks
M is for Maud who was swept out to sea
N is for Neville who died of Ennui
O is for Olive run through with an awl
P is for Prue trampled flat in a brawl
Q is for Quentin who sank in a mire
R is for Rhoda consumed by a fire
S is for Susan who perished of fits
T is for titus who flew into bits
U is for Una who slipped down a drain
V is for Victor squashed under a train
W is for Winnie embedded in ice
X is for Xerxes devoured by mice
Y is for Yorick whose head was knocked in
Z is for Zillah who drank too much gin..
By Edward Gorey
//// SICK \\\\
It goes something like this..
A is for Amy who fell down the stairs
B is for Basil Assaulted by bears
C is for Clara who wasted away
D is for Desmond thrown out of a sleigh
E is for Ernest who choked on a peach
F is for Fanny sucked dry by a leech
G is for George smothered under a rug
H is for Hector done in by a thug
I is for Ida who drowned in a lake
J is for James who took lye by mistake
K is for Kate who was struck with an axe
L is for Leo who swallowed some tacks
M is for Maud who was swept out to sea
N is for Neville who died of Ennui
O is for Olive run through with an awl
P is for Prue trampled flat in a brawl
Q is for Quentin who sank in a mire
R is for Rhoda consumed by a fire
S is for Susan who perished of fits
T is for titus who flew into bits
U is for Una who slipped down a drain
V is for Victor squashed under a train
W is for Winnie embedded in ice
X is for Xerxes devoured by mice
Y is for Yorick whose head was knocked in
Z is for Zillah who drank too much gin..
By Edward Gorey
//// SICK \\\\
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Tu Eres
Tu eres el amor de mi vida
Tu eres mi esperanza
Tu eres todo para mi
No te cambio por oro ni plata
No te cambio porninguna riqueza
Tu eres, eres mi todo Dios
No tomaré sin Ti otro paso
Pues no podría seguir
No viviré otro día sin Ti
Porque no tendré la fuerza
Señor si Tu no estas
Monday, September 10, 2007
The sun also sets
When you get the time
Sit down and write me a letter
When you're feeling better
Drop me a line
I wanna know how it all works out
I had a feeling we were fading out
I didn't know that people faded out so fast
And that people faded out
When there was love enough left to fix it
But, there it is
There it is, we are only one push from the nest
There it is, we are only one push from the nest.
There it is, the sun rises
But the sun sets, the sun also sets
When you get these feelings
Next time, next time
Oh, be sure
You're gonna tear someone apart
I wanna know how it all works out
I had a feeling we were fading out
I didn't know that people faded out
That people faded out so fast
I wanna show you what i've got inside
But you know those parts of me died
Just like that, they faded out
They faded out so fast
And there was love enough left to fix it
But, there it is
There it is, we are only one shove from the nest
There it is, we are only one argument from deaf
There it is, we are only one moment from death
There it is, we are only one push from the nest
There it is, there it is
There it is, we are only one push from the nest
There it is, we are only one moment from death
The sun rises
But the sun also sets
Sit down and write me a letter
When you're feeling better
Drop me a line
I wanna know how it all works out
I had a feeling we were fading out
I didn't know that people faded out so fast
And that people faded out
When there was love enough left to fix it
But, there it is
There it is, we are only one push from the nest
There it is, we are only one push from the nest.
