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I frustrate myself.

I find it easy, so foolishly easy, to trust those who I know I shouldnt, and I do not trust those who would actually benifit me. In November, I chose to trust a friend of mine with my name, and my credit, which has not yet gone to dust, but would have had I not come to my senses any sooner. You see..

oh wait before I even get into this story, I need to tell you this - Don't tell me how stupid this was of me, I've heard quite enough of that THANK YOU..

Anyways back to the story - I went with this friend of mine to the telus store, he bought two very expensive phones and got three year contracts for each one. Problem bieng that they were under MY name.. First couple of months went alright - bills got paid - then they started getting a little bit bigger. The first bill was for about $160 - Two phones, no big deal right. Then it went up to $230. then $250 - this last one was for $300.. So far - He owes me $850 - and since he doesnt live in this city getting that money is not proving to be as easy as I thought it would be. I even went to Calgary to see if I could get the money - but nooooooooo of course I didn't see him when I was there. Soo foolish! ! ! So I looked into it - go on and guess how much it's gonna cost to cancel the two contracts. $1200.... So either way you look at it, IM screwed. Im taking responsibility for this, only because it was me who was stupid enough in the first place to agree to this foolish contract. anyways so yeah, Im screwed. But it's so annoying, because I knew damn well that he wouldnt be responsible for the phone bills - Because I know what kind of person he is (not that he's a horrid person, don't start) but I know what he does, I know what he's involved in and I should have left it where it was when I left calgary last year.

Damn I frustrate myself.

Aside from that shit, some good stuff is happening. Relationships that haven't been too good, yet that I've been to cowardly to end myself have fallen away, with no help from me, which is good, because I suck at getting rid of bad things in my life. Anyways three people/relationships that have been pretty crappy for me are over, and Im not upset about them in any way shape or form, which is always great.

Next : stupid Jamaicans keep popping back into my life - via the telephone. Sometimes I honestly think I'd be better off If I had never called any of them EVER. Scratch that. Not sometimes. All the time..

what else is going on, oh yes, we're selling our house, and it's frustrating. Because of more than one reason. One of them is that our realtor doesnt seem to think he needs to give us too much notice before he wants to do a showing or an open house, and that's just annoying. Another reason is that people don't always have positive things to say about our house, and that's hurtful because it's like, hey, that's my home. I've lived there for 20 years, never had too much of a problem with it.. like show some respect, right?

ugg, also been having some family issues with the whole extended part of that. stupid people and stupid drugs and stupid kids getting kicked out of thier parents houses left and right and I dont want to deal with it.. but here we are, part of this family so we have to -

you want more? well here's the motherload - I dont know what the HELL to do with my life.

Figure that one out for me and I'll be happy.

No, we're not moving to alberta.. almost wish we were, it might be easier than all this..


yes anyways Im gonna go watch braveheart - I need a good serious long movie to distract me from all these freaking thoughts in my head and heart.

or do I? ?

peace out