My future!???

Hey y'all..

I havent blogged in awhile, it's retarded. I've been really busy, and I know that's my excuse every time, but you know how it goes. So here I am.. It's four days to mexico, and I suddenly can't believe it. It's hard to imagine what it's gonna be like when I'm there, I've got people left and right telling me all about it, but I can't really know until I've crossed the Tijuana border, and I'm there myself. I was totally ready for my Costa Rica trip, I think writing those papers helped alot, so I'm gonna do a little online thinking here, and consider some things.

I've seen pictures of Tijuana, and previous trips, and so I've gained a glimpse into the way it's gonna be. We are all meeting at nine am at doug and pats, and we're leaving from there. On the way down (three whole days) It's gonna be just me, Pete, and a guy named Rob from Austrailia. It's gonna be fun, bieng in the car with two Aussies, both of whom I'm sure will be full of fun stories and useless (?) facts that I wont ever forget. Ahhhh man I'm just ready to go and see this.. I'm ready to go and be a part of this team, I'm ready to get there and build EIGHT houses! I hear we're gonna be up at eight each morning, and going to the worksite, which I hear has a nice view of the ocean. That's exciting. I can't really imagine bieng in the Tijuana that's been described to me, and bieng able to see the ocean. So it'll be interesting.

One thing I've worried about constantly, is the language barrier. I've imagined myself going there, and wanting to talk to the beautiful children that I meet, but not bieng able to say anything to them. That would be frustrating. So I've learned a few little phrases, which I'm excited to try out and have them laugh at my accent.. But it'll be worth it.. Also I've thought that sometimes words arent needed. Sometimes all these kids are going to need is a hug.. and I'll be there with open arms for them.. Im so excited. But I'm so worried that one (Or all) of these kids are going to capture my heart, and I wont be able to leave without great pain..
Mabye this is gonna be God's way of pulling me into missions. It's crossed my mind quite a few times. More often than not.. that's what I think about.

You know what shocked me alot today? at church today Ron and Dorothy talked about thier mission in China, and casually mentioned the law that families can only have one child, and then my mind went to the thought of thousands of little Chineese girls who get put up for adoption every year because families want boys.. I had this random thought that I want to adopt a little chineese girl.. so ... let's see what happens. I mean, I'm way too young to adopt a child, but it's a thought.

Anyways.. things are random for me right now. Im going on a missions trip in a few days. It's going to be amazing.. I'm just here thinking about a million possibilites for my future, and I don't have a clue which way to go or where to start..

So I'm going to go for now, it's been a slice. I'll be writing in my journal in mexico, possibly blogging once or twice (depending on the location or existance of an internet cafe.) and if this doesnt work, expect a blog when I get home. Who knows, mabye God will reveal his plan for me, or at least a little part of it while Im in Mexico..

Please pray for that. I think that if I had any prayer requests, that would be the biggest one. That I would find God's direction for my life.. I want it to be right away, but I also need to learn to wait on Him. Only his timing is perfect.. so here goes nothing..

Love forever : ashley
xoxo

I'm a poor wayfaring stranger
While traveling thru this world of woe
Yet there's no sickness, toil, or danger
In that bright world to which I go
I'm going there to see my Father
I'm going there no more to roam
I'm only going over Jordan
I'm only going over home
I know dark clouds will hang 'round me,
I know my way is rough and steep
Yet beauteous fields lie just before me
Where God's redeemed their virgils keep