There it is, the sun rises
But the sun sets, the sun also sets
When you get these feelings
Next time, next time
Oh, be sure
You're gonna tear someone apart
I wanna know how it all works out
I had a feeling we were fading out
I didn't know that people faded out
That people faded out so fast
I wanna show you what i've got inside
But you know those parts of me died
Just like that, they faded out
They faded out so fast
And there was love enough left to fix it
But, there it is
There it is, we are only one shove from the nest
There it is, we are only one argument from deaf
There it is, we are only one moment from death
There it is, we are only one push from the nest
There it is, there it is
There it is, we are only one push from the nest
There it is, we are only one moment from death
The sun rises
But the sun also sets
Sunday, September 02, 2007
moving to Tijuana
I know im letting you in on this a bit early on, but you never know how quickly a year can go by.. So here's the scoop.. I recently got back from a trip to Tijuana, where God did some amazing things in my heart.. he knocked me over the head a couple of times and shook me to my senses. and I feel like once I shape my life up (Im working on it, it's a slow process) then He's going to send me to move to Tijuana, and work in the Childrens home, mabye even start a new one. I know.. that's a big deal. So what I'll be doing this year, while I shape up my life, is going to College, taking the Early Childhook Care and Education program, which is going to give me some fantastic knowledge and experience, and then I'm going to plan to go down south with the team and stay .. a heck of alot longer than them... Mabye for the rest of my life.
I want to serve GOD and I want to serve the beautiful people of Tijuana for him.
BUT! ! ! ! ! ! I've tried to make plans before - they weren't what God wanted. This time, I hope it's different, and it's what God wants for me, but just incase Im on crack or something and totally headed in the wrong direction, don't take my word for this until you've seen me pack my bags..
Plans are plans. God is God and he will do what he likes with my plans until they fit along with HIS perfect and Holy will for my life! ! ! !
Hope you're well
Lots of Love always and forever
Ashley
xoxo
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Ryan Adams
words cannot describe the amazing experience I just had at the Ryan Adams show downtown tonight. So im not even going to try. ... Im just glad I had someone along with me who appreciates music as much as I do, mabye even more so, seeing how I got my love of music from him and my brother. Props to my dad.. I love ya! and Ryan Adams is ... fantastic. His voice just sends me into another place where I can't think of anything but the music.. and that's a good place to be sometimes. .
Rock on..
He still loves me
Took me a while
But I'm finally here
I just wanna testify
Make it crystal clear
See I've been picked out
To be picked on
Talked about out my friend's mouth
I've been beat down
Til he turned my life around
Seems like I always fall short of bein worthy
Cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me
I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shinin on me
cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me
I used to wake up some days
and wish I'd stayed asleep cuz i went to bed on top of the world
today the world's on top of me
everybody's got opinions they share
They aint been in my position,
they don't carethat it breaks my heart
when I hear what they have to say about me
seems like I always fall short of bein worthy
Cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me
I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shinin on me cuz I aint good enough
but he still loves me
I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best
But it aint good enough
Shunned by the world
If I don't succeed
Cuz I aint good
But he still loves me
If you aint worthy just raise your hands
And let me know that you understand
That we are all so blessed
To be loved, loved
Stand for him and fall for anything
Cause through his eyes we all look the same
What would we do without blame?
Feels like we always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I aint good enough
But he still loves me
I aint no superstar
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
uh huh
after eight straight days of rain in North Vancouver, (a record for this time of year) the sun is finally shining again! I can't wait to get outside and enjoy that - and tomorrow is going to be a day of tanning and relaxation... well, that's the plan, but when you bring an eight year old to the beach with you, I dont know how much relaxation can occur. we shall see. I might just give him some toys and ignore him all day.. ahahahah yeah right. Anyways my little cousin is here for the week and so we're gonna go to the beach tomorrow. what a party it will be. Im glad it finally stopped raining, it's hard to entertain a kid like Dylan inside a small confined space. Thank God for the sunshine! anyways .. Grandma and Grandpa came over for dinner tonight we had lasagna and it was pretty fantastic. ... yeah.. I dont think I have a point to this post.
Im listening to my brother and his friend sing right now, I like thier music it's goooood.. problem bieng it makes me miss my brother.
Oh well I can't do anything about that.. Im gonna be in mexico while they come to visit, it's depressing. .. but mexico will be good..
Wow im really uninspired.
im going now..
peace
Im listening to my brother and his friend sing right now, I like thier music it's goooood.. problem bieng it makes me miss my brother.
Oh well I can't do anything about that.. Im gonna be in mexico while they come to visit, it's depressing. .. but mexico will be good..
Wow im really uninspired.
im going now..
peace
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
what a feeling
I've been trying to think of what I can possibly write here to express my feelings towards life in general at the moment. Problem is, there's so much going on right now, that I am a jumble of everything exciting and over the top.
I'm going to Mexico in 15 days. I am really excited about this, but really nervous too, because Mexico this year isn't going to be the same as Mexico last year. I feel like I know this, but I still don't know how to prepare myself for whatever this trip is going to bring. I guess all I can really do is wait and keep praying for the team to be blessed, and to bless others. This team has been under attack already, we haven't even left for Mexico. We've already lost three of our team members, and we're due to leave in 15 days. I was really sick last week, and I've been having intense allergies to anything and everything lately, it's like someone doesn't want us going on this trip. We're also short alot of funds, some of this is because the church has focused so much of it's attention on Africa (not necessarily a bad thing, but still) that we, as "Mexico" have been put on the back burner. We have a final fundraiser on Sunday, I guess we just have to wait and see what the outcome of this will be. To be honest, I dont need to worry, because God will provide what we need - it could be that we think we need more than we do, or it could be that it's all gonna fall in our laps just when we need it. Last year, we needed to raise about fifteen thousand dollars, and we wound up with twenty, and got to help a really wonderful woman and her little girl. God has already provided for us, the families that we are to help this year, He already knows what we're going to do, who we're going to meet and who is going to change our lives as we potentially change thiers.
I am so excited to see the people who I love, I am so excited to learn more spanish, and so excited to meet the people God has put in place for the team and I. Mexico, I feel, was, is, and will always be a life - changing experience, different every time, but constant all the while. I'm scared - of what im going to see. I'm happy - that we get to make a difference in someones life, and I'm excited - because I know that the people of Tijuana have the ability to teach me more, in two weeks time, than I have ever learned in all my years of education.
after we finish building, the team is going to split up - most of the canadians, save for Pete, Jude, Doug, Russ, Lynn and I, are going to be headed home. The Aussies and Remaining Canadians (except for me) are headed south, to Ochos Negros to build a church. I am going to be back, once more, in the company of the amazing people at the City of angels Childrens home.
I can't begin to guess at what my experience will be like - all I know is that Im going to Tijuana with a heart full of Love for God's children there, and I will return to Canada with a heart full of that same love, and perhaps some of thier love for me..
I wish everyone in the world could have the experience that I'm going to have. I wish that everyone would get the chance to see what it's like in someone elses country - in somone elses world, because really, they are two different planets alltogether. When you've had an experience like the one I had last year, and hopefully will have this year, you're never the same again.
and that's the best thing about it.
you see, many people go on trips like this, expecting to be the teacher - expecting to educate the people of the world in the ways of North America... But everything get's turned around. You may not be able to speak the language, but words have no place when love is bieng shared. and that's really what this trip is about.
god bless us everyone
xoxoxo
PS im really excited, aparently Doug is gonna be in the van with us, and he is the funniest most amusing man I've ever met.. Boy is it gonna be interesting. (Yes, Im talking about your dad, Hillary..)
I'm going to Mexico in 15 days. I am really excited about this, but really nervous too, because Mexico this year isn't going to be the same as Mexico last year. I feel like I know this, but I still don't know how to prepare myself for whatever this trip is going to bring. I guess all I can really do is wait and keep praying for the team to be blessed, and to bless others. This team has been under attack already, we haven't even left for Mexico. We've already lost three of our team members, and we're due to leave in 15 days. I was really sick last week, and I've been having intense allergies to anything and everything lately, it's like someone doesn't want us going on this trip. We're also short alot of funds, some of this is because the church has focused so much of it's attention on Africa (not necessarily a bad thing, but still) that we, as "Mexico" have been put on the back burner. We have a final fundraiser on Sunday, I guess we just have to wait and see what the outcome of this will be. To be honest, I dont need to worry, because God will provide what we need - it could be that we think we need more than we do, or it could be that it's all gonna fall in our laps just when we need it. Last year, we needed to raise about fifteen thousand dollars, and we wound up with twenty, and got to help a really wonderful woman and her little girl. God has already provided for us, the families that we are to help this year, He already knows what we're going to do, who we're going to meet and who is going to change our lives as we potentially change thiers.
I am so excited to see the people who I love, I am so excited to learn more spanish, and so excited to meet the people God has put in place for the team and I. Mexico, I feel, was, is, and will always be a life - changing experience, different every time, but constant all the while. I'm scared - of what im going to see. I'm happy - that we get to make a difference in someones life, and I'm excited - because I know that the people of Tijuana have the ability to teach me more, in two weeks time, than I have ever learned in all my years of education.
after we finish building, the team is going to split up - most of the canadians, save for Pete, Jude, Doug, Russ, Lynn and I, are going to be headed home. The Aussies and Remaining Canadians (except for me) are headed south, to Ochos Negros to build a church. I am going to be back, once more, in the company of the amazing people at the City of angels Childrens home.
I can't begin to guess at what my experience will be like - all I know is that Im going to Tijuana with a heart full of Love for God's children there, and I will return to Canada with a heart full of that same love, and perhaps some of thier love for me..
I wish everyone in the world could have the experience that I'm going to have. I wish that everyone would get the chance to see what it's like in someone elses country - in somone elses world, because really, they are two different planets alltogether. When you've had an experience like the one I had last year, and hopefully will have this year, you're never the same again.
and that's the best thing about it.
you see, many people go on trips like this, expecting to be the teacher - expecting to educate the people of the world in the ways of North America... But everything get's turned around. You may not be able to speak the language, but words have no place when love is bieng shared. and that's really what this trip is about.
god bless us everyone
xoxoxo
PS im really excited, aparently Doug is gonna be in the van with us, and he is the funniest most amusing man I've ever met.. Boy is it gonna be interesting. (Yes, Im talking about your dad, Hillary..)
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
the order of the phoenix
I saw a midnight showing of the newest harry potter movie last night and to be honest, it missed so much important detail that I really dont like it at all.. I wont pay to see it again, and I won't reccomend it for people who have not read the book, because if you see it, you will have no clue what the heck's going on, unless you have read the book.. and then.. if you've read the book, you're going to be mad when you see it because of how much detail was left out...
overall rating, one and a half stars...
and draco doesnt say more than two words.. unacceptable..
overall rating, one and a half stars...
and draco doesnt say more than two words.. unacceptable..
Monday, July 09, 2007
Saturday, July 07, 2007
ATTACK!
So we were sitting there, Grace, Sam and I, around the kitchen table, having a nice time. There was a two litre bottle of coke about two feet away from me, and my purse alot closer - some CD's and a couple other things on the table. All of a sudden, I see this thing jump onto the table, bounce off of the coke bottle, onto my purse, Grace yells "SQUIRREL!"with her fantastic british accent, I screamed, and then the thing ran back out the door. Grace and I both got up and ran behind sam, who stayed right where he was.. and we all start laughing as we replay the event in our heads and thoughts.. Imagine that.. a squirrel was in the kitchen, on the kitchen table, and like six inches away from my face.
you had to have been there, but trust me.. it was the funniest thing EVER
Monday, July 02, 2007
crawls
It's wierd for me that it's now July.. seems like the month of June was the longest month of my life to date. I can't even believe I've only been living here for one month, it feels like it took us forever to move. It feels like I've been living in this house for months and months, with my parents. its wierd to even think back to the time (two weeks ago?) when I lived here by myself.. How is it that time goes by so slowly, yet it's nothing? it's only been a month, yet I feel ages older than I really am, I feel like that old red house has been gone for a year already. Yet I've only driven past it once and seen someone elses car in the driveway. I only said goodbye to it last week.. Here I am, feeling like I've been here forever and that house has been gone a long time.
I bet when Im in mexico, the time's going to fly by, and before I know it, I'll be on the plane on the way home. OHHHH WELL! ! ! ! ! ! That's how it goes I guess..
hopefully this month wont drag by, but hopefully it wont be over before I know it either.
Im going to go chill outside.. seems like that kind of day..
xoxo
I bet when Im in mexico, the time's going to fly by, and before I know it, I'll be on the plane on the way home. OHHHH WELL! ! ! ! ! ! That's how it goes I guess..
hopefully this month wont drag by, but hopefully it wont be over before I know it either.
Im going to go chill outside.. seems like that kind of day..
xoxo
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
so this is gooodbye
so this is it.. every last little thing is gone out of the little red house and it's all lonely and alone and not ours anymore.
It's very empty.. dont like it much
time to let go, i guess
xoxo
It's very empty.. dont like it much
time to let go, i guess
xoxo
Friday, June 22, 2007
what a day
Hey ! ! ! Toady was a pretty good day, I went on a hike with my friends Jeremiah and Hannah, and then I went to the stupidstore with my buddy Jaxi and we bought some coffee beans, then went to her house and brewed em up and mmm they were pretty good ! ! I finally got my camera working, i took some pretty sweet pics up the rock today, it was a slice ! ! !
Anyways.. I keep seeing people that I don't want to see, I absoloutely hate it. I wish they would just stay out of my life and away from me - I guess the only way that'll ever happen is if I move to another city, and Im thinking as soon as Im done at college, im out of here man, I can't take them anymore. They make me mad, and I dont like bieng mad. I walked past thier house the other day and TRIED to ignore them, I didnt say a thing, but her boyfriend yelled out to me, so I waved and kept walking - then she came out of the house with her mom and shooed all the boys inside, as if I was going to pick one up and run off with him. Honestly they're so insecure. I dont get how they could possibly be scared of me! I clearly don't want anything to do with them or thier men.. but nooo they dont get it.. they scared, BUT here's the tricky bit! ! !! for them to stop bieng scared, and get it through thier thick skulls that I dont want anything to do with them.. LEAVE ME ALONE! !
See if that works.. doubt it though.. trust me, when im done school im outta here..
Anyways I had a good day today aside from seeing her in a car.. but that's alright! !
For now im outta here, I dont have really alot to say, I've been busy with stuff, but at the same time not doing anything at all. Blah.. it's no fun not having a job.. I get waaay too bored waaaay too fast..
My wish for the day : that a certian someone who stopped talking to me for NO reason whatsoever would tell me why...
Lots of love and happiness always
ashley
xoxo
Anyways.. I keep seeing people that I don't want to see, I absoloutely hate it. I wish they would just stay out of my life and away from me - I guess the only way that'll ever happen is if I move to another city, and Im thinking as soon as Im done at college, im out of here man, I can't take them anymore. They make me mad, and I dont like bieng mad. I walked past thier house the other day and TRIED to ignore them, I didnt say a thing, but her boyfriend yelled out to me, so I waved and kept walking - then she came out of the house with her mom and shooed all the boys inside, as if I was going to pick one up and run off with him. Honestly they're so insecure. I dont get how they could possibly be scared of me! I clearly don't want anything to do with them or thier men.. but nooo they dont get it.. they scared, BUT here's the tricky bit! ! !! for them to stop bieng scared, and get it through thier thick skulls that I dont want anything to do with them.. LEAVE ME ALONE! !
See if that works.. doubt it though.. trust me, when im done school im outta here..
Anyways I had a good day today aside from seeing her in a car.. but that's alright! !
For now im outta here, I dont have really alot to say, I've been busy with stuff, but at the same time not doing anything at all. Blah.. it's no fun not having a job.. I get waaay too bored waaaay too fast..
My wish for the day : that a certian someone who stopped talking to me for NO reason whatsoever would tell me why...
Lots of love and happiness always
ashley
xoxo
